Happy birthday. Hopefully you enjoyed driving that new car. Like you said lots of accomplishments this year. Good stuff!!!
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Hitting the pillow sober.
Pizza and saving private Ryan did the job.
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I appreciate you! Youāre right, tomorrow will be different. Iām so glad you said that, because I keep getting stuck on the phrase, āTomorrow will be better,ā and then what follows in my mind is often, āWill it? Will it, though?ā But I can totally get behind, āTomorrow will be different,ā and Iāll deal with whatever that is, then. Good on you for walking through the anxiety today. I ate a lot of chocolate and Iām okay with that. Hope you sleep well.
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Had a nice chat with my ex sponsor. Talked to my addiction counsellor. Did an NA zoom meeting. Turned my day around. It works if we work it.
Bless you all. 
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@jjcarson92 Happy Birthday!! Hope you had an awesome day 
@I.cant.We.can Sounds like you had a really
productive day, I love it!
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I love this. I noticed around the 90 day mark that my tolerance for unhealthy boundaries had gone wayyyy down. Itās about bringing everything - relationships, work, other habits, everything - into line with our sober selves.
And I was thinking today that you STILL days ahead of me! 
Once my big bro, always my big bro. Super proud of you and your 170 days. 
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Awwww thanks lil sis and Iām so proud of you too! Yeah setting boundaries is something totally new to me, I just found out what they were while in treatment lol!!! Much love from your big brother Emm Iām so glad weāre on this journey together!!! 
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Good night to Day 11. Blast all this school and work getting in the way of my forum time! I finished the work, shoddy but finished.
Tomorrow will be another heck of a day. Please, please, let me sleep well.
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Day 143.
Today, in fact at times this whole week, my mind has been writing stories about what other people think of me, how not good enough i am at work or other life stuff, how i might never be good enough. Not just normal-level, but epic novel saga-sized storiesā¦
This is when I would run and hide behind (or in) the safety of a bottle, where the monstrous thoughts canāt catch me. But I donāt even feel like drinkingā¦ ā¦I just realize how short I am on healthy tools to hang out in uncomfortable places! Itās yucky, and I donāt like it. And it makes me feel defeated.
My final writing assignment is due early next week (and it means a lot to me) and I have to throw myself into it over the weekend, and I think Iām just feeling vulnerable about it. (And, kind of, the state of the world.)
So Iām running a bath and going to bed soon with some tea and a book. Thatās all I got left in me for this dayā¦
Gnight all, thanks for sharing another one.
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Day 5. Check. Will check in today more often. My love is living in one country, me in Germany. This weekend weāll see each other the last time for a long time, I guess, because his country is getting into a lock down. So I have been convinced that he will hurry up to see me right after work this evening. Instead he will arrive tomorrow because he is working till 8pm and obviously not ready to drive few h in the evening.
So I feel these damned feelings, without covering by alcohol. It hurts. One thing is, I feel rejected, because I expected him to come to see me as fast he can. For the last uncertain time.
The other thing is, that I am very sad because of the pandemic situation. Like all people worldwide. But now I really feel this.
It is hurting a lot.
But I will go through, I want to feel.
I donāt know if I could explain it well.
Have a good and sober day, thanks for listening.
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Congratulations 
Paul you cheater 
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- Coffee. Another work week coming up. Iād rather stay home and do some more DIY but we donāt always get to choose what we want. Itās OK. I did choose to be sober and clean though and I am happier with that decision every day. Have a good one all. Clean and sober. This is where Iām currently at with my living room. Love from Amsterdam.
@apes2020 Stay with us April. We got you if you let us. Hugs.
@Dolse71 Congrats Paul! Great stuff man.
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Day 101
This last academic year I have been working less, with the purpose of spending more me time, and being less stressed about combining work and domestic burden. Of course earnings dropped. An opportunity has come up. It would mean a little more work, and quite a bit more pay. However, I have been enjoying my current schedule, if feeling a little guilty like I should work more. I am trying to balance the pros and cons. I really donāt know.
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Happy happy birthday, hope you have a great day 
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Day 317! So grateful to be sober for such a long time.
Through all the hard times and fucked up days. I made it this far. Iād never want to drink again.
Just heard on the radio that a lot of people in my country (ex addicts) relapse a lot more now bc of the lockdown and the pandemic. Alcohol sales gone threw the roof. I worry for those who think alcohol woll solve thnigsā¦
Have a good sober friday!!
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Have a good friday!
Jouw posts zijn altijd een inspiratie voor me!
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Fantastic work on 60 days!! 
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