I know Courtney that it wears on you but I am so proud of you my friend. Your sister seems that she is not happy unless there’s some kind of chaos in her life. Maybe she sees your serenity and is envious and it’s trying to bring you down to her level. Keep on being you @Dragonflygirl82 and do what you do. 
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I hope you and your docs can figure something out on this. Praying for your health Emilie
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Day 7 done and I know I’m going to make it to day 8. I did a wonderful meditation yesterday and really felt connected to a higher power. Drinking, I would maybe get to 15 or 20 minutes of meditation/yoga with a lot of intruding thoughts before coming out of it and thinking “ok, checked that off the list, time for my wine!” But yesterday an hour went by before I even noticed and I felt sooooo good. Realizing that spirituality has been completely taken out of my life because of alcohol and I’m happy to have the opportunity to get it back. Thank you all for being here.
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Lol. If you can’t find the manual and need help getting set up feel free to message me. I’m nothing if not a craft pusher. I used to teach sewing so I could probably at least get you set up. Also draft blockers would make great Christmas presents! I might add that to my list of makes for this year
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Thanks! Yeah, we survived last winter rolling up towels and blankets and it was a pain! I just need to find the perfect, cheapest filling for them.
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So back at day 1.
Relapsed Today on pornography. Seems like I have a real problem, still managed to get at day 25. I did it after smoking a blunt because I am stupid as fuck. Looks like I have to quit weed as well. I smoke rarely like once every two weeks. It messes up my mind and my goals when I smoke it… It has to go. Damn I feel stupid.
Still at day 73 no smoking cigarettes.
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383 Days. Very said to hear Eddie Van Halen passed away. He reminds me of my high school days (yes, I’m old). Most of you on this forum are probably too young to know his music. R.I.P.
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Thanks Ed I texted her back and told her I’m sorry if her feelings are hurt. I offered to take her to lunch Sunday. I think we just need to see each other and reconnect. We all get so busy with our lives. I think she may have something going on and I’m gonna just be there and listen. I kinda think there could be some jealously going on… not sure.
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Congratulations on a week well done!! I just not got done a guiddd meditation. Unfortunately it put me right out 
. I guess I needed it. Feel so much better after. Always.
Again. Huge congrats 
on 1week:pray:t2:
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That is awesome to hear Courtney that you’re going to reconnect. Sometimes that’s all we have to do is just be there for someone and listen. A lot of times people will figure out their own issues and how to solve them just by talking about them. Proud of you Courtney that you still have a compassionate heart and soul and can be there for her. The three key attributes that help keep me sober are this “TRUST GOD, CLEAN HOUSE, HELP OTHERS” and you are doing just that my friend.
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Day 9 completed. Night all. Tx
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End of Day 2. I was surprised at how well I slept last night. I usually have trouble sleeping until somewhere between 10 and 20ish days. Hopefully, it wasn’t a fluke. I am also on a food and liver detox, so the lack of caffeine and carbs may also be at play.
Overall, I feel pretty good. I do have a caffeine-withdrawal headache but that, too, shall pass.
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Checking in again day 29. Today kinda sucked. Aside one my my managers telling me he “never thought I had Covid” and one of my coworkers (whom I considered a friend) telling me she wished she “got a week long Covid vacation” a bunch of the girls I work with have been bad mouthing a pregnant coworker in a group text. This poor girl has hemophilia and has been trying for forever to get pregnant. It’s her first child, so of course she’s excited. She can be a bit much, I’ll admit, and she’s a little high maintenance, but I’m still so disheartened to see these people I considered friends bad mouthing someone they supposedly like. It makes me wonder what kind of crap they say about me behind my back. I’m so sad and frustrated at this. Why can’t we all just be kind to each other? Sorry for the rant. Heading to bed soon for what will hopefully be a better day tomorrow.
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Isn’t that the truth! I’ve got some crazies in my tree too! I hope you’re feeling better tonight!
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Had to go dig my tix out…my first “Big” concert “Hide your Sheep” Tour in support of Diver Down - Oct 26, 1982 - Maple Leaf Gardens, Toronto…nothing was the same after that…RIP
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Omg this is so cool!! And it’s the day I was born literally the year too!! 
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That’s really cool! Thank you for sharing your memories.
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I am thank you 
I’m finally learning the way I react effects me more than her and I need to realize I can’t change her thought process only my own. I feel so much better And sorry just saw your latest update. People can be cruel. Sounds like your rising above it. Lol and pregnant gals can be a bit much sometimes but it’s their right being pregnant is so life changing in many ways. 
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You can get thru this! So much respect for people who fight thru those withdrawals without medical help
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Another late check in. Day 10. Still traveling for work, and I’m looking forward to going home tomorrow. I get to pick up my dog and sleep in my own bed. It will also be nice to be home so I can eat dinner and not have anyone ask me why I don’t want a beer, am I sure I don’t want a drink, is everything okay? Tonight when I was asked, I reiterated that I didn’t want a drink, but we could do this every night for the next six months and it would still seem weird to them. Working on “no is a complete answer” when having these interactions. I don’t need to give a laundry list of reasons to justify turning down a drink. I can just say no.
I didn’t sleep well last night, and today’s news of another impending storm have made for a very long day. I’m going to sleep now, and will get up tomorrow to get my work done here and to get home to get my storm prep done.
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