Checking in daily to maintain focus #20

I.cant.We.can · October 17, 2020, 1:50am

Went to wayside and cooked lunch and supper. Said my prayers did my readings. Went to a meeting tonight first in person since maybe April.

Lisa07 · October 17, 2020, 2:04am

Congratulations on 9 months Brian!
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RosaCanDo · October 17, 2020, 2:05am

Whatever it takes, huh. Sorry you guys were struggling through the urges, but you got through it. That’s no small feat. Hang in there. Sending good vibes your way.

RosaCanDo · October 17, 2020, 2:07am

So sorry that happened and you’re going through this. Sending big love.

Girlinterrupted · October 17, 2020, 2:18am

You!!!

Girlinterrupted · October 17, 2020, 2:19am

Here she is!!! Beautiful number!

Figgie · October 17, 2020, 2:23am

The thing is, having overcome the urge has given me a certain high. I have to remember that the next time it hits. Of course, you guys help, too, because you understand and make me accountable. Thank you.

Joy · October 17, 2020, 2:28am

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anon28001181 · October 17, 2020, 2:28am

Well done on 9 months!

Joy · October 17, 2020, 2:32am

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Big up to you! Keep on keeping on ODAAT, you got this!
Blessings and sobriety!

I.cant.We.can · October 17, 2020, 2:33am

thanks everyone!! @anon28001181 I remember a few months back when you had to explain to me how to post a screenshot Lol

Girlinterrupted · October 17, 2020, 2:37am

2nd check in for the day. Just got back from spending the evening with my ex-husband. My therapist was actually ok with it because of the headspace that I’m in. My ex looked at me like he hasn’t in a long time and it made me feel sad for him. It was a really nice evening, and he texted to thank me for spending time with him.

Although I have some strange and conflicting feelings, I feel good about it and overall strong. I love him with all my heart, but the way I love him has changed. I’m guarded and will forever keep a safe emotional distance. I have the power to never be hurt by him physically or emotionally ever again.

apes2020 · October 17, 2020, 2:38am

Day 179… It’s Saturday morning. I slept through till half ten am. Thats super late for me. I was in bed early aswell. Woken up feeling flat again. It’s very out of character for me to have a week like this with consistent days of blah. It’s frustrating. But I will do all the good things to shake the blah off me. I will go out for my lake walk. I will go get my morning (late!) coffee. I will come home and jump on my exercise bike and sweat up a storm. Do Saturday house chores. And all that good Saturday stuff… I don’t want to leave the couch to be honest. But living alone, if I don’t push myself to keep momentum going when I’m feeling blah, that’s a quick slippery slope down a rabbit hole of uber eats, Netflix, and couch slothing, and life’s too short to sloth … Side note - I just looked at the dates and it’s 17 th October. Which means mercury has been In retrograde for 3 days…this makes total sense now that I think back over the past few days and how I’ve been feeling… Interesting.