I’m so happy you had a nice vacation @Clarity. I haven’t seen an old school Volkswagen van in years. Sounds like fun though. Your little mini me is adorable just like her mamma. Safe travels.
Hi Ryan,
Usually a relapse doesn’t come out of the blue. For. Me it was crucial to dig out the feelings that I felt long before I went to the supermarket and bought another bottle of wine. Only then I was slowly able to answer these feelings with other things than booze.
You can do this!
I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 126
Nothing to report, tweenie left the house around 11:00 (That’s 11 in the morning for those of you who doesn’t write the time like that) and hasn’t been seen or heard from since. She said she was going to a friend. We haven’t heard from the friend either. It’s been a calm day for us, and very nice. But I’m really worried that something has happened to her, or that she got herself in some sort of trouble. I really hope she’ll be back soon.
When she left we discovered that she had stolen some clothes from our 18 y/o (again) and we found a lot of candy hidden in her room that I think she had shoplifted because she’s been without money the entire Christmas break. She wanted us to hold on to her allowance until school started again. But every time we’ve been in the store she has wandered away on her own.
School starts for me Thursday with a seminar, I’m supposed to have a group zoom with my group preparing Tuesday or Wednesday. My husband starts to work tomorrow and I’ve been stressing about that all day.
Also I found amazing cottagecore fashion (Praire dresses) on Targets American page just to realize that there’s no Swedish or international clothing brand with something similar. And I absolutely need one. First time ever I wish I learned how to sew my own clothes. Maybe that’s a skill to start practice on.
Hope everyone is having a nice Sunday
@LynnM Making it through the holidays is a HUGE deal. Welcome and congratulations on your double digits.
@Beachy Congratulations on 40 days
@I.cant.We.can Condolences my friend. Thoughts and prayers are with you
@Fury Please know you are not responsible for others’ actions. I pray for this weight to be lifted off your shoulders as it is being unnecessarily placed there. Hugs
@Mno What you described is familiar and yet such a deterrent.
@anon74766472 and @Tomek Any type of better is better. Thinking of you both
@Clarity So glad to hear you enjoyed the vacation and so proud you overcame the obstacles.
@Tommo Thanks so much for posting this.
@anon27760155 Congratulations on your triple digits Danni. You continue to amaze and inspire.
201 days. Had an amazing sleep last night and woke this morning feeling very rested and peaceful. My stepdaughter was at it again last night but was shut down by her Dad. I’ll post more on this on my personal thread but I’m happy to say the shit from yesterday isn’t affecting my mood today. Not much on the agenda for today and actually hoping it cruises right by so I can find out if I got the job. Will do my best to not feel defeated if I don’t get it but am really feeling good about it and all the prospects. Big thanks to all who congratulated me yesterday. The shares, support and love is truly appreciated.
Today I am 2 days sober. It was really hard last night. I broke down to my husband and cried because I didn’t feel “normal”. He gave me a hug and said we can take it one day at a time. This morning he told me he hadn’t seen me sober and smiling in the morning in a long time. Felt good.
Aw… that’s wonderful. So happy to hear this.
Nice to see you here.
Thanks!! Feeling great!
Love that Monica. Huge congrats on two days. You’re doing this. Hugs.
Sending strength!! Today is day three of my first ever attempt at going sober. I can’t seem to stop the constant thoughts and anxiety of no boozing. Hang in there. I’m with ya!
Yes let’s be accountable Ryan! I’ll second @CapriciousCapricorn and say to you come and talk with us more. I’ve been talking here for 575 days here which happens to be my sober day count too. Again no coincidence. Love and peace and sobriety friend.
Is this your first machine?? If so , let the games begin! They are very enjoyable!!
Day 42. I’m 3 days away from surpassing my longest sober streak. I can do this!
My wife and I have become super close again as I’ve stopped drinking. It’s been about 10 years I would say since we’ve been so in tune. I didn’t realize my beer breath, slurred speech, and passing out had such an affect on us! I’m jk of course this is obvious to me now.
I’ve also been running regularly and started longboarding and cycling again.
Enough about me. Thank you everyone for posting your stories and continually reminding us we are not crazy, and not alone. You are sincerely appreciated.
Happy sober Sunday.
Im nearly 89 days in. Ive just had some amazing news tonight plus more on top of that a few days ago. I should be feeling on top of the world especially after 2020, to be honest the only thing on my mind is booze and cigs! Desperately trying not to walk out the door to the shop! Its awful!
Quick update, tweenie came home eventually. With her pockets filled with Candy, and the local store manager called us to inform that she was caught on tape shoplifting.
I’m glad she’s home safe, but I’ve got even more anxiety about having to handle her by myself tomorrow when my husband is at work. He currently speaks to her mother on the phone because she’s still the only one who has custody.
And she dropped a like on your reply 9 hours ago.
Day 3 is great work. Early days are so hard! Keep reaching out here.
I wish I had found this place and tried what you are now before I turned 40. I waited until a month before I turned 50. Sigh! But I guess it clicks when it clicks, right?
It’s never too late. You say you hate what you’ve become, but find some room to love yourself. Love yourself for trying today, and for who you are becoming right now. Read around - there are lots of wise ones on this place whose words got me through those first days.
Sending love and strength.
Day 15. Still sober. Still having mood swings. I feel very lucky to have my psychiatrist for meds and my wife for support. The craving is still there but not as strong as the first few days. I am keepy myself busy with audiobooks and movies. In the evenings I go for long walks. According to my watch I have walked 12,825 steps today. Third day in a row that I have managed to meet my target of 8000 steps. I will need to increase the target. From tomorrow I plan to start exercising. At home. Not ready for a gym yet.