Day 10: Feeling a sense of calm today. Not a lot on the agenda but the possibilities are endless with my “to do” and “could do” lists getting longer everyday! In the past this would have caused me to feel more anxious, but I am finding it liberating because I have so much more time and energy without the stress from drinking. I want to make sure I don’t fall into avoidance of doing recovery work, so that’s on my priority list, too. I think it’s going to be a good day!
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Day 55 without alcohol and today I hit 9 months without Adderall which is huge for me.
Yesterday I was suuuper tired, all I accomplished was doing one load of laundry and marinating some chicken. But I accept that its okay to have days like that. Some days are just a struggle to get through the day. But other days I move mountains. I am just going to accept that its okay to do what my body is feeling and not beat myself up about it. Hopefully today is a mountain moving day, but if its not then ohhh well… Hope you all have a wonderful sober day!!
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1 week free from meth and back at work for the first time. I’m exhausted, but fighting through.
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Looking good big bro! I have to ask… is that @anon79808082 tattooed on yer abs?
I’m sorry! I’m your lil’ sis, I practically have to tease you! 
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I’m so sorry all this is happening to you. It’s really hard to see your parents not being well. Sending a lot of love strength and hugs your way 
I totally gave up on the sugar thing. Before I got strict orders from the doctor about my diet to not make my allergies worse, I was really optimistic. I thought that a diet change would be easy and that I might as well exclude sugar at the same time. I’m used to read labels because of a severe peanut and treenut allergy, but it’s really hard finding anything gluten and dairy free at all. Even the flour mixes have sugar in them here. But to my defense I only occasionally eat candy and we don’t do Fika everyday so I think I’ll manage anyway. But it’s crazy how many things contains sugar, manage to find Vegan gluten-free Kebab sauce and it contains sugar. Yes I could do things myself but I’m the only allergic one and just buying the right ingredients would be more expensive than the premade jar.
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I just assume everything processed contains sugar these days. And it really pissed me off when I figured out “low fat” has more sugar in it to make it taste better. Food companies are poisoning us and getting us addicted.
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Most of it does. I think the low fat trend has died out a little over here because of the LCHF diet trend. But the “less sugar” is strong. Usually fake advertising 10% less sugar that they replace with artificial sweetener. Nothing wrong with that I use our version of splenda a lot. But I don’t buy products with sugar AND artificial sweetener, it’s pointless and it doesn’t taste good.
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That’s a great attitude to have. I’ve been working that myself. Some days, especially if I’m very depressed, I am learning to just sit with it. It’s ok to FEEL depressed. Hopefully I won’t be depressed later. And I just sit with it.
It’s ok to FEEL. It’s ok to not “move mountains”. For me I’m a “i got to get things done and fix this” kind of a guy. I learning I don’t HAVE to fix things today or always have to get things done.
Oh and congratulations on your 55 days and 9 months. You got that mountain done 
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And dairy… Also a lot of Vegan options contains some kind of nuts.
- Selfishness. To be an alcoholic, selfishness is a fundamental quality. I see that more now than ever. Its my day off and I was up at 4am. Drove to my girfriend’s house, made breakfast, did laundry, now on to yard work. Then at 4pm, drive her to her post-op follow up appointment.
As an active alcoholic, I would have done none of this. Actions, not words show far more emotion.
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97 and looking beastly. Go you!!
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Lol it’s ok sis! No it’s not @anon79808082, my wife’s name was Donna and she was cremated and it was my way of honoring her with a tombstone of my own. Thank you so much!!! Proud of you!
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Thank you @Dazercat I’m really shooting for being the best I can be every day bro. Have an amazing day 
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Thank you so much @CapriciousCapricorn yep almost triple digits YAY!!! And thank you @RosaCanDo I really appreciate that thank you! Have a great day!
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And I missed it, I need a re-run…
Now that made me lol!
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Day 253. I’m feeling gratefull again for my 253 days of sobriety. I lost that feeling the last few weeks… had some really tough moments were I was really close to drinking. But I didn’t!
How is everyone doing?
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I can relate to this so much and it’s something I’m working to be more mindful and conscious of.
I have a tendency to want to jump into any change with both feet. I set a high bar for myself and then feel like a failure if I don’t nail everything I want to do 100% of the time. It usually ends up leading me to burning out.
Small progress should be celebrated. It’s still progress and I think easing into lifestyle changes may make it more sustainable in the long run. The abrupt and demanding changes have proven to not be very sustainable for me.
I missed my run this morning too. I slept in. I’m trying to allow myself some grace and remember that I need to balance goals with rest and rejuvenation. I can always go out this evening, if I want.
This has come up in therapy a lot for me. I’m working on being kinder to myself. Treating myself like a friend. I would never tell my friends they were a screw up if, here and there, they missed a workout or whatever. So why do I talk to myself that way?
Well done on 10 days! You’re progressing and you’ll continue to. Be kind to yourself.
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Great perspective, my friend. It’s a mindset I’m aspiring towards myself.
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