nice one!!!
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Checking in, all is well. Today was a nice day - had orientation for my primary job. So, Iām a go for two jobs and they officially start tomorrow. One is mental and computer work; the other is flat out physical labor. Thank god the labor job is the part time one. Not sure I could pull it off, too many injuries. 
Time to put my work ethic and motivation to the test, and get out of this financial hole.
Congrats to the milestone achievements!
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Checking in at the end of day 318.85. Woke up and did my usual routine. Prayers, readings, shower and coffee. Got a ride to the treatment center to cook lunch and supper. Iām going to be pretty busy there for who knows how long. All of my fellow volunteers and friends are now sadly struggling or relapsing. It doesnāt make me want to drink or use but does make me very sad.
God bless you all. 
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Thank you, Donna. I feel a bit better just putting it out there. I appreciate you.
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I remember including prayers into my routine as well somehow it just doesnt come to mind anymore it did give me inner peace all the time. Sorry to hear about your volunteers and friends wishing you all the strength you need for this kudos for not wanting it to make you drink.
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Youāre not imposing at all.
I appreciate the recommendation. I will give it a read. It might help to come at this from a different angle and with a fresh approach.
Meditation has really helped me become more aware of my thoughts. Iāve also been doing some exercises that my therapist had suggested to help with my self image and the negative self talk. Theyāve been helping, but for whatever reason this particular mood has been harder to shake. Iām currently doing okay and still handling my responsibilities, but my concern is that the negative self talk, will turn into a self fulfilling prophecy at some point.
Thank you.
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Sometimes easier, sometimes way harder. Currently the latter.
I donāt intend to fall off the wagon. I know in my heart that I canāt fucking go through that again. Iāll keep plugging along, but itād be nice if I felt a little more sure of myself along the way.
I appreciate it and congratulations on your 60 days! I can still get excited for others.
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Thank you so much. Iām trying to remind myself that I can have low periods and that they wonāt last.
I have faith that Iāll get past it too actually. Itās just been tiring and emotional having these reoccurring thoughts that Iām somehow not cut out for this. I donāt intend on acting on them, but itās still rough.
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Day 154.
Still feeling the feels, but when I look around, there is always a lot to be grateful for. Maybe Iāll head over to the gratitude thread and start working on my practiceā¦
I know Iām very grateful I get this chance to live my life how it feels itās supposed to be lived ā sober. Iām very grateful to be sober. And based on previous failed attempts, I canāt imagine I would be sober without this place. Iām grateful that I have you all to show up to everyday, and that you show up here too.
Here we are, sharing this rich, raw, real slice of our lives with each other. Beauty.
Gānight all. Big love. 
@Salty and @Olivia ā yay and huge congrats on your 60 days! And please no should-ing on yourself. 
@anon28001181 I believe in you, we do. And Iām not sure if this fits for you - and Iām still working out what the right amount is, but Iāve been paying some attention to self-doubt in other areas of my life, and when (in the right amounts) it can actually helpā¦ If it doesnāt fit for you - ignore it!
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Congrats Olivia, keep on breaking records.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Oh and 333.33! Wow, that is amazing. Big smile over here for you!
Soā¦ does this mean your one year falls on or around new years? Thatās even more amazing!
Best New Years Day.
Ever.
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Checking in clean and sober on day 10. Double digits!! 
I got in touch with my old therapist and had my first much needed session in a long time today. It was a relief to finally ask for help.
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Coming up to 1 day! Its been abit rough to say the least 
Wanted to use but kept distracting myself with wellā¦ food unfortunately. I way over ate tonight. Not feeling well now lol. I was reminded of HALT (hungry, angry, lonely, tired). Realized I was hungry and tired. So I ate supper and did dishes. However, I kept thinking of using (I am ashamed to say this but I actually contacted a few people to see if I could borrow moneyā¦ thankfully no one could). And Iām broke. So I kept eating to fill a void perhaps? Not sure. I am still clean and sober. Going to have a nice shower and a good rest. Have to work tomorrow so I need to just end this day. Came on here to share and read for abit. Trying to rewire this brain of mine lol. Hope everyone has a good night hugs
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Checking in on day 65. It was a really long day at work, but we got word that the dress code has changed, so now I can at least wear jeans every day! I will at least be comfortable while people are yelling at me on the phone.
@salty and @Olivia, congratulations on 60 days! That is so awesome!
@Jamie3 double digits! Great work!
@Dazercat, threes across the board! You are definitely more patient than I am. I could never have pulled that screenshot off, but Iām hoping to get those numbers!
@RosaCanDo Iām sorry to hear that your dog is so sick. Iām glad that you can spend time with them, and knit and do stuff to help stay calm.
@anon28001181, not every day can be a great day, and it really sucks when a bunch of the not good ones stack up in a row. I just want you to know, youāre not an imposter. Youāre doing the damn thing every day, and youāre an example to me and a lot of other people around here. Hang in there.
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Checking in on Day 3! Today had some up and downs emotionally, but overall it was a good day. Accomplished some work, excercised, learned something new, and made a tasty dinner. Happy for another day with no alcohol and getting back into the sober life.
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Day 112
This time around I havenāt been buying any sober treats for myself. It seems extravagant and silly when it is my third go. But as I near my pb, thought I would order some earrings, part early Christmas / bday present, part sober treat. Now am getting a case of the āwhat-ifsā. What if I slip? What if I am rewarding myself for nothing? It seems to be making it into a bigger deal in my head and triggering the milestone malady.
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Thanks it does help being retired. I got time and finally learning patience in my old, and maybe being sober, age has something to do with it. Besides it was 19 degrees this am and we were in no hurry to walk the dogs.
Yep Emm @M-be-free49 I started the year off with a 2 day hangover. I drank so much on the 31st and 1st. I kinda planed going out with a bang. And my head WAS banging 
I couldnāt have picked a better year to be sober. Seriously.
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