Day 140 booze day 53 pills
Been away for a week. Been crazy busy. But I must focus on sobriety as #1 priority. I’ve found myself much more tempted to have just one drink or a small dose this last week. Last night I was looking through some things and came across just a few mgs of diazepam. (Yeah just lying around in my bedroom, with two kids in the house, yknow, amazing behaviour 
). I’ll be honest, it would have been briefly wonderful but I threw them straight into the toilet. I’ve also got a few codeine tablets knocking around and keep thinking how good it would feel just to take a little and chill. Actually … hang on … ok I just went and ditched them down the drain, too. Having the house completely clean makes it harder to make bad choices, tho I was pretty proud that last night when the temptation was very strong I was still able to flush the benzos.
Goodnight all
Im feeling better! A nurse called last night and we have a possibility of a Covid 19 negative… And maybe she is only intoxicated by clonazepam, Im praying a lot and my friend is staying here at home with me and my dogs, I called as you ask me and they make me understand that Im the only one on her life and I need to stay possitive and strong for her no matter what happens or the results. Thanks a lot guys your words really touched me and make feel not alone, and wanting to keep my sobriety @Dazercat @LeeHawk @M-be-free49 @CATMANCAM
I’m really glad for the news! Check in here anytime or start a thread if you need help, there is always someone here to help and we all care for you.
Thanks for letting us know. This sounds like good news. Will continue with the prayers. Proud of you. I hope you’re proud of yourself.
Thank you for checking in, @Luisa53. Been thinking about you and your mom. Sounds like you’ve got a great friend to lean on. Continued prayers.
Solid work. Good for you. Glad you checked in!
Way to go @Mark2!! I’m really proud of you for flushing those pills and being honest about it. I know how hard it is to throw pills away.
Working so hard to turn “get drunk” activities into sober activities. I only ever did this to get blackout drunk. Now, on the eve of 21 completed days, I’m sitting here with a Coke Zero with my wife and listening to a Christmas playlist. Rewriting my future. Changing the old ways by doing them the BEST way.
I hear you @anon74766472 you’re not alone. Stay strong we can get through this. Have a great night!
Never been to Texas unfortunately! Its definetly on my list. Next yr when travel resumes hopefully to normal, I want to do across country roads trip and see the south. When I lived in nyc I didn’t leave there unfortunately, so I still have SO much to see!.. And I love the Yankee candles. They are good quality, the fragrance is very strong and long lasting 
Feeling good. There’s still an anxiety that I’ll fall again but I feel so much stronger having you guys for accountability, inspiration and support. All the other efforts I made to over come this addiction, I did alone, but I don’t feel that way now that I’ve met this community. You’ve kept me going this far and I’m feeling better. I’m feeling healthier and stronger! Thank you!
I quit ciggies cold turkey. Just be strong and dont buy any when you run out and stick to your decision that you made being choosing not to smoke. You can do it. Just remember why you are choosing not too. When you are truly ready to quit, you will. Your body will no longer enjoy them after a good break off them.
Checking in at the end of the day. Lots of good talks with family, counsellor and housemates today. Good timing with all that too, I needed it. It’s so easy to fall into why am I doing this, especially now with all the worlds problems that, at times, I allow to get to me. Actually, once again I read alot of good stuff on here too. I don’t often reply or respond to the successes and struggles I read about on here but know this. You are all awesome, we can do this. You are worth it. You are loved. You are smart and fucking hilarious. Your handsome and gorgeous, I’ve seen lots of selfies. God bless you all. 
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… My spiritual number that I see on a regular bases is 22 or 222… When I’m in alignment , it turns up all the time… I havnt seen it for a few months, so this was fun to see…
Day 14, no booze! Woohoo!! Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Day 13 here! Feeling more exhausted the longer I go, hoping that passes soon. I always thought I got shit sleep when I was drinking, but these last 13 days seem worse. Still feel happy with my choice to stay sober though. Hope everyone is doing well!
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Out being a speaking examiner today, my first time, very small sessions so a good way to get confidence. There was a big gap between tests so I walked around looking for a cafe and found a British style pub. I was a little tempted by the familiar atmosphere, but even tho I was pretty sure I wouldn’t drink, decided to stick with finding a cafe.
Noisy is doing well, he seems a bit grumpier, maybe he is just tired. Will put a pic up once I get a decent one.
Checking into day 49. I’m not feeling so great since I’m doing home office… A lot of drinking thoughts are coming into my mind. I’m depressed. I need to focus on my sobriety much much harder. Did my prayers today in the morning. Now planning my day. Write my gratitude list and then will read in the big book. Ahhh brighter days will come. Wishing you all a great weekend 
He probably is tired from his excursion. Your kids must be so happy! I’m so glad he’s home.