Checking in daily to maintain focus #19

Yay! Congratulations on 90 days M!
I just love reading all of your posts. You got a great gift for writing.
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Wonderful, congrats. Itā€™s so wonderful having your positive and supportive energy here!!

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Congratulations Edmund! You are the king of sobriety on this forum. Maybe thereā€™s others with more time but they donā€™t post like you do. Youā€™re always on here supporting everyone. We appreciate your kindness.

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Day 45 the days are flying past at the moment. Not every day is great but itā€™s so much better then being on drugs ! Going no contact with my ex was going well until he turned up drunk and drugged up the other evening he really does mess with my head and makes me feel so bad about myself. But onwards and upwards I canā€™t live in my past I only have today . Iā€™m reading a book called women who love to much ā€¦ Itā€™s so interesting to see how my mind works and how I need to change my way of thinking Iā€™ve only read a few pages and Iā€™m already hooked ! Hopefully Iā€™ll be a new women after I finish the whole book !!! Happy Sunday beautiful people xxx

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My mother in law called me this morning, she said unfortunately she was calling with bad news. My heart sank and I almost threw up. I knew what she was going to say. Matt had a terrible accident on his motorcycle and is in surgery. I thought for sure she was going to say he was dead. The second he got this stupid fucking bike I knew this would happen. I wouldnā€™t let him have one when we were married. Iā€™m terrified of them and watched a guy die once. First thing he does is get a damn bike when we get divorced. Heā€™s not even had it a month. His bones broke so bad theyā€™re sticking out of his legs. Heā€™s in surgery getting all sorts of metal rods in his legs. This could potentially disable him. Iā€™m on edge. Heā€™s been in surgery for hours. No one can go to the hospital because of Covid. Thanks to @crystalclear and @Lisa07 as they knocked some sense into me about breaking no contact. I still need to think on it.

OK MIL just texted, heā€™s out of surgery and it went well. His legs are in bad shape and heā€™ll be in bed for at least 6 weeks. They are still waiting on other x-rays. Lord help me just be supportive enough to not get sucked back in.

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Thank you :pray:t3::heart:

Donā€™t change too much we kinda love this Nat :grin:

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Phew!! Thank god it was only severely broken bones. You canā€™t afford to lose another person right now after what you just went through. I know you have a great therapist to help navigate you through this. In the meantime, Iā€™m keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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Congrats on your 30 days ! Itā€™s a beautiful milestone, letā€™s go !!

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Thinking of you!!! I hope everything is okay and most importantly hope YOU are okay.

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Wtf?! Please donā€™t let him get in your head Nat. I know itā€™s easier said than done. Your finally getting to a good place in your recovery and you canā€™t let him derail you. Stay strong!! I havenā€™t read that book but it sounds like itā€™s going to be very helpful for you. Keep us posted. :kissing_heart:

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Dang 3 yearsā€¦ beautiful work!

Oh wow; thatā€™s horrible, Bethā€¦for you and his mom.
Iā€™m glad heā€™s out of surgery and seems to mend for the most part. I know youā€™ll find that healthy balance; being there for him as a trusted, loving friend and keeping it there. Hugs sweetieā€¦

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374 Days. I had a beautiful celebration AA meeting last night. There were 4 other celebrantsā€¦3 years, 22 years, 31 years and 38 years. I was feeling a little down since I was only at 1 year and these women have much more time but they reminded me weā€™re all working on today. They gave me a bunch of small sobriety gifts. Then 5 of us went out to dinner. Getting to know these ladies on a deeper level is exciting. I have all these new beautiful friends that Iā€™d never have if I was still using.

I mentioned hubby wanted to come. Well he couldnā€™t make it because he was pulled over for a suspended license and got held up with the cops for an hour. Of course he blamed this on me. Apparently, the plates on the car I totalled while drunk were never turned in to motor vehicle. The car was registered in his name so they suspended him when I took it off the insurance. He knew this had happened but did nothing to fix it. Instead of taking responsibility, he blames me. Yes, Iā€™m the one that had the accident and Iā€™ve done everything to fix what I can but I canā€™t fix his license. He ended up with tickets but could have been arrested.

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Omg Lisa; you could stand on your head and spit nickels and heā€™d ask why not quarters??! God bless you; let him know heā€™s lucky he doesnā€™t have me as a wife, lolā€¦ love you!

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Sobriety is the best gift Iā€™ve given myself.
Keep on rocking the weekend guys !
Sorry I canā€™t catch up on post today as I am enjoying my sobriety full time at the chalet with family in laws and little nieces. Such a better feeling than being hangover like 2 weeks ago!!

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Thatā€™s terrible. Iā€™m so sorry for you and him. Keep holding on, you will make it thru this :yellow_heart: :yellow_heart:

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Believe me Donna, his days are numbered. Iā€™m so done with his shit. I really think he knows how serious I am now. Iā€™ve only given him extra time bc I know how hard it is to fight this disease but thereā€™s only so much time I have left to give before I make a move that can change all of our lives forever.

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Itā€™s the evening of day 14, Iā€™m back from the meeting with friends, they drank good wine, I stayed sober. Wasnā€™t easy, but wasnā€™t too difficult either. It would have been good to join them, but I know I would regret it and I have to avoid slipping back into heavy drinking. I decided in advance to drink tea and/or water and it went well. We had a really good time, probably will repeat it tomorrow afternoon.

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Proud of you Lisaā€¦ My opinion sobriety must be reciprocated in a relationship. No one likes to be on an island alone for very long. Wishing you peace and serenity in your recovery. Congratulations on your one year. That is a big deal for people like us. Youā€™re in my prayers my friend. :heart:

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