I reached the 6 month mark on my benzo counter two days ago. I took a screen shot and meant to post it, but then I never did. They were not my doc, but if it somehow found its way to me then I’d use it.
I haven’t been very active over the last week so I’m going to leave a few comments below for ten people TS allows me to mention in one post.
@Joy 500 days! Congratulations! I’m so happy for you! @RainbowUnicorn Welcome!
@Edmund What a day that makes it. I’m glad that you were there for him. @Clarity Congrats on your 4 months! That’s awesome! @Dazercat 325 days! You are awesome! So close to a year! Also, love the Christmas set up. @Mno I love your living room! It looks great! @Jennajen 150 days! You are doing wonderful! @apes2020 Oh no! I’m so sorry to hear that! I’m glad you’re okay, but how scary! @M-be-free49 I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. I can’t even imagine how difficult this is for you to not be there. @Dragonflygirl82 I’m sorry about your covid test and feeling like you’re being treated like a number. No one likes that feeling, let alone when you’re sick. I hope you feel better soon.
Day 148.
Looking forward to putting this day to bed, and me too. Still sorting out stuff with Mom’s care. This time last year, my “me time” and breaks would have been drinks, drinks “earned” and justifiable, no less. So glad to see this shift in my mentality - some times it’s ice-age-slow, but the shift is there - me time isn’t truly me time if it isn’t sober…
Thank you @siand, @Rockstar24777, @Dazercat, @Mno, @CATMANCAM, @Chiron and @Clarity - for the well wishes and/or prayers for my Mom. She would be so thrilled to know she has a fan club! Honestly, she saw the best in everyone, and I know she’d do the same with all of you.
@Mno. I hope your upcoming therapy is all good things, even if hard work at times. There is such a fine line sometimes between apprehension and excitement! I’m excited for you. Hope you get some good downtime too to enjoy that beauty home of yours.
@anon74766472 i hope you are feeling better soon. I love the decoration. I don’t have a lot of decorations either, but the ones I have are meaningful, like yours.
My weekend started and it will last till Monday jay! Today will be me time. Which right now means painting my hallway. I’m really beginning to like this home improvement stuff. It’s such a tangible way of bettering my life. Also the handwork in itself has something meditative. Doing it at my own pace, which means pretty slow.
The rest of my days are already planned pretty full but I’ll work on staying balanced too (thanks @CapriciousCapricorn). Sober and clean. Because I’m a much better and happier human when I am. Which goes for all of us or we wouldn’t be here. Have a good day all. Love from Amsterdam where I love to watch the dawn and sip my coffee.
Got the sore throat and ear popping when I swallow that heralds the start of a cold. After I pick the kids up from their ice-skate class gonna have some hot tea and an early night, I think. At least my body is in good shape to fight any pesky bugs off.
Starting day 1. 🤦🤦🤦 I didn’t mess up huge but I would feel guilty if I didn’t reset my timer. My friend had a few Adderall and I took them over the course of 2 days. I don’t know why I did it. I’ve been so tired and just wanted a little pick me up. Here I go back at it again. Have a wonderful Wednesday TS folks.
Blessed and grateful. Just for today, I will ajdust myself to what is, and not try to ajdust everything to my own desires. I will take my luck as it comes and fit myself to it.
Plz anyone when I talk about a.a don’t think I’m preaching it to you, I know there are many ways to sobriety. It’s working for me and I’m almost 10 months sober, many of you have seen the way I change through doing a.a and not doing it. My purpose is simply to carry out what is working for me, and maybe a newcomer will see and like to give it a try. Take care and much love
What is it that leads you to believe that individuals can experience recovery from addiction?
I believe individuals can recover if they put the effort in believing just not in themselves but hope from a creative intelligence. Taking strength & guidance from other peoples shares & successes. Taking the time and effort to learn about their addiction and accepting help into recovery with an open mind, positivity & faith. To accept they are powerless over the disease but wish to become better as a person spiritually.
I am grateful that I am able to keep a roof over my head, pay my bills, have full-time work, and the ability to live a reasonably comfortable life the way I want. I am grateful for my little 4-legged buddy. I am grateful that I haven’t lost anyone to coronavirus. I am grateful that I have never had to worry about going hungry or homeless.
I am grateful for whatever it is that keeps me going every day, despite how bad I may feel at times. I guess you could call it hope. I am grateful for my ability to recognize my shortcomings and have the desire to address them. I am grateful for the Navy recruiter 9 years ago who never submitted my paperwork to join, because it meant working on myself for 6 months rather than a week or so. Those 6 months waiting/pulling myself together (not knowing he never sent my papers) were the beginning of where I am now. Had he submitted the paperwork like he said he would, I would have gotten the rejection within a week and would have likely gone back to full-time boozing. I’d probably be in a very different place (or dead) by now.
I am grateful for all of the people here, especially those who I have developed personal friendships with. I am grateful for my intelligence and my ability to conduct myself in a way that I can feel good about. Life feels better when you live honestly and know that you are always trying to do the right thing, even if it isn’t always the easy thing.
I got a nice little present of sorts last night for 900 days - the local team I support (the one my Dad and I have season tickets for) won their 2nd match of the championship playoff and now move on to the semi-finals. Even better, it was against the team who was #1 in the league this year, who we had lost to all 5 TIMES we had played them previously this season. We dominated them for the entire 90 minutes this time.
I really miss going to the matches, it gave my something to look forward to 3-4x a month, and you really feel like part of a community with the team and other supporters. But we’ll be back soon.
I was so excited about the win last night that I wore my kit to sleep and will probably wear it today too
Anyhow. It’s been a hard year, 2020 – personally and globally – but I am grateful to be at this point, grateful to be here. Thanks.
Honestly, she saw the best in everyone, and I know she’d do the same with all of you.
almost forget how much they mean until its the only thing keeping you company and there loyalty
days finally triple digits 
