I am very happy I am not younger, the world is turning into a direction I just no longer understand. I guess it happens to us all as we get older.
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Good morning everyone, another Monday… I have my goals and my prep for today and just for today I’m going to focus on following through. Taking things one day at a time is hard for me, I’m learning to stay in the moment because it helps me concentrate on just staying sober for today, then it doesn’t feel so over-wheleming
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Scott, I’m 32 and already I don’t understand the direction we’re headed. My personal opinion? At least some of the blame lies in major social media. It has produced ugly changes in us, culturally and socially. It has driven a shift towards “me” thinking with very little emphasis on “we” thinking.
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I got rid of all social media except snap chat, it’s hard because fb was one of my main forms of keeping in touch with family. But they have my number if they want to talk. Honestly getting rid of it was the best thing I’ve done for my mental health so far this year.
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I did the same about a year and a half ago. The only one I ever had was facebook, the others came to popularity a bit after “my time”. I didn’t understand the need for instagram, since you could just post your photo on fb. I never understood the purpose of snapchat or tik tok…at all. You can text photos/videos to people. I came to realize that Facebook was just a source of a bunch of uneccessary noise, so I dropped it. Haven’t regretted it once.
Same deal, I had used it to keep in touch with a lot of people…but if they want to contact me, they have my number if it’s someone I was interested in keeping in touch with to begin with. People got along just fine in the days before it.
Not to be “holier than thou”. These are just my personal opinions on it, and it’s something I have no interest in being a part of.
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If I had one wish, I would rid the planet of smart phones and social media.
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I’ve been having the same statements. I add those questions afters: what does sobriety will give me through those uncharted territory? VS what does using will give me? What would be harder - tolerating the ambiguous Christmas time of pandemic sober, or blacking out through it and maybe not going to coming out of it?
I’m really not trying to diminish the feelings you have. I myself feel weird about those days ahead. But when they come up I try to keep myself at least clear headed what I can control and that is, for the least, sobriety. Hope you have a good day 
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First of all I’m so sorry for the losses you and your boyfriend have endured @Brookiemonster618 my heart hurts for you both. Sending so much love and prayers your way right now. Day 167 clean and sober today and am home from work today. I actually felt a lot better yesterday as I accomplished being on the elliptical and didn’t eat bad things. @anon27760155 you’re amazing and you are worth every bit of sobriety you have. I’ve watched you battle so hard and you have earned every single minute you have. Please stay strong. Our disease wants to separate us from everyone and everything we love and kill us period. Please don’t believe the lies, love you pal. Have an amazing day today everyone I’m so proud of each and every one of you and you give me so much strength and hope every day here on this forum. Thank you I love you guys!!! 
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Day 287. I’m here and I’m sober, yesterday like I said I slept all day. Today I didn’t make it to work, am I upset with myself a lil bit? Yeah, but I can’t beat myself up over it. Just because I’m sober doesn’t mean everyday is gonna be great and I’m going to always be better. I still have shit days, I did just go for a jog on the treadmill and feel a lil better. Anyways much love everyone, even on those shit days were worth it and we’re worth sobriety. Sometimes we don’t feel better sober but we are and that’s a fact.
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Day 115 check in…
Getting back on my fitness routine. I have a good 8 pounds I want to lose. I let myself go for a month. I can’t believe how quickly I lost my endurance and balance and packed on the pounds. BUT today is a new day. 
Hope you all have a good one!
Congrats on 9 months @Dragonflygirl82 !! You are killin it!!! Glad you got some time to yourself and a manicure sounds amazing!! You work sooo hard you deserve the best!!
@Brookiemonster618 That is sooo heartbreaking. Im so proud of you staying sober through all of this!! Ugh I hate this virus!!! 
@Chiron glad to see you back checking in. 
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@Brookiemonster618 I’m so sorry for your and your boyfriend’s losses. That is so very sad. Sending love and strength 
@anon27760155 Try not to let the addict voice win. I hope your meds got sorted today and you start to feel a bit better.
66 days.
Got an early walk in, during which my GP called and agreed to do the steroid injection in my foot this morning, it was bearable but is now very sore which is to be expected for around 36-48 hours, he said I didn’t really need to rest but the advice I’ve read online says to rest for 48hrs to minimise the risk of the plantar fascia ligament rupturing, so I’m going to stick to that and not do.anymore walks until Weds afternoon or Thursday morning, depending how it’s feeling. He said he could only do one foot at a time so I have to wait a few weeks before scheduling the other foot in, and that one only just started so it’s not so bad right now.
I then saw my recovery worker, I’m being moved into the category for less support because I’m doing very well in her opinion, and that’s all good with me.
I have secured an interview for a Recovery Co-ordinator role for the local Drug and Alcohol addiction recovery service. I really feel that I want to help people escape the hell as I have done. I’ve been keeping my eye on their website for the role to become available for a while now, I feel it would be the perfect role for me to return to work with. When I got the email with the interview invite, I didn’t hear my historical I can’t do this voice, I actually felt excited and positive, this could be it 
I’ve got until 1st December to prepare so I’ll be researching loads.
Time to eat something. Have a good day/evening everyone 
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Brielle, if I may?
Your stats show that you haven’t interacted with this app much.
Are you daily active in working on your sobriety?
There are a couple of threads for the newcomers that is full of good information including writing down fewlings etc.
Staying connected to my sobriety 24/7 is one of the main factors in my journey.
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Day 3 here. Glad for it! Have not slept well in SO long, hoping that eliminating the booze will eventually help that.
Heading out for a jog on a beautiful Monday!
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Day 70: I’m reminded this morning of my last day 7, and all the other day 7s before that. I am grateful for each and every day 7, because they are part of what has gotten me to day 70. Those first 7 days are so raw and empty feeling, but by the end of them there is a vision forming of a different possible existence. In my mind, all of my day 7’s represent what I have learned about myself so far, accepting that I have a dysfunctional relationship with alcohol, starting to understand what living without alcohol looks like for me, and realizing that abstinence is not enough - I have a lot of work to do to live the life I want and to feel how I want to feel about myself. I’ve said it here before, that it is a forever kind of work, but my feelings around it are shifting somewhat. I feel less overwhelm and anxiety and more hope and anticipation (the good kind). I’m continuing to let go of some shame and if I find myself off track I don’t berate myself as much! I like this tactic I’m learning, to observe myself without judgment but make changes in behavior and patterns of thinking. It’s not easy but it seems to be working.
That being said, I’m starting this week off with a fresh start on some healthier choices around diet and exercise. That ol’ sweet tooth has got me good lately. I also recognize I have been avoiding some feelings around grief and loss, and reading about other people’s losses on here and elsewhere has brought up some emotions I need to look at. I had a hard conversation with my mom and aunt this weekend about the loss of my cousin to COVID 19 earlier this summer, with lots of anger spilling out regarding that side of the family’s disregard for mask-wearing and other ideas about the pandemic and politics. Reading this thread this morning has triggered some of that emotion and I know it’s something I need to unpack before it festers even more.
@M-be-free49 You hit the nail on the head - there absolutely is a backlog of tears and emotion that I wasn’t allowing myself to feel. It keeps coming at the oddest times and I have done pretty well at just letting it happen, though tears while driving are a bit of an inconvenience! That seems to happen a lot. Probably because I always have music on, and well, you probably know.
I remain grateful for what sobriety is helping me to do today.
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Yep, life is not all rainbows and unicorn farts. And we may not feel better sober, but I find it helpful to remind myself that I don’t feel bad because I’m sober. Part of why I’m feeling so bad is cos I spent so much time fucked up instead of learning how to deal with life on life’s terms. We’ve got some catching up to do, and sober is the best way to get it done! 
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I just read this from my favorite astrologer Rob Brezsny and thought I might share here. It’s from his Facebook page. I’m adding it to my journalling prompts list.
"We all have addictive and obsessive tendencies. They are fundamental to being human. So the challenge is not to eliminate them – that’s not possible – but rather to harness them. If you hope to keep them from dragging you down, you must work hard to channel them into activities that enhance your life.
How are you doing on this score? Are you chronically dependent on drugs, gambling, fearful emotions, sugar, or chaotic relationships?
Or are you, instead, hooked on the courage you summon when you face your fears and the willpower you invoke as you free yourself from your limitations?
Now is an excellent time to upgrade your addictive and obsessive tendencies."
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On the off chance that anyone is interested, I’ve posted a new scuba diving video on youtube.
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wow, that’s stunning!