yes! we got this! 
Youāre such a good writer. I liked this so much I had to read it twice. Very well put. I loved āThe kicking up the leaves along side the pathā.
I cannot believe Iām done āquaffing the winešā. Iāll keep that at one day at a time. And Iām not drinking today. And probably not drinking tomorrow.
Congratulations on 93 wine free days.
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Be warned if youāre going to try it: kicking up leaves and otherwise behaving 4+ decades less than my 50 years has garnered me some āthat gal aināt soberā looks 
You can do it. Congrats on all your days too! Mostly congrats on today 
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Itās better today for you, yeah? I hope so! Go away, Rosaās headaches! Hope your day of rest and knitting went well. I so admire you - I do not equate one with the other! 
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Yes! Today got better, eventually! Knitting helps me in the migraine postdrome, or hangover as itās sometimes called (which I hate), by offering distraction and something that isnāt blue light related like screens. I can listen to music or even a movie and shut my eyes and knit awayā¦itās meditative. Soon I even managed some household chores and a great nap. Thanks for asking!
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Congrats on the 20 days. I remember having the energy then and also being irritable at the littlest things too. Itās good your recognizing whatās going on. And no liquor stores after work. I did a lot of short guided meditations in my early days to help. Even 5 or 12 minute ones because weāre all so busy and thatās when we need it the most. It really helped along with the breathing. Itās amazing what 5 minutes can do.
Keep up the great work.
Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 32
October 1st,now itās completely Okey to go all in on Halloween things. Iāve been watching all the Halloween movies I never seen or had acess to in my country before latley. Disney + git them all, we agreed that HalloweenTown is the best ones ever.
The darkness and the cold are coming creeping, I donāt look forward to it. Had to buy a gorgeous pink summerdress (in sale) yesterday to cheer myself up. My husband was not impressed because I just packed away all the summer clothes.
And ordered a lot more knitted sweaters I probably didnāt need, to my defense I also bought a lot of things to the boys and two new pair of jeans because mine are broken.
Family drama still going strong, even if some of it dis sort itself out lately. To start with, our teen has barley been home the last 6 months. I get it sheās turning 18 soon and want to try her wings. Butā¦ We met her last weekend with her boyfriend, and when the boyfriends father came to pick them up I decided to have a talk with him, because I think the teens should be at our place too. He said that our teen had borrowed a phone from them because her was broken, and that he felt bad because she needed some clothes, and asked if I could send her extra money from that. I informed him that sheāll get her money when she doesnāt have ant absence from school because thatās our deal, and that before I sens her a dime for new clothes she has to come home and go through everything she has at home and make a list for what she possibly needs, and sort the clothes that doesnāt fit anymore out. Sheās like me, and has about 4 closets with clothes, and about 10 pairs of shoes. (I hate buying shoes though so Iāve got one pair) and the boyfriends father was like: āWhat, sheās got more clothes than I ever owned in my entire life, Iāll send her homeā we also agreed that weāre going to solve the phone issues and keep closer contact because I had no idea that it was broken. Theyāre living in a farm out in the woods with very bad connections, even worse than ours. So itās not easy to communicate. Ever since last weekend Iāve been trying to make our teen and her boyfriend come to our house, trying to get a date, a time just about anything so I can plan. None of them have really answered properly. And Iāve felt like something was off, like there was something more to it than a busy schedule. So yesterday I decided to have a real talk with both the teens and the boyfriends parents. The boyfriend appears like a dream guy, polite, totally calm and a very kind gentleman. A pure farmers boy. But you never know so I was worried. After two minutes talk it shows that I was almost right, there was a lot more to it. It showed that the boyfriend is afraid of sleeping away from home, before he met our teen he never slept anywhere besides his own bed. He is 20 years old so. I couldnāt even imagine. But thatās the reason for him still living at home, and the reason why they arenāt coming to our house that often. He is afraid that heāll panic, and with no public transportations between their place and ours and a long distance the fear is even worse. We talked through it and they are coming here tomorrow with some extra security set-up so he can go home if needed. I feel relieved that it wasnāt something else, but I also feel really bad for pressing them to come here. I had no idea, and wish someone had told me earlier.
Besides that, my brother still tries to buy Paās house l, my sisters are mad because of it. Iām the only one who thinks Pa should sell it to my brother and get a place by the Mediterranean sea instead. Paās dream place for living. My oldest sister wants to change her birth name to her nickname and family is mad for that too, because we just donāt do that. No one in our family ever did. My second sister, the one with the alcoholic husband seems to be on right track with him again amd heās fighting with not drinking.
My boys are home with another cold, and the friends drama update will have to wait for tomorrow.
Happy 1st October Yāall, and Happy Halloween 
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Quick update.
After talk with the school nurse and the local doctor,weāve got a Coronavirus test for the boys by lunch time. I would lie if I said Iām not a little worried.
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Itās a new day, glad yesterday is gone.
Was extremely irritable and was getting annoyed at the smallest things. Was at work so of course I didnāt express it so was just my usual self talking and joking with friends all the the whil this was bubbling underneath.
Wou be a trigger for me as couple that with anxiety I might just say fuck it and drink.
This morning none of that is there, such a strange brain I/we have
Woke up and thought it was Saturday though ffs
As always bits great to see peo checking in, wish I could reply to everyones check in but Iād be here all day
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beautiful numbers, beautiful lady, itās just a beautiful day all round. proud of you Donna more than you know 
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Yep. Research your source if you are using CBD products. And check if they have been independently tested. There is little regulation around them. Someone I was was sharing a house with sold bespoke CBD vapes and gummies on the internet. He used the isolate in them which he carefully sourced (so no THC) but found that most products sold on line had no CBD in them. I also helped him ensure that the dosage he was offeing was reliable.
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Absolutely. A long time friend of mine started her own CBD products business also and went through that whole process. Sheās the only person I trust. As you say, unregulated and some sketchy sources out there.
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Good morning beautiful souls, checking in on day 69 clean and free and day 8 as a non smoker FF withdrawal and side effects are easing off,have a blessed day 
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I notice myself having the same realisations over and over again. Or maybe the same realisations take on new meanings and things shift and change, as they always do.
Either way, there is a difference between knowing something in principle and then really knowing, or experiencing something in a meaningful way.
I think itās kind of cool that we can find a sense of something profound in stuff thatās already there
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- Second check in. My long weekend is here. So is autumn. And coffee. Iām sober and clean. Taking it easy today. Thanks for all the togetherness and the wisdom. Love from my little square.
@anon79808082 Going strong friend!!! Big congrats.
@M-be-free49 Great stuff. Keep it coming. Hugs.
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You could write a book about your family. 
Iām sure it would be made into a long running soap opera! I hope things turn out well for you
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76.12 Days
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Good morning! Working on - what? - day #34 here. I think the dopamine receptors in my brain are normalizing because Iām generally happy despite A LOT of stressor concerning the upcoming election which I will oversee in my town as part of my job. For the first time, I have to worry about violence at the polls. One day at a time. One day at a time. Thanks to everyone for your support. Have a good, sober day and soak up as much love as you can.
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Day 23: up early, with little sleepā¦better than nothing. Time to kick my evening wind down routine into high gear (Edit: I should have said low, the lowest gear 
), but it can be hard when hubby sometimes has work conference calls at 8 or 9 pm and then heās wound up for awhile. Ah, well, adapt and overcome. Working on my to do list and grateful to be feeling pretty good at this moment. One goal Iād like to start working on is building quiet time into the day. I do some meditation already, but other times I have podcasts or the radio or tv on a lot. If I can spend some time doing regular daily stuff in quiet space maybe that will help me quiet my mind down. It has worked for me in the past, long ago. Wish me luck!
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