“Rainbows and unicorn farts”
really?? I’ve never heard anything put this way about anything ever. You’re a hoot Lisa. Love reading your shit. Hope you have a wonderful second year of sobriety. One freakin day at a time though
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Day 270
Checking in. Feeling good. Feeling great!! And fucking proud of myself. I can’t believe I got 270 days. Feels great!! I can say it twice 
@Tommo I get those feelings. With me I’m always fanaticizing about having that nice bottle of Cabernet. I’m almost always romanticizing about the drink. But I’m not drinking today! And I’m probably not drinking tomorrow! You know why? It feels too fucking good being sober!! And there’s so many benefits to being sober.
Y’all keep rocking out there.
We’re in this together.
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I’m feeling more like “This is what I do now.” as opposed to “I really hope I can make this last.” I’m focused more on recovery and developing as a person. I’m not as focused on just not drinking. If that makes sense.
Adding professional help in conjunction with meetings and the other practices I was already doing, has me feeling more confident. Not arrogant, but like this is doable.
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Yeah I know what you mean, life is a lot easier when you lose that constant obsession. 
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Why don’t you just bust think about getting your head down on the pillow tonight don’t be worrying to much about 90 days😊
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Day 342.
Psychiatrist just increased one of my meds by 50%.
I hope it will make a difference. I’ve been in a weird place for too long.
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Checking in for days 16 & 17, couldn’t get on last night due to being in A&E, it’s thankfully a soft tissue injury rather than a break, but I’m not allowed to walk until it settles down so my 1hr walk to break the days up is out of the window for now. Today has felt long and I’ve been having chest pains every few minutes, it’s not something I’m unfamiliar with, but it is the first time I’ve had them since being sober so I’m just hoping they pass as it’s easier said than done to not panic.
I am in admiration of all of your milestones, all of you are so inspiring, I love this thread and all of our tenacity 
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This all sounds so good - but hey, how’s the beard regrowth? 
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3 weeks today!!!
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Nice numbers! Congrats on 9 months. 
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It’s okay. Don’t dwell on it. Learn from it and keep going! You got this.
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Let me see if I can send you a picture of what it looks like! It’s definitely worth having!
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Most importantly, right? I’m scruffy again. Maybe I’ll put up a new sober selfie after work.
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congrats on 21 days of sobriety
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Daz one happy cat 
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Sorry your going through this. It sounds very frustrating. Glad you’re grasping onto the twelve step program. God or your higher power must have some kind of plan and wants your body to rest or something. Sending prayers your way. 
Everything happens for a reason friend. It’s up to you to find that reason. Sorry this is happening as it sucks. But I honestly think there is something good in it for you. If you look hard enough.
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60 days sober today. It’s hard to believe I’m here. Can I just ask - did anyone else put weight on when they stopped drinking? Most people talk about losing weight but even though I’ve been going to the gym a lot I am craving chocolate or biscuits or just food which I never did before. I’ve never had a sweet tooth. Concerned I might be replacing alcohol with food.
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It’s the end of day 264. I feel awfull.
At this very moment i’m sitting in my car, parked roght at my musicschool. I have my guitar lesson at 9pm.
I can’t get out of the car. I can’t do it.
I’ve been really down all day. Thinking abou the past. (If you’ve read some of my precious posts you’ll know what I’m going through). I’m tearing myself down for so many things… why me? Why didn’t choose a better partner. WHY AM I NOT DRINKING?
I’m trying to meet some new people through dating apps. Not for a relationship but just for friends.
So far no luck. How will I ever find ‘miss right’ if I can’t even befriend anyone?
God today is full of negative thinking. Sorry to bother you giys with this. I just have to get this of my chest.
If I had alcohol I’d just forget about it. And drink away my feelings.
Why did she fuck me up this bad? Is it really worth it, destroying someones mental health?
Maybe it would be better if I’d end things here after all. No more pain.
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