youve given up both at the same time too?! How you finding it? I dont smoke weed but I do tobacco. How you finding it?
I like this! Iām turning one of our spare bedrooms into my reading/writing/meditation/online meetings room.
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Thank you so much! Stinks we wonāt have trick or treaters this year but I live by a train station so a lot of ppl walk by! I wish more ppl would decorate feel like no one does any more
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Itās like thisā¦ I could sit here and tell you itās easy and I feel like a fraud bc Iāve not had one craving in 2 weeks and TBH I donāt even think about it bc the mental obsession of addiction has gone. But that would sound false bc itās taken me 3 years of tears, prayers, relapses after relapse after relapse, nearly killing myself with alcohol and turning to a god that I would laugh at you if you even mentioned it and fuck AA and all that shit, now I have a sponsor work the steps and do regular meetings. So yes this is really easy but it is not an overnight sensation but 2 weeks ago it was an overnight miracle. I canāt explain what has happened it just has. The strange thing is I know now 100% that I could drink tomorrow and this keeps me well grounded bc first the drink then the drugs and then a life that is unmanageable.
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Very well said. I feel exactly the same way!
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@Clarity I do mantras/affirmations too. They arenāt directly geared towards not drinking, but they definitely help my recovery. Theyāre more geared towards altering perspective and changing thought patterns. When I see myself slipping into an old, habitual, negative thought process, Iāll say to myself āI let go of any past patterns of negative behavior.ā It really helps me snap out of it and change my perspective.
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I use āI am enough.ā a lot too.
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- Got biopsy results back-Granuloma annulare. Sketchy as it can be caused by tuberculosis, hep c or b or diabetes. Yet, it can also be caused by nothing. There isnāt much information about it or research done on it but each area needs to be treated with injected steroids if I want them to go away. I asked if my liver cirrhosis could be part of it as one came about when I got sober-she didnāt think so. What a weird diagnosis. Not sure how I feel about it because usually when itās caused by nothing, something underneath the surface is going onā¦
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@Mephistopheles That is a totally awesome number. 
@Thirdmonkey You are so right. Our veterans deserve more than what theyāre given. The VA has improved in the last couple of years, but I think there is definitely more we can be doing. I love that you helped her out. It really is amazing what gifts sobriety brings.
@RosaCanDo Having a calm spot where you can meditate and journal is such a great idea. It sounds like that will be really helpful for you.
@Girlinterrupted You know, I used to be that way. Nothing came before my work and when I was at work I was 200% all in. It used to frustrate me to no end when others didnāt have that same work ethic. Now I realize that was probably one of the things that led me to break down and become an addict. It definitely drove me to drink like a fish. I hope youāre able to work through it in a way thatās useful for you.
@mleclaire That does seem like a weird diagnosis. Totally agree about something under the surface likely happening. Good luck.
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Sorry about that !! 
Thatās what comes from being a linguistā¦
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donāt apologise Iām already using it in conversation, we live and learn 
Hi everyone, just a quick word to say goodnight. It really seems as though autumn has arrived here with a big THUD, the days are definitely getting cooler and wetter ! Next thing you know, weāll have snow !
So today I went to the store that has the big alcohol section through which I must walk in order to get to the juice / soft drinks / water, and I hardly even noticed the wine and beer. Iām pretty pleased about that.
Work is busy, but could be better, I guess. Itās a good thing that I have good customers !
As far as my counter goes, Iām only five days away from 60 days, so Iām pleased about that, too.
Anyway, goodnight all. I hope that youāre all having a safe and sober Tuesday.
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If youāre interested to try another web-based translation program, I suggest that you try:
IMHO, itās a lot better than Google Translate.
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Congratulations, thatās huge x
That sounds so great! For the first time in a decade I have a craft room and my very own space and itās amazing the calm I get just walking in there. Iāve been much more inspired to create in the last few weeks since we moved here than I have in years of trying to sew on the kitchen table
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That sounds wonderful. Somedayā¦! I do like that all of my craft stuff is in one spot, finally, but I have to spread out on the small area of floor or haul things out to the table in the other room for big projects. My sewing machine is in the basement, and Iām about to bust it out for the first time in several years to sew some draft blockers for cracks under our exterior doors for the winter. I hope I still have the manual!
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Day 315. Wow, I didnāt think I could do this but Iām doing it. I like being a non drinker.
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Woowzers!!! That great 
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Gorgeous. One day at a time, my friend. You did it once, you sure as hell can do it again 
chin up, you live some place breath taking!
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