That is so spot on. My entitlement, pride, judgement, even fear. Forgiveness is such a cornerstone of being human. I’m so sorry for what your father did to you. Nothing will ever justify it or wipe it away. By forgiving you’re setting yourself free of those things. You are a brave soul. So very proud of you 
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Thanks Olivia! Yeah it definitely made me who I am today. Its something I didnt even realize bothered me until I got sober because I had been numbing my whole life. It does feels good to be set free! I am proud of you too.
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So glad our paths have crossed! Fare thee well, dear friend. When I think of you I will smile and add you to my definition of recovery-in-action. 
OOoohh 
I think that means good things are coming your way!! 
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Thank you so much 
you always have great advice. I appreciate you more than you know. 
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Congrats!!! Awesome journey you have been on!
Sounds nice. I love summer dresses! I live in a fairly warm US state, so can wear them quite a bit. And sandals! Love sandals. You have earned whatever you treat yourself with! 
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I hear you! I am triggered by some posts, TV commercials, songs, books…my freaking closet. I walk in and see all the places I can (and used to) hide my poison. Who the hell walks in their closet and thinks of it as a drinking venue? Seriously???
Gotta laugh or I’ll cry 
or break sh#t!!
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Not the best day today… but at least I’m not on fire…
Anyway, off to bed shortly.
Maybe my dream will come true tonight.
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I cannot believe today is my 200th day, it has flown!! Keep it sober folks, I have been slammed with work and a move!
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Checking in here, grateful to be sober since 12/12/17.
Was talking to my sponsor yesterday, describing to him how I’m still haunted by my high school bullies from 20+ years ago, I have nightmares about those guys at least twice a week. We discussed that I need to move on. Dwelling on the distant past isn’t doing me any good and is contributing to my anxiety.
Last night I had a dream about one of these guys again. But in this dream we embraced each other as old friends and then just sat and talked a long time. I pray for more of this as I think it means my subconscious is healing.
Then my reading this morning: “[My resentment] causes me to distort the past, twist events, and lie to myself… Resentment also deceives me into thinking I am getting even with the person I resent. I try to convince myself I am in the right - that I am merely seeking justice… I had allowed the poison of resentment to dominate me.”
My higher power is definitely pushing me to work on these old resentments. Time to do some work, share, and move on.
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@littlemisschatterbox and @MikeSeekingHope. I used to have very vivid nightmares that my stepfather would come back after he left us when I was 17. Years and years of nightmares that would result with me waking up in a silent scream and soaking wet from fear. Time and an understanding partner were my relief until I could let it go in my mind. He is still alive and connected at times with my stepsister who did not have the same experiences. I had to set strong boundaries with her on not mentioning him or talking to him about my family so I would not trigger the nightmares. I no longer have them, it took many years of retraining my brain, but it did happen. Very much like you both described of not allowing space, or what I tell my son about bullies…not giving them your power.
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Just your friendly neighborhood squirrel stopping by. 900 days.
Still here, still sober!
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I am actually a multi-instrumentalist, i did do some writing years ago,
It was actually filled with a ton of anger and hurt long story shortened I was going to counseling with my childs mother trying to save our relationship, she left me in the middle of it for some guy she met online, he was a phony, and I saw right through him, his claims of being a lawyer, and his lifestyle. He didn’t even give her his real name.
I was right, he wasn’t a lawyer, nor was his name Mike, he lived in his parents house and they had another house they retired to in FL. He was also married and his wife was away for a lengthy period. The walls came crashing down soon enough and I just had to sit back and watch
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Nice!! I like how you try to nonchalantly drop in here with your 900 days. Well, it’s not going unnoticed because that’s a freakin huge accomplishment. You’re an inspiration to me and many others and thank you for all you do to keep this place running smoothly.
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