Oh @CapriciousCapricorn , with deep respect, I disagree. Your love for her, (and yourself too), is much stronger - because you are doing something about it, you are waking up every morning with the intention of facing this, dealing with the things it brings up, and healing. And you are showing her how to do this by your example.
I picture that in her future, when life deals her her own hand, and she needs to draw upon examples of people who have overcome great trials, who have faced into the darkness and brought the truth to light, who embody deep love of themselves by their pursuit of growth - her own mother will be at the forefront of these examples. It may well be you could give her no greater gift…
Congratulations Courtney, you’re on here sharing your feelings about drinking instead of acting on them. That’s how this thing works. Proud of you. Keep up the good work my friend and be kind to yourself.
Day 74.
Got a bit more of my mojo back today at work/my desk, just in time for a weekend.
No Friday post-work cravings either, which is a win.
An amazing 3-hr middle-of-the night thunderstorm kept me up last night. I had to crack into the six-pack I was saving for the weekend to help get me back to sleep. No triggers! They were only bath bombs from the farmers market!
Lavender is usually my go-to for relaxation, but tonight I just might mix it up and go with lemongrass. It’s like soaking in my favourite Thai soup!
Sweet sober Friday night and a super sweet sleep to follow.
G’night all. Wishing you peaceful rests and happy wake-ups!
Checking in with all my sober friends on day 1080 of continuous sobriety. Going through a lot emotionally and spiritually the past few days. I know this to shall pass. The number one most important thing is staying true to myself and maintaining my sobriety. There, but for the grace of God go I.
Checking in late Friday night.
We, the wife and I, finally got out today. I don’t know about y’all but I haven’t been out to a grocery store or any kind of store or restaurant since March 20th. I’ve been to the vet for the pets of course. Maybe inside a restaurant twice to pick up food. Otherwise we’ve basically been, it feels like, shut ins. We get everything we need delivered. We been in Flagstaff almost 2 years and when the Pandemic hit we’ve just hunkered down. I think it is kind of weird and not normal especially for me. Maybe I just needed this great big rest because I haven’t really minded. It does feel very strange being out in public these days. I reckon the most important thing for me is my sobriety and I’m doing it!! WE WILL START EXPLORING FLAGSTAFF!! FFS the Grand Canyon is only a little over an hour away I think. We haven’t been. I have actually had a pretty rough 5 years before my sobriety but I don’t want to get into it now. This is already too long of a check in.
First trip Buffalo Park. That’s the San Francisco Peaks in the background. Thank you all for all your support and listening to me.
Love you all.
I KNOW!!! I think it’s the change in seasons and weather and football season and Holidays coming up. I never been sober for that. And I recall neither have you. Cuz I’m right there with you sister. All day Tuesday I think, I posted on here, I was fantasizing about a nice bottle of Cabernet sitting by the fire place. All fucking day long I was thinking about that. I didn’t want to drink. I did’t have the urge to drink. But I couldn’t get it out of my head. Fantasizing but not having urges. Maybe we are beating this basstid!!! And today I’m all pissed off cuz it isn’t fair I can’t open a Plumpjack Cab and enjoy it. IT ISN’T FUCKING FAIR!!! But again I don’t want to drink either. And I’m pretty sure I don’t want to drink tomorrow.
Like I’ve said before. This is the devil at his finest work. Son of an effing bitch!! We never started out thinking it would be a great idea to become alcoholics when we grow up.
Coffee and starting my work week in 30 minutes. A long one for me. And maybe it’s in the air or something but I’ve felt some craves lately too, just like you @Dragonflygirl82 and @Dazercat. We’re not going to give in though. That’d be stupid. Never again! Life is better sober and clean for folks like us. Have a good weekend all. Love from Amsterdam.
Today is 30days clean again! I’m loving the freedom of not having to use drugs . The past 30days have been so hard at times but I’ve learned to let go let God and then everything turns out for the best … I’m so excited to see what my future holds and each day the joys of recovery are shining through. Thankyou all for the love and support. Happy Saturday every one xxx
Hmmm Saturday, what to do. Bit of PS4, tv and a meeting. Can’t say that’s too bad. At 40 I still play videogames, have done since I was a teenager. Helps me escape from my thoughts for a bit.
Haven’t watched a good tv show or movie in a while, anxiety had always got in the was if focus and and enjoyment, the enjoyment will come back though
Great to see people checking in with so many days sober but it’s also great to see people checking in on day one or back on day one.
Awake at 7am, woke about 4 times, really need to sort this stupid sleep out, maybe stay up later or something or start exercising, I am a lazy fucker at the.minute though
Anyway, as usual I start to go on and on so happy Saturday people
I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 13
It’s raining, and apparently I ate something containing milk yesterday, probably the chips even if the label said “dairy free, may contain traces of milk protein” it was the only thing I ate I haven’t been eating since I started my prescribed diet. And even if I’m not feeling well at the moment I now know that I can’t eat that chips brand. Good to know for the future.
It’s funny how it has went from don’t care at all I’m constantly feeling bad anyway, with all the drinking. To this state where I actually feels really ill when I’m eating something I’m not supposed to staying sober and actually cares for my health.
I’m really happy that I’ve got the chance to do that and turn things around.
The cold is getting better to.
Happy weekend y’all
That is beautiful
Keep exploring in a safe way and give us photos like that.
I really hope you’ll feel better tomorrow.
You can do this no matter the season.
today was definitely just one of those days drinking was a lot more on my mind.
You win the sobriety jackpot !!!
