Checking in on day 18. I re-started to play piano and enjoy it a lot. I practice in the evenings when I used to drink, it’s a good trade. It’s quite cold and windy, so I skipped some days in running, but today I may force myself to go out for some run. I don’t have any mood to work, probably just allow myself a day off.
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I can relate to you so much! Congrats on your accomplishments! I’ve found some good meditations to do when I feel overwhelmed too. But I often remind myself that the repercussions and depression the next day alone will not resolve anything only make it all worse. You’re doing great!
Day 241. Awesome bicep and tricep workout. Hit 225 for 7 in close grip bench. Biceps are still on fire. It was a great day with my girls yesterday, it’s cute the girls lay down with my mom. And I can here my mom telling my youngest addie that it’s bed time, and I just here the longest stretched NOOOOOOO come out of Addie’s mouth. It has me dying laughing, she has her daddy attitude that’s for sure lmao. Ahhh have a good day everyone
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Day 34! Praise be to God! My sponsor suggested that I get a stepwork book today at the noon meeting. Time to start some stepwork. I am a little nervous but not afraid. I know I need this. Also the steps are freeing! It will be a good thing to look internally and put down guilt, shame and anger. I’m willing and that is what matters. Also I have a great sponsor so I know that will help. Someone from this app once told me that humility plays a big part, and researching it has and will help me tremendously. I hope y’all all have an amazing day. ‘The Battlefield of The Mind’ is a real thing. We have been taught and fashioned to “worldly” things from a young age. But we can unlearn them. Also that is a book, I’m re reading and it has helped me tremendously!
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2 years today. Cannot believe it. Im especially grateful because 2 year almost didn’t happen. I almost caved and threw in the towel a few weeks ago. But here I am. 2 years under my belt and it feels really good.
I wrote a blog post about it, if you want to check it out
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Fan-friggin’-tasting news! I can hardly fathom that amount of sober time. Well done! You should be so proud!!! 
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Congrats girl. I’m glad you pushed through, you are doing amazing
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Hi. Was just reading how yiu used to stop feeling where im finding it having the opposite effect with me. I tend to keep the deeper emotions down and when i was drinking in private at home it allowed me to cry and dig deeper. It was like a barrier melting away. Not the right way to dig deeper so now im. Having to learn to talk even if i cant articulate how im feeling. At the moment i can just about manage one or two words but its getting better.
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Well, in a way my feelings were much more intense when I drank, but I dumbed myself down and was in a numb condition at the same time. Especially during the hangovers. It was kind of an escape. Now I’m much more balanced and capable to cope with my problems. Therapy helped and helps me a lot, I can recommend it if you would like to word your feelings and problems. They have several approaches, one works for one, another to another, worth trying them out!
You may feel, that there is a wall between you and your inner self and alcohol helped to build it down, but there is no point to go beyond the wall unarmed. I was scared about going there, frightened about what will I find there and sobriety gave me strength and tools to face it.
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Amazing!! Definitely gonna take a read of it 
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You sound so much like my 25 yo son who is going on 2 months sober as of Saturday. He’s back to running - and enjoying it! - since he’s not hungover. He feels as though life is beginning to start over again and, yes, playing the piano is part of that. I am so happy to watch your progress, @Tomek. Keep up the good work!
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You are really going at this like gangbusters. Good for you. I totally get the humility thing - a lesson we should learn for all walks of life, no? You have such a great future ahead of you. Keep it up!
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Great post! I love this line: “but you know what? There will always be stressors.” I bet the next morning was wonderful. Two years is amazing. The next 70 will be even better! Congratulations!
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Thankkk youuuu!! I agree, Humility is a lesson for all walks of life. Just because we know the definition does not mean we know how to BE humble. I’m learning that 
Thank you so so so much for these exalting words my sober twin. You always lift up my spirits. You’re an amazing person!
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I love your sugar counter! I have been trying to come up with something to keep me accountable- I don’t know why I didn’t think to use the app. It’s SO addicting!
Congrats on all your successes! You’re rocking it girl!
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Thank you for your kind words and encouragement - it means a lot to me.
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Brilliant.
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Right on! Kicking butt for a whole year!!!
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Congratulations on achieving 
year!!! 
A lot of hard work, struggle and effort goes into accomplishing this milestone so kudos on persevering!!! You are an inspiration to us!
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