Checking in at the end of day #4. Feeling tired still but it feels good to be tired from being productive instead of nodding out. I’m really making my sobriety a priority and trying to read on here and other apps I have and just in general taking a good look at my life. I feel like I can really do this I feel ready. Good night y’all. 
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Glad you’re here. We all need each other to lean on
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Day 258~ Back to reality today and boy was it a dose and a half of it. 
Had lots of last minute preparations for inspections tomorrow. I ended up having to work a hour or so at my real 9-5 job my boss sent me a message that reporting was needed… I did it but it was a little annoying… I’m on frigan vacation. Found out a guy on my team quit Monday so that’s just fucking fantastic. Ughhh 
I’m also a little hurt about a current situation. Without getting into the gory details I once again am not getting back what I put into the relationship. It hurts and just makes me feel sad. It just sucks to not be thought of or cared for in the same way. Maybe I’m just too sensitive. I dunno 
I’ve been told “You’re special” well I don’t feel special. Maybe It’s time to give up on certain people. I can’t keep putting myself out there and getting hurt. Boundaries are definitely just so hard for me. It doesn’t take much for me to forgive and sweep it under the rug. I need to get stronger and protect my peace.
Keep fighting the fight friends… one day at a time.
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Checking in 4 and a half days sober. My heart feels like it’s going to jump out of my chest and can’t hold a cup for the life of me. Keeping busy, amazing what you can get done when you’re not hiding away drinking. Feeling crap, but great at the same time. Here’s a pic of a cranky looking baby magpie I took this morning just for the hell of it. 20201029_113026|375x500
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Welcome back!!
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Another morning. I wake up and edit, what I had written last night. A vital part of my writing is deleting stuff 
Today I shall be clean. No booze. Checking in as a promise to myself.
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If you feel you are being mistreated you certainly shouldn’t put up with it. I know last time i said something about expectations but if somebody is making you think maybe you’re too sensitive maybe that somebody shouldn’t be in your circle. Nice 258, keep them conning.
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Nice job on 90 days! Well done😀
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You are right… Moving forward my guard or boundaries whatever you wanna call them… are up. I just hate shutting people out but I’m learning it’s what I need to do in order to respect myself and peace.
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Milestone checkin.
As y’all or most of you know I made my 300 today. For the last 4 or 5 days I’ve felt like shit. Stress of 2020 hitting me hard. Too many things to mention. Y’all know what they are. I knew I had a milestone coming up. I’ve actually had a few milestones before and felt the same shitty stressed physically ill way. I don’t get it. I feel great today. None of the stressors of 2020 have changed. Probably gotten worse in the last 24 hours. Even though I knew I was hitting a milestone and things get crazy it didn’t help one bit. I just had to get through it. Mind you I never wanted to drink. I just felt shit blah for so many days. I feel like I did everything right too. I never missed my exercise. I meditated every day. I ate well. I don’t know. Anyway… I happy I’m out of the funk. At least for today. I hope this message can in some way help others coming up on a milestone. I wish I had a secret to share but I don’t. Ya just got to get through it.
C’MON 301 !! Bring it on 
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It’s almost snow season where you are! 
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Hello everyone, I’m new here today. I am 158 days free of the shackles of 20-25 Roxy 30mg IR per day, and I have finally realized that my sobriety is something that no one absolutely no one can take away from me but myself. Thanks for having me here.
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I knooow im so ready for it 
hows weather on your side ?
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It’s sunny and warm and perfect! 
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Day 11 clean today, getting back on the exercise wagon, time to rebuild the fitness 
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Be gentle with yourself. We are laying the foundations to become more like the people we want to be. Being tense and short with loved ones is understandable as you use so much mental and emotional energy on sobriety right now. It will improve. Take care
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Day 97 booze, day 10 pills
Can’t believe only day 10 pills. Feels like much longer.
Crappy sleep again.
But I am not drinking or pilling today.
Take care, everyone
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