Checking in.
Made it through the day.
I love the change of season. But I’m not gonna lie. Fall, cool weather, football season coming up. Red wine. 
A nice bottle of red wine in the cool change over to autumn sounds really good. I’m not going to!! But I’d by kidding myself if I said all is well and I haven’t been thinking about a nice bottle of Cabernet all day. Hopefully putting this out there will help.
Love you guys.
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Day 72.
Something about this week feels like a test. Not a one-time big-trigger event sort of test, but a series of small annoyances, recurring situations I can’t change (I know, I know - focus on what’s in my control) and I thought of that first drink today, as I walked the dog girl after work, and I craved the relief it would bring, the reward it holds.
I know, I know, again… …everything after the first drink would bring anything but relief and reward.
And so I don’t. There’s no first drink.
That’s about all I got for today…
This is still fun, right? 
What is fun is checking in here and seeing how much amazingness is going on with all these milestones and infectious energy!
Thank you, all you beautiful people, for showing up and sharing - and letting me do same. Big love to all 
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I so get this today. Let’s give it some time, and we’ll be posting something in a day or week or two about how glad we are to be sober.
Football will come and go and thanksgiving dinner too (without wine, for real ) and when my mind leaps beyond one day at a time, I picture waking up the day after each craving or day like today… glad to be sober.
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Never done fall winter holidays without booze. I’m sure I’m not alone. Thanks for weighing in. It’s so fucking cliche. But seriously “ one freakin day at a time”. I didn’t want to drink wine today. But I just couldn’t stop thinking about a bottle of it.
We’ll get through this with a little help from out friends.
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Triple digits! Way to go!!!
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Way to go Olivia! That’s great!! Love the rose. So beautiful. Just like you
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Day 284
God bless
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Checking in before bed. One month and 18 days. Feeling a bit alone and sad. Too many ghosts from the past are creeping in tonight.
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I second that. And I’ve been reminding myself that this is also the season for spiced cider and hot chocolate. But thank you for writing out loud what I’ve been thinking. It helps.
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be tough on the not drinking but gentle on the emotions dear. Good you reached out. We might have to try over and over again. but no step in the right direction is lost. (also it does not feel like that probably first days. at least with me) the black and white thinking or fatal thinking takes over some times.
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Sorry you had to reset Rosa. But I’m glad you back up and at it again. Learn from it. Now it’s in the past and let’s get moving on again. You can only control you and your sobriety. My wife has drank all 251 days of my sobriety. Nothing I can do about that. I do feel all alone sometimes. Especially in the evenings. But I’m grateful for the times we have together when she isn’t drinking in the early part of the day.
Praying for ya.
Maybe some good angry power walking on the treadmill will help. Always does me good. But not the treadmill part. Just in the hood.
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this picture is briljant! nature can give such beautiful reminders of the simplicity of life.
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Yaaaayyyy! Good job!
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Awesomeness 
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Thank you. I wish I had a rose garden but no… This one grew in the internet
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Husband got home from work yesterday because he is having a bad cold too.
He mostly doesn’t work Fridays so he’ll only miss a day.
Nothing new about my brothers house hunt yet,but lots of new family drama came in like a mini tornado yesterday. Mostly small things but it still gives me a little trouble. Don’t know what they said to Pa at the hospital yesterday, haven’t had the chance to talk to him yet.
One child is supposed to be back at school today if he feels Okey. I’m still having a cold myself so it’s going to be another day in soft clothes drinking tea.
This weeks paper is about power and norms, my teacher had an entire lecture yesterday about privileged and not privileged groups, womens oppression and the oppression of ethinical groups. She didn’t say a single word about gypsies, so I did. I think she got a little mad, and most of my classmates got upset too. I’m not entirely sure why. Maybe because I tried to move focus from other things that are important in their world. Or maybe because I claimed that the gypsy culture I’m raised in doesn’t oppress woman and that there’s always an elderly woman in charge.
Anyway I’m dedicating my paper to that gypsy culture, because we have to discuss and present our papers in our groups Monday, the entire class have to read them and they will be up for class discussion next week.
If the university isn’t a place where we can discuss things that isn’t “mainstream” then we have a serious problem. Guess it’s going to be interesting three years in this program. 
Wishing y’all an amazing week. 
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Atta girl! 
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Well done on 30 days!
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Whoo hoo, great job xx