Wow! Many congrats on 400! That looks like a massive number. 
Congratulations that’s awesome 
Thanks, I did put baking soda in the refrigerator and that seemed to work. Cleaned out the entire kitchen too 
Yay you Conor! Congrats friend.
Day 24 sober and nicotine free…had EMDR yesterday and today terrible dreams last night and woke up riddled with emotions all over the place so took the day off work rang my boss had a good chat and worked days off around it. Will stay sober no matter what life is beautiful without it
Day 10 Sober check in!
Day 20 today!!! It was unthinkable 21 days ago. I’m extremely proud of myself. I’m excited to get back to my workout today. No pain no gain right? 
Also I cannot wait for the meeting at 12. I had such a great experience with it. I had a using dream last night, but it wasn’t me using, it was an old friend of mine. I walked away. So it’s not a bad dream if I can say no even in my dream.
I hope everyone has a happy sober Thursday!! Let’s getttttt it!
Hello, everyone. Working on day 20 today. The twenties! This gets easier and easier. I think the change in seasons helps. I’m not Jewish, but I feel like it’s the beginning of a new year. I’m so honored to have met virtually all you brave souls fighting your toughest and most frightening personal wars not with bullets and bombs and shields, but with resolve and fellowship, faith and grit. You are my inspiration. See you on the other side of the sun.
Mychelle, you are doing soooo well. Really impressed by how you threw yourself into this. Those dreams are just your subconscious helping you split from the old you. You’re gonna have a great life.
Love this attitude lady!! You are rocking it.
You definitely should be proud of yourself! Keep going. It gets better and better.
Thank you so much for this message! You are completely right about my dream and that helps me so much. I’m grateful for your words of wisdom. I hope you day is as beautiful as you are!
Checking in at 112.3 days. Wanted to post last night, but got home so late from work I didn’t have it in me. One of my guys closed on his first deal yesterday, so it was a super exciting day. I’m so proud of how hard he’s working.
I met with my new attorneys and we are really on the same page. Went over everything, spent almost three hours there yesterday, mostly chit chatting and client stories. These guys are so my people and I look forward to many years with them. Anyway we ironed out a lot and when I got back to the office, I sent a very detailed email to my problem child listing out exactly certain items I needed him to change or update. His reaction to it was going to dictate my next move. I let him know I was still in the office and to give me a call with any questions. I was very pleasantly surprised that by the time he called he knocked off every item on the list and vowed to take it up a notch and be in the office more. We’ll see what happens, but I’m very pleased with his reaction, floored actually.
Now something new popped up with another broker that I’m friends with, and it’s been heavy on my mind. I’ll get to that another day, but she literally ripped apart every aspect of my business down to the name. She picked on every aspect of who I am too. Some I needed to hear, some was very unnecessary and uncalled for. She’s owned her firm for over 20 years, and I’ve only owned mine for about 2.5 years. I’ve successfully hired a team and we’re pretty busy even with Covid. She seems jealous when newer brokers are successful. A good friend of mine is 5 years ahead of me and made millions last year, he’s a sweet guy and very well liked. She has zero respect for him. So to me that’s jealousy. He’s been an invaluable mentor to me and I love him to death. So I think the fact that I’ve been so busy bothers her? I don’t know. I just felt really dark and sad yesterday on a day that should have been a really happy one. I’m working so hard on self esteem and boom, here’s one more person completely comfortable with tearing me down. I will NEVER let her know she’s gotten to me. I will say she used to have brokers but they all quit because they said she was abusive.
Ok I flapped more than I intended too. Gotta head to work and get my guy paid!!! So proud of him. I’m so lucky with these guys. PS she absolutely detests how loyal they are to me.
Way to go making it through the day without pills. It’s such a good feeling to be able to squash those cravings. Good for you for being present for your daughter too. Online learning has got to come with its challenges!
It’s my 4th day being sober. I’m very tired, it’s quite intense emotionally. I’m going to a therapy and it’s really demanding sometimes. I know that I have to build myself up and it requires strength but alcohol makes me weak. So I have to carry on and be sober to be able to cope with my problems.
Alcohol makes us weak and lies to us. How many times did it lie to me, promising I’d feel better and the next day I’d still have my physical ailments plus a nasty hangover. You’re in the right place. It’s so good you’re seeing a therapist. You can do this!
If you flipped that around and she was doing well and you were comparing yourself to her you’f be in a worse place. It’s jealousy, pure and simple. Comparing yourself to others as an addict is one way to start a bad thought process, for me anyway.
Learning to let that stuff go and more importantly placing sobriety above anything else.But I do get where you are coming from 
Glad you had a great day other than the teeney blip, as that’s what is was!
Day 10! Woo double digits. I slept okay last night- kept waking up and I’ve got a stomach ache this morning. I meant to go for a walk this morning but it was so dark and I was so comfortable. I’m struggling with changing my diet and exercise habits, though small steps have been taken. I guess I should count that as a victory instead of a failure. I just always want to do everything all at once and feel like a screw up if I don’t do it perfectly. It’s hard to be kind to myself but I’m working on it and will continue to do so. I’m proud of the progress I’ve made without alcohol but there are still other changes I want to make and I can’t seem to get it together. I’m a little frustrated this morning I suppose.
Just want to pop in and say that I’m loving all the support being given on this thread. I remember clawing through the early days so, so vividly. 
You are rocking it!! 
