Just take some deep breaths. This negative thinking spiral is overwhelming you and your brain is going crazy. This will pass. I promise. Just breathe. Don’t let other people have your power. You are not the sum of other people’s actions. Breathe through the feelings, play your music. Tomorrow will be a new day worth getting up for.
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Thank you. I’m noy really seeing the light at the end of the tunnell right now.
It can feel like a long tunnel sometimes but look at what you have already achieved. 264 days! That’s inspiring for someone like me who only just reached 60 days. Be proud and let the negativity go with your breathing.
I’m surprised that I can still keep my sobriety up witj all this crap going on in my life.
One hand, it’s good that your results came back clear. On the other hand yes for sure it’s frustrating as f### they don’t know what’s going on.
Great that your have the programme and the meetings. I do believe you’ll find ways how to go about this situation (inwardly). I’ve rarely met a dude with such insight and humility you have.
Regarding working out and running… I had finally found something that I enjoy, I’m good at and can see myself develope in. And then I lost it bc of health issues and it’s super frustrating. Life doesn’t really care about our agendas, huh. I’m learning to choose to like myself when I came “perform”, meet my goals or whatever. We are so prone to build our self-worth on things we can do. I’m not saying that’s what you’re doing, just sharing some of my experience 
All the best 
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Hi everyone, time to pack it in for me… diving always tires me out !
I had forgotten what a pain Open Circuit diving can be… it makes me miss my rebreather, that’s for sure !
Anyway, the dives were nice today, and I’m looking forward to some more nice dives tomorrow.
I’m managing all right with my sobriety while I’m here… but at restaurants, they tend to want to bring you a complementary “digestif” after dinner. Even if I was still drinking, limoncello is disgusting stuff (IMHO). Still, I would rather have nothing at all, and I did have nothing at all !
In any event, off to bed. I hope that everyone is having a safe and sober Monday.
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We hear you. You’re not alone. I’m sorry you’ve had a tough day and feel like shit. But like Joby said THIS WILL PASS. Life will return but you got to give it time.
Meanwhile, yes get it off your chest. There are better ways than going back to drinking or worse. Breathe. Write. Run. Punch a boxing sack. Scream your head off somewhere private. Whatever works for you, as long as you don’t hurt others in the process Understand that your mind is working against you right know with looping negative thoughts. The more you feed them the deeper they pull you in.
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OMG yes 
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Great work Pauly 
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You should be really proud of yourself… Going to a restaurant and not drinking…
Pretty jealous your getting to dive, I hope your enjoying yourself and keep to your sobriety
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Hey its you, how are things your end. its like an honour to talk to you on here 
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I’m back again 
not giving up this fight. Always standing up again. Hanging in there right now at the moment. It’s an honor to talk to you too dear Paul I see you are piling up the days again
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Agreed 
Try pilates instead 
Checking out on day 307. One of the best days of my life. Recovery wise great. Bought a big Lego set and trying to resell it for a 100% profit. May be getting a dog soon. And I’ve decided to audition for a movie. Peace 
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Day 15, friends came to visit, they drank champagne, I stayed sober. Not an easy decision. Still can’t stop thinking about my crush.
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Day 21: today feels like a “just get through it” day. It’s rainy and cloudy and fall has definitely arrived. I’ll be glad to put my head on the pillow tonight! But first, I think it’s going to be tomato soup and grilled cheese for dinner. Turning that day around.
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Checking in, busy day today which is the usual in the new job. Feels good to be home, and definitely feels good to see these goal bars filling up some!
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i love reading everyone’s posts on here but i really wish there wasnt a daily stream of ‘i fucked up and relapsed’ posts with nothing that describes their situation to stimulate a conversation. we need a thread with a title ‘i relapsed’ and folks could just post a comment in there when they did. oyyyyy. sorry, i needed a thread that i could express that in and i feel like it’ll happily get lost in here lol. byyeeeee
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So happy to see u again! U are doing so great!
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What was that one thing that led to another and to a relapse? I think you have to be clear with yourself if you really want this to not happen again. Maybe a plan will help for those “things that leads to relapse”… Just some thoughts.
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