Day 118 clean and sober today. Got some ideas from our friend @Brookiemonster618 as to how to prioritize/schedule days. I hope everyone has a fantastic day today, love you guys!!! 
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5 days down, still going, my wife and mother are having drinks at home tonight, going to be interesting
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Thanks for reminding me Iām not the only addict that has these feelings. Youāre right I can be sober if I WANT to be sober. I do want it I really do but part of me also just wants to take a couple more and then be done but I know better. One is too many and a thousand is never enough. I remember the first time I heard that, it clicked with me more than any other cliche saying people throw around.
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Checking in on day 76! Reading morning check ins with my coffee has become a part of my routine. Just like running and yoga now but lately I have begun yearning for ā¦moreā¦
I have simplified my life so much. When I decided to get sober I quit my job and rented out my house and moved in with my inlaws. I needed so much help back then. That was a year ago. I took my savingsā¦ $20k and invested it and made $100k off of it. When I worked the night shift thats what I would literally day dream about and it all came into fruition. I have sobritety to thank for thatā¦
But today I yearn for moreā¦ purpose.
Ive just been focusing on my sobriety and now that I can stand on my own two feet I just feel like I am a mom and I am working on myself but thats it. I have no other purpose.
So I downloaded another fiction book. I know its just a distraction to stop me from really figuring out my purpose in life. Right now my purpose was to just get my daughters dad through school and to raise my daughter but now I realize how co dependent that is.
I know my purpose isnt going to just fall into my lap. I guess maybe its something I can keep thinking about. I think thats why I deleted my social media so that I would finally go out into the world and make something of myself. But that has yet to happen. I honestly hate the idea of going back to work and trying to fit in somewhere. Another long rantā¦ 
Hope you all have a great day!! Love you guysā¦
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Iām at day 68ā¦
Still refusing to adult, another day in bed; had my drug key worker contact me, least I can say Iām not usingā¦ But all this dealing with death, Medical shit is making me hide under my quilt more!! Operation been booked for 28th Oct 
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I think the depression is slowly seeping in as I want to sleep more and more.
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I feel you! I am also on a similar journey looking for greater purpose, though Iām newer in sobriety, so thatās my main focus right now. It is inspiring to hear about the major life changes you made and the benefit it has brought to you. I left a career that was killing me slowly (aka I wasnāt coping well with the stress), then my husband was laid off and we picked up and moved from AZ to Iowa, all within a matter of months. Moved several more times till we finally settled down. A shock to the system that I am still reeling from but I didnāt process it because I was numbing with alcohol. Not anymore. Itās interesting to have the practically endless possibilities out in front of us. I am looking forward to hearing what you do to further your search for greater purpose. Thanks for sharing today.
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Yes!! Thats how I felt about my old job tooā¦ that it was slowly killing me!!! It really put such a bitter taste in my mouth ā¦āworking for the man.ā I have 2 more classes till I get my AA in business so I might start there but then again I dont even know what I want to do with thatā¦ 
ā¦So I will keep you updated. 
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Hello shiny happy people!
2 years af today and still learning to fly. Couldnāt be here without TS, AA and all my sober fellows in Finland and abroad. Thank you enormously of your support stay strong and sober
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Quick check in. Hoping I can catch up on the thread later this evening. Hope all is going well for everyone. 
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Wow!! I had no idea 
Thatās great!!!
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One of the great (maybe the best) post-Roger Waters PF songs.
Congratulations on 2 yrs!
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A very big hug for you!
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The cravings will pass. I know it doesnāt feel as though they will end, but they will. You are doing so well, and you can keep going. Remember, feelings arenāt forever. Itās good to see you here, reaching out and working on your sobriety. You and I have about the same number of days, so I really do get how youāre feeling right now.
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Checking in on day 12. Iām glad to be home, and am looking forward to going home after work and walking my dog and then working on a knitting project. I feel much better after a good nightās sleep. Iām trying to focus on getting enough rest and hydration, because I feel better physically and mentally when I am taking care of those things.
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Thank you. Iām hanging in there but it still has not passed. Trying to get lost in TV isnāt really working.
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Your doing great sober friend, theyāre just thoughts thatās normal, you donāt have to act on them. If we all did everything we thought we would all be in prison now. Plus you would be a shit addict if you never thought about it. Surrender and let it be how it is. Your sober now, itās not a destination people say but I have to disagree bc we find ourselves where we want to be as soon as we donāt pick up, the part we have to learn the part that is the journey is staying here. You have to act yourself sober not think yourself sober, thinking is our problem and you canāt solve a problem with a problem.
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Well done on your 11 days. There is no reason why you shouldnāt make the 12 th day sober. You can do it. Donāt think of a relapse. And focus instead of staying sober. You say no to any relapse or giving up. Keep on fighting! Everytime I think of a relapse or giving in Iāve done it mostlyā¦ Unless I would come here and talk myself out of it. Stay strong
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Dont hate the LIFE, go work with the behaviour and actions your sick off ā¦ Its not you as a person to be judgedā¦ Just the actions and choices you make to get a better inside.
Getting clean is not a Usain Bolt thing. Its lifes marathon.
Dont be downā¦ Just keep getting the fuck up and the finish awaits.
Be well, safe and honest to yourself
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It took hours of mental training. Thanks, for the support too 