I love that garden. I grow succulents and cacti as a hobby, would love to live somewhere someday where I can plant them outdoors. When I had my house I could at least put them out on the deck for ~6 months of the year in their pots. Now it’s strictly indoor with grow lights 
They don’t do half as well with the artificial lighting.
Oh well. Things will be different some day in the future!
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Those are amazing pics. @TMAC
Is there ever a TS conference where we can all meet up, maybe in Iceland? Can we run it by the board of directors @Robin @SassyRocks
I’m sure it would be very therapeutic.
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Wow your place looks incredible!! You are such a great decorator, I need you to come decorate mine!! The view looks wonderful.
Im so proud of how far you have come!! Congrats on the divorce finalization. I hope that brings you much freedom, relief, and peace!! 
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Thank you 
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Such an awesome pic to have gotten! Lucky 
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I never seem to have legal issues unless alcohol is involved. Go figure 
I can play the blame game and talk about how unfair and ridiculous it all is, but the truth is, had I not been drinking and behaving erratically, the police would’ve never been called.
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I’m trying to. I keep letting resentment and blaming others creep in, but I also keep reminding myself that I had a part in it, and the whole thing could have been avoided, if I was sober. It’ll pass. It’s not the most serious charge in the world, but it just sucks to have to go to through the whole court process. I don’t really need another criminal charge on my background reports.
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Absolutely. I definitely had that conversation with myself, during the 3 hours of sitting at the police station yesterday. It was a pretty simple one, “If you stay sober, you won’t have to do this kind of shit anymore.” 
It will pass, and it’s a good reminder of what’s waiting for me if I continue to live a life in active addiction.
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Thanks Beth. My face is still pretty swollen and itchy. I was walking up to the meeting and that sucker came out of nowhere and flew right into my cheek. I was determined to stay and I wanted to share to get everything out but I felt like everyone would be focused on my blown up face.
Supposedly hubby’s doctor started taking edibles himself a few months ago and now he thinks it’s a cure all for all his patients. I wish I knew this, I would have had him change doctors.
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Checking in on day 44…
Does anyone else have this problem… Someone who KNOWS I am an alcoholic and I have said over and over that I dont drink and have told them why and they have SEEN me blacked out and I have shared how many days I have… chooses to keep offering me alcohol! I feel SO disrespected!! At least once a day I have to make a choice not to drink because its offered to me. His response is “One wont hurt.” And to top it all off he comes and puts two cases of beer in my fridge because they dont fit in his. So everytime I open the fridge I have to see it and everytime I have a weak moment it flashes in my mind. I just hate this guy. Its my daughters grandpa (dads side). Sorry rant over. I am glad I have enough days under my belt to feel semi strong in this but COME ON!!!
@Brookiemonster618 You were that girls angel!! Who knows what could have happened to her. Some guys pray on those situations and she could have gotten so hurt. My family went to the fair yesterday and NOBODY was wearing their masks, it was like COVID isnt even a thing.
@Mno Wow, your vacation flew by!.. but you got soo much done!! Your kitchen looks so tranquil and relaxing. Great job.
@Lisa07 Hope things get better for you! I would be mad at the doctor too. My daughters father thinks weed is the answer to everything too!! Sooo far from reality.
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Very good point I didnt think about this. His identical twin is currently suffering from liver failure due to alcohol and even tried paying my daughters father 250k for his liver!!
He must do this to stay in his demented reality that the alcohol isnt going to kill him too.
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Have you found a good time to have a really good conversation about this with him. Cuz what he’s doing is not right. Draw some boundaries? I mean there are a lot of boundaries broken here. Maybe just one. Please don’t ask me if I want a drink even tough your keeping your beer in my fridge. A little give and take.
Sorry. It’s very insensitive of him. And frankly you don’t need that shit.
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Today I went into a newsagent/off licence. I am in the seaside town of Eastbourne on the South coast of England. I am in temporary accommodation at the moment I went in to buy some sweets for someone and saw the bottles of vodka behind the counter. Different brands, various sizes.
Now, this was interesting because the last time I went in there was 3-4 months ago. I bought a large bottle of vodka then for what was my last drunk and last drink.
I felt an attraction to the alcohol, thinking about how I was sure I would feel so good, how I would get that high. Across the road is a bench and I saw it from the counter. Memories came back. Not good ones. Not good ones at all. That was the bench where I was sleeping during the night, even when it was cold and raining with two bags of wet clothes. I fell off it one night and the police, who were checking on me found me unconscious with a head injury. A couple of days later it had turned septic and I was admitted to a hospital (again). I cannot remember that. When I was discharged I collapsed within minutes and I was readmitted with suspected PE and alcohol withdrawal. Then my luck changed and I had a discharge plan which involved temporary housing but that vodka did not seem so attractive after all. 
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@Clarity; I would’ve said NO, you absolutely cannot put beer in my fridge!! I don’t effin drink! Get it through your beer drenched head, fgs! Geesh, lol!
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Day 320.
Hubby had Surgery Saturday morning.
He’s home now.
I have foolishly given him a bell to ring, for emergencies.
I should have set boundaries
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Oh no, not a bell! What were you thinking? 
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I’m considering it an experiment right now 
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Right there with you. Looking forward to double digit sobriety!
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Checking in on day 27. Working on the garden and making miso soup from scratch.
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