Starting again, because, why not. Being going through a physical pain hell recently getting nerve block treatments for various ailments like herniations etc. What a trigger, but its getting better so I am trying to get better.
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Checking in very early with 23 days behind me. Remembering today that I am a work in progress and so is everyone else. Relationships will still be strained, people will still disagree with me, and others will still choose to be flat out unkind. However, none of this will be because I chose alcohol, and I wonāt turn to alcohol to solve these problems. Iām choosing to feel it ā¦ to experience it ā¦ to walk through it in wisdom and sobriety instead of drunkenness.
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Hello,
Checking in on Day 118 
have a nice week for all of you , Thanks
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Congrats on 10 months, onwards and upwards!
Blessings and sobriety!
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@cwak Thank you 
sometimes I canāt believe how I did it either. I have relapsed many times before. But this time I continue with determination. I believe life offers better things when sober.
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Checking in on day 20. Iām not sure if I ever made it this long without prescription pills. I feel better, look better (except for some weight gain Iām not pleased with), and I feel more financially free already. Normally I am so concerned about every dollar because I want to make sure I can get pills after I get what we need. Iām noticing not only are we getting what we need but we have room for fun and still have extra money left. I feel so comfortable in sobriety now. I feel like Iām truly living my best life. Have a great Monday everyone!!
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150.12 Days
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I was never a daily drinker, but my relationship with alcohol was such that I felt I needed to look at things differently. It took me a while to feel like I had a place in the recovery community because I never drank every day, had a good job, no prison, etc etc. But it was useful to recognise all the things I had in common with people who had what I would consider āmore seriousā addictions. I found spending a lot of time here helped with that.
However, we all have to find our own paths. If you feel you only need to be here at the weekends, that is of course your choice and your right! 
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Day 30 here. Still feeling strong. Trying to not focus on the cravings that will eventually find me. Maybe they wonāt, and the next 30 days will be as easy as the first.
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Off to work have a great day everyone
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Day 315. Just really not much to say. Iām depressed, and itās just me being stuck in my own self pitty. Itās easy for anyone to say, just change your thinking, be positive, you get to choose to be positive and happy. Like gee thanks I wish I would of thought of that. Itās no different then telling a chronic relapser, just donāt pick up. Itās not that simple. But I know it will pass and I know it will get better, if I be lazy and bang into work, donāt do this or donāt do that. At the end of the day if Iām sober thatās really all I care about. I am still trying regardless and no Iām not all successful on task throughout the day, Iāve been struggling to get out of bed, jog, do anything really. But Iām not gonna cry about it bc it just is what it is at this moment. So yeah have a good day
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Cecking in on day 17. Been sad lately as I find my mind drifting into thinking/worry about my Momās declining health. But, my morning routine has been key. I wake up earlyā¦ pray, meditate, exercise, do my awakening journal and gratitude list (on the 12 step toollkit app, which is great btw), text my sponsor, and hit a meetingā¦ it has really been the glue holding me together and for that I am thankful 
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One hour away from Day 8.
Checking in.
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Good luck for your day. Hope you feel better on the other side of it
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thank you for sharing that. I do know her, but will look at it again.
for weeks I have been feeling myself slip into a nervous breakdown. A place I have never been before, but I know in my heart that there is no way back. I have been fighting to long always pushing for just one more day.
And I know I have already collapsed and that there will be no one to help me, which is the reason I keep crawling. I have to do it alone because I am alone.
Just now I called my doctor at the hospital for emergency help with my insomnia. Seems I have been unsubscribed in the hospital and no one knows what to do due to covid and my doctor being at holiday.
I have checked in here every 5 minutes hoping for an answer that will help me through the dayā¦ I am so desperate to lean into someone for just once. ms independant. for now, I can not do it on my own.
I have been through a lot but this feeling of really knowing I can not hold myself anymore is the most scary feeling ever.
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Unfortunately in the darkest times itās really the only thing you can do: to push for one more day. And if you do it long enough, you will realize, how far youāve got from that downhill.
Do you have a therapist to turn to?
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Lean in mate! None of us do this alone
I can relate the feeling of everything just slipping away, always just out of reach. I find it hard to describe, but the more I try and fix myself the more I focus on everything that is wrongā¦ I cling to what I perceive to be the ideal outcome because of the aversion I feel to my current perception of reality.
From Tara Brach - our thoughts are real, but it doesnāt mean they are true.
Every time we manage to interrupt that cycle that could turn a difficult moment into a difficult minute, hour, day, weekā¦ That is success. It isnāt about making everything perfect, itās managing life on terms it gives us. Sometimes things are just shit. Things will change, there will be good times and bad times ahead.
I hope you can find some calm in the storm 
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For me it was the time, when I hit rock bottom and realized, that there is no way out of here other than starting to heal, because otherwise Iāll just die. I guess itās life instinct. So I stopped to do the things that were obviously harmful. But it was just my brain telling to do it, I still didnāt care about myself a lot. And after some time this feeling of self-care appeared vaguely. It took time and patience. Meanwhile I had to trust my brain that it knows what to do and not falling for the emotions.
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