I really like the way it looks, what colour will it be?
Amen to that !
Mostly greyā¦ Iām not into white or orange cars !
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Day 777 alcohol free. Happy tuesday.
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Thank you for that, Iāll see if I can get hold of some 
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Still here guys. Iāve been very busy lately. Working hard to make my life better. I feel very confident. Fear and anxiety are my best friends now. I know how to use that energy for good. Keep up everybody!!
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oh man!!! Not because itās day one but because you didnāt reset in the past. We have to be honest my friend, some people lose absolutely everything but if you canāt be honest with yourself youāll never succeed. I know exactly who and what I amā¦ I may kid myself on a daily basis and actually believe I will quit forever but thatās not being dishonest bc I truly believe it at the time but one sip and its a reset and refocus and restart the whole goddam process.
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@Dejavu Congratulations! This is really great. You have been one of the people i have been looking up to when i joined. Thanks
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Day 3 check in. Iāve told a few people Iām not drinking anymore and it was met with mixed responses. Quite a few werenāt very supportive or were met with the you donāt have a problem narrative. Which is making me second guess myself, Iām not gonna lie. But I do t think I have to be falling down drunk every day for it to be a problem. Maybe Iām wrong. Maybe turning to all this was dramatic and I should just notā¦ I donāt know. Iāve tried not to make a big deal
Out of quitting. When offered a beer or glass of wine Iāve just said no thanks. And then when questioned further I said Iām taking a break. Hope fully a permanent one. And was met with responses that varied from āoh. Ok coolā to āwhy are you so black and white about everythingā and the every popular āwhy do you have to be so damn dramatic about everythingā I donāt want to drink. Thatās all I know. And I know itās the whole bottle or nothing when I do drink so even if thatās only once a month I feel like thatās not ok cause it makes me feel ashamed and depressed.
On an up note: I spent some time outside today and went on a walk to try to ease my insane anxiety instead of having a glass of wine which is what I really want.
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I also had friends and coworkers tell me that they didnāt think I had a problem with drinking when I first decided I wanted to get sober, years ago. Some implied I was being too hard on myself or overreacting. At least, that was my interpretation. I drank with them, but they also didnāt know the extent of my drinking when I was alone.
It doesnāt matter if others think we have a problem. It doesnāt even really matter how bad our problem with drinking is. If you donāt want to drink anymore and you know itās an issue for youā¦ Thatās all thatās matters.
Keep on keeping on, and I look forward to watching you progress.
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Thank you. I appreciate knowing someone else had similar input from friends. And thanks for the support.
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- Tomorrow when I wake up it will be 2 and a half years sober. Celebrating with a beard trim then a picnic with my love. The first 90 days were fucking rough. I never caved, I did what I needed to do to beat every urge and craving. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be where I am at today.
If you are struggling, keep fighting and stay soberā¦it gets better.
If you seem to be constantly relapsingā¦STOP IT, you deserve better. Do what you have to do to stay sober. If I were not sober, I wouldnāt have the opportunity to spend forever with the most precious person in my life. I wouldnāt have been in a position to love her as she deserves, and I wouldnāt be in the position to be loved by her.
Say ānoā to the first drink every time, and life will get better.
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You helped me so much through all of my many, many [sigh], many false starts at the beginning. You were so kind and supportive. Thank you
Itās awesome to see where you are now too 
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So kind of you to say. Its what we are here for, we are familyā¦and we support each other
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Thereās a song about that. 
All together now ā¦
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Just amazing Scott. Congratulations 
So happy for you! 
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I have literally never dreamt so much in my life!!! And they are crazy and weird!
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Checking in again day 15. I havenāt had many cravings the last two weeks but boy did I want some vodka on the way home from work today. That used to be my routine. Iād stop at the liquor store on the way home every day or every other day and get shooters and some beer or hard seltzerās. Iād almost always end up blacking out within a few hours because Iād pound the vodka without eating anything. Then keep drinking the rest of whatever I got. Iād always wake up groggy and feeling sick. Lately I havenāt been bringing money with me to work so I donāt have anything to pay with on the way home. Iām glad Iām writing this because itās a reminder as to why I quit. I want mental clarity. I want to be top of my game at work. I want better sleep.
Whew. Thanks for listening. I can go to bed sober another night.
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Day 535. Iām feeling really off. I thought I was ok, but Im not. I dont know what to do. Itās the middle of work, so I will just try and push through.
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