Been seeing a psychologist and its been going well. I had my first appointment with a psychiatrist yesterday and I didn’t feel good about it.
He prescribed me something to help with sleep and I had horrible side effects for 12 hours. I found out today that he had prescribed me an SSRI that he touted as simply something to help me sleep and should help with anxiety due to PTSD. It honestly has really upset me because I told him I have a paradoxical reaction to SSRIs (and SNRIs) and can’t take them.
I feel like he was trying to test what I told him. I get that reduces what he might be able to prescribe, but I’d rather take nothing at all. Beside that, I’m not depressed. At all.
I know I’m just complaining, but I really needed to get that off my chest because I feel like that wasn’t very ethical of him to do and it requires a lot of trust for me to be willing to see a psychiatrist in the first place, and I’m not sure I want to see this guy again.
384 Days. My MIL lives in an apartment over my garage and dialed 911 by accident 4 times in the past 2 weeks. She calls them back and tells them she’s ok but they always send a couple officers over to make sure. Of course they come to my door and normally it doesn’t bother me. Tonight she does it at 12:30am then texts me to let me know. I had to wait over half hour for them to come to my door. I’m exhausted and have to get up in 5 hours for work. Then they start questioning me, asking how my husband is doing. He’s in bed fucking sleeping like I should be. I finally convinced them that everyone in my home is fine and showed them the way to my MIL’s place.
She has a new phone but she’s always had an iphone so I don’t know what’s different on this one that causing her to keep doing this. She’s 82 and has horrible eye sight which could be the reason. Now she’s worried that she may have an emergency and they won’t come. I assured her they’ll always come to check. Why this old woman is using her phone at this time of night is beyond me but it needs to stop. She can sleep all day but I can’t.
325 Days: Spent the evening at my daughters volleyball game. I sat with my ex wife and her fiance. I actually like him🤣! But this is something i would have never done when i was drinking, even if i hadn’t drank before the game I would have been too self conscious to be around them.
Even when i wasn’t drunk I always felt like people could see through me, see how unstable and insecure I was. I lied to myself and always told myself that if I had 1 or 2 or 5 drinks in me I could function soooo much better in social situations. What a joke! All alcohol did was make me feel worse about myself and make me isolate more.
One of the biggest changes I’ve made from the first time i got sober until now is accepting that I don’t drink and not regretting that or being ashamed of it. I like the sober me, I like that I don’t have to have a drink, i like that I don’t have to hide who I am.
Social situations have become much more comfortable, my anxiety has gone way down and I’m able to enjoy my daughter’s volleyball game even when I’m sitting with my exwife and her fiance.
Still taking on sobriety one day at a time, but it’s satisfying experiencing life with the comfort and confidence sobriety brings.
I appreciate that, I’m rooting for me too! I go through phases of sharing on here, but have been on the site since my first week of getting sober. The support from this site has been amazing and a huge part of my sobriety. Love the people on here!!
They keep kicking me out of “the lounge”, but I keep coming back!
Thanks for the share and congratulations on the 325 days. I really like this part here.
Social situations have become much more comfortable,
I’ve always thought I needed to get just about hammered before a social situation. No wonder the anxiety was so high. Looking forward to that in my future.
And having the ex and fiancé there. Wow!! You’re a superstar!! I totally get it now though. I’m all around calmer without my booze
Thanks again.
where is this lounge you speak of? this is my first month so maybe it’s not available to me yet…i’m not going anywhere so i’ll make it in there one day!
That sucks. You really do need to be able to trust your psychiatrist. My first thought is go with your gut feeling and don’t see him again. But that could be harsh. I mean sometimes I just know it’s not the right fit with a therapist but a psychiatrist is a different ball game. I reckon next time you see him you can ask him some serious questions.
Sorry you had to go through that.
Sleep on it if you can.
I think once you get a certain number of days on here participating all of a sudden I noticed there were some threads that had a lock on them and said lounge. And I can go to them now cuz I’m on here every day. But I don’t usually because I like the few threads I visit and kinda just stick to them. So stick around. You’ll be able to check it out too.
My wife has a massive headache. I am afraid that it might be Corona. She is a diabetic and falls in the high risk group. I don’t know what will happen to me and my 2 sons if something were to happen to her. How will my sons survive? They aren’t even close to me. They adore her. I am just the useless fuck up of the family. She keeps us together. I am so worried. I don’t know what to do.
Hope the headaches aren’t to do with the Coronavirus. Please don’t put yourself down like that, I’m sure your kids adore you but you just don’t realise it. Praying for you all and hope she gets better soonest.
Blessings and sobriety!
Mornin been so busy of late with my givin up smoking I really have neglected my ts family I like to try to reach out to atleast a few ppl daily but these past two weeks have been all about not picking up a fag. I’m happy to I’m now on day 15 smoke free would like to add no vapes involved just patches and inhilator. I’m now 76 day clean I’m working on step3 and finding a comfortable place with hp and serenity before even thinking of starting step 4 my sponsor is amazing, and one day I too will pass on her knowledge. Xx
Get tested. We just had to today. I know the anxiety. Don’t worry till you have to, then you take it one step at a time. Boost those immune systems and manifest your healthy
Day 274.
Many thoughts, images, memories and moments haunt my brain today. Trying really hard to block it of and keep telling myself that wasn’t a healthy or even normal relationship. Yes she was my type of woman and beautifull. But I can’t let those physical thoughts ruin my mental wellbeing. Damn it’s hard…
I go through phases of sharing on here, but have been on the site since my first week of getting sober. The support from this site has been amazing and a huge part of my sobriety. Love the people on here!!
all around calmer without my booze
