congrats on 200 days, keep on rocking soberly.
Blessings and sobriety!
Congratulations on 90 days lady! Stay strong through the New Year. Itās just another Thursday/Friday. Check in here. Message me if you need to!
Iām glad to see you doing good!
I was going to write something similar to what @crystalclear wrote. Stay the course and much love!
Wow, Mennoās got moves!
Congratulations Paul on you 100 days. So happy for ya.
@Dolse71
And congratulations to mister grateful Duncan on your 18 months.
@DuncanNZ
Itās great to have you both on the Team !!
@AyBee congrats on 600!
@Dolse71 congrats on triple digits
@DuncanNZ congrats on 18 months
@Salty congrats on 90
142 days no alcohol.
110 days no cocaine.
Restlessness is upon me. Iām finding it difficult to sit with. Iāve meditated loads today, it helps for the time Iām doing it but then it creeps back in. I wish I could go out for walks again. Nature is calling me. I havenāt been able to read today, brain wonāt calm down enough not to be distracted. Iāve stressed myself out on the hunt for private rentals that accept pets, thereās nothing about, the ones that didnāt specifically state no pets I enquired about but was met with rejection. The search continuesā¦
Be well everyone
@Lisa07 Such great news about your daughterās new opportunities. Iām excited for both of you.
@Mno Your words ring so true. Itās the days that we feel arenāt worth it that are the most important to push through.
@Dolse71 Congratulations on triple digits
@Girlinterrupted What is happening with your ex isnāt your fault. You did what was right and needed to be done for you. Itās ok to be compassionate but make sure to maintain your boundaries.
@Salty Congratulations on 90 days. Keep fighting the good fight. . . youāve got this.
197 days. Feeling very optimistic about my interview yesterday. I realized that next month I will be sober for the longest time since I was 14. I have done a lot of work on myself and Iām absolutely ready for new doors to open. Still having issues with my stepdaughter and basically told my man yesterday that itās time for him to step up and have my back. Some days it feels like Iām swimming upstream and some strokes take me nowhere or even backwards. Through these difficulties Iām sitting with my inner child and feel like Iām fighting double the amount of shit. I know the only way out is through but Iām getting exhausted and just wish I could see the end.
Keep trucking my friends keep going we all deserve sobriety and the benefeits that come with it congratulations to everyone hitting milestones being your first 24 or 5 years
Day 159
Dont know where I would be without this community.
Ive been trying to work on self love. I really struggle with that.
Maui is revealing a lot to me. Its been hard watching my daughters dad constantly verbally and emotionally abuse his mother. He goes off at the drop of a hat. He has no self awareness. He is so hard to be around. I was hoping this new medication would help but he is worse than ever. I need to start thinking about my daughter. This isnt good for her.
Yesterday I started reading āWarrior Goddessā I was telling him about it and his response was āYou should read about how a womans place is in the kitchen.ā This was after meditating and today I wouldnt react to him. I try you guys. I thought I needed to heal the parts of me that feel such awful things towards him. I carry around a lot of hate and I want it to heal.
I realized on this trip though that I need to heal the parts of me that think its okay to be with someone who makes me feel this way. I need to love myself already. Ive been this way my whole life. Dating horrible people who treat me bad.
Anyway!! Here is last nights sunset.
@M-be-free49 I feel you the reacting part! But in your defense, those phone robots are the absolute worst!! Only second to my daughters dad.
@AyBee Congrats!!
@Salty Well done on 90 days!!
45.5 days of no nicotine! Hallelujah!
I cannot believe this, yet I can!
Yes, Sarah! All day, yes to this! I had a lifetime of giving myself to undeserving people. It was actually having kids that helped me put a stop to that. I wasnāt going to let my female children see a man treat me that way, especially their father. Thatās the way I grew up and I responded by perpetuating the behavior of my mother and allowing men to treat me the same way my father treated her.
Of course, now I have avoided all relationships for the last 16 years - all healing in due time.
Oh beauty pic!
I have no real insights, just admiration for you and the journey you are on in your head and your heart. I wish it were this easy: that you could surround yourself with people who hold up a mirror to your own inner beauty.
I guess that even though we work on healing ourselves, it doesnāt mean the relationships donāt need to change in various ways tooā¦
I would be fine with being single the rest of my life!! Sounds like a dream! Ive never had standards when it comes to men. I was the same. My dad treated my mother poorly and she stayed with him. Im proud of you for breaking the cycle. Its not easy. The thought of being a single mother is so intimidating. But the thought of a lifetime with her dad is even worse. You are an amazing mother!!!
Here for you, my friend. Anytime you want to vent or talk through something, I am available.
Hey, did I miss something? Are we awkward dancing in honor of Paulās 100? Count me in!
Congrats Paul! and @Salty on 90! Amazing.
Edit: and @DuncanNZ! Almost a bajillion days
Today is DAY 15!!! Yeah for me!!! I have to say its been an interesting 15 days to say the least. Many different feelings, cravings, sleep patterns, highs, lows and throw in the Holidays into all of it and you have a sense of pride that you have persevered though itā¦ I make no promises except that " I will not drink today"
Thank you to everyone for the support!