Hey Jenna. I guess I missed your 200.
Congratulations 
You are doing great!
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213 days. The weekend is quickly approaching and not too sure what the plans are but I know I need to get my ass out of this house. Had a video chat with a great friend last night and holy shit do I miss face to face interaction. Seriously contemplating going on a road trip to visit. Finding part time work has been just as difficult, if not more difficult than my career search. My resume doesn’t quite attract a position as a cashier etc. and although I’m proud of my experience the being overqualified is frustrating. I found some AA meetings scheduled in a nearby town three days a week. I’m starting to think I need to get my butt in one of the chairs at the meetings but I’m truly nervous. I know I need the socialization and interaction but am really having difficulty making the step to get my butt there. Friday, Sunday and Monday are the meetings and I’m going to strive to make at least one by next weekend. The wee one’s birthday is Sunday so today we need to go get some things. My man’s friend has just offered to watch the girls so it looks like I might get some alone time with my man.
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Day 35. I’m struggling. Very, very emotional. Not sleeping properly. Missing someone like crazy. Barely eating. I want a drink so bad. I just feel so lonely.
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I’m sorry, you’re having a tough time. First of all, be sure, that you’re ok physically: drink enough water to hydrate, eat some full value food, even just a few bites.
Do you have a friend, family member to call and talk to? Maybe an old acquaintance you haven’t talked to lately? Here there will be a zoom meeting tomorrow evening, feel free to join.
Do you have some favourite movie that always cheers you up or calm you down? Try to distract your thoughts - I know it’s hard, but it will get better.
And congrats on your 35 days - you’re doing great!
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only 3 months until April!
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35 days!! Great job. You have worked HARD to get there! Tomorrow is another day and tomorrow morning different feelings. Do something healthy and comforting for you today, write all the shit down! That helps me get it out of my head. Its just a day, a short day that does not deserve to take away all your hard work♥️ Thinking of you!
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@Tomek congrats on 70 days 
@Piglet feel better soon 
@TSan sorry about your accident, hope your knee recovers quickly
@RyanSA congrats on 2 weeks
@Rockstar24777 I hope your check up went well
158 days no alcohol
126 days no cocaine.
2 days no binge-eating.
I’m really struggling to resist buying crisps, I crave them intensely ! I’ve also been craving pizza today. I can’t allow myself to give in, I’ve still got a really long way to go with my weight loss, not even half-way yet. It didn’t help at all when I emailed the solicitor to ask how things were progressing with the sale, and she replied saying she hasn’t heard a single word from the buyers solicitor, so that’s not looking good. More rejections from rentals regarding pets, but I’m going to stop driving myself crazy by looking now, if I can resist, until I hear something from the solicitor to re exchanging contracts, because it’s really stressing me out thinking I won’t find somewhere, but at the same time I can’t commit to anywhere until my sale completes anyway. Gah.
My application for council housing is now waiting to be assessed by an Occupational Therapist, I don’t know how long that will take but it’s another thing I can’t control, that annoying thing is, I managed to obtain a copy of my GP summary and it is missing 5 of my diagnosed conditions, so that’s not very helpful in regards to my needs being assessed, but I can’t do anything about that either.
Managed another short slow walk today, and I’ve started the hot and cold therapy, which feels nice. I also am now wearing the orthotic insoles in my house crocs as well as in my trainers, which is what the Podiatrist recommended.
I am going to practice letting go this weekend, of all of these things that are out of my control, because I’m causing myself unecessary stress.
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Noooo. It is these 2 days or so days in a year where a fat bike would be cool 
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55 days. Honestly, I’m really sad and have been for a few days. Nothing to do with alcohol, but with other things in life. I find it profoundly difficult to face my emotions. I don’t like them at all. I don’t want to deal with them. I definitely have no interest in feeling them. The only way to the other side is through them without alcohol. So, here I am doing it. Alcohol sucks, but all these emotions suck too, and they’re just gonna suck together.
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Sorry its been so rough the past few days. I have found taking a walk while listening to music at least gives a temorary reprieve for me. Is there anything you can do to step away and just breath? Also damn impressed that regardless, you are still commiting to no alcohol.
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Day 3…had nightmares all night last night, woke up refreshed though but it makes me want to drink. Going to stay strong though! Read on here that its a “choice” so today I’m chosing not to drink and excessively clean my house !
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Hey Maggie … yes. This is good advice for sure. I’ve been getting to the gym every day, which definitely helps. Unfortunately, there are some days that are just so overwhelming (as you know, I’m sure). So, I’m pressing through. Hopefully getting to the gym in the next hour or two as well. Thank you so much for your encouragement. It really means so much to me and helps get me through. Also, welcome to the group. It’s good to see a new smiling face 
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Awesome,and thank you:-)
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892 days alcohol free. Happy friday
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I am so sorry you are going through this, of all days too, I can understand the feeling of realizing that all you have is gone. While your marriage I am sure was significantly longer than my relationship was. Its still sad, from what you said it sounds alot like he is still hurting, and seeing you will cause him to melt and reverse direction jess has not spoken with me since I left treatment and was using 3rd party communication on all aspects it took me a while to accept it was done, I thought i had one last hail Mary in me to fix it, nope it was a fail mary.
I never believed that last part until I heard it myself, my ex told my friend she cant see me or she will just give in, of course I pushed for that to happen and it didn’t. I made it worse, alot of the things I put her through emotionally I’m sure has given her true anxiety and fears beyond the norm. I dont share about it here,
On the bright side, your gonna have answers, you will get to see your children an opportunity to show then you are putting true effort in and that your a warrior that will win this battle
Take care friend.
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Day 650. Coming up on the Day of the Beast. Best to all you fantastic people! 
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good morning my fellow soberians 
I just made that up. Is that a word Soberians!? If not then I here by Knight us all Soberians of TS 
lol… I was just thinking back to how mad I was at myself 46 days ago when I relapsed for the couple of days. It seems like so long ago. I know 46 days is not much in comparison to the 6 plus months I got to prior to that. But I feel my numbers climbling really fast this time. Time is going so fast!! It makes me so much more determined to accomplish the things I want to achieve this year sooner because I really want this year to count. I have already accomplished a few things in two weeks off my list which makes me feel so amazing, but time is just flying by. I thought time just flew by when I was using , but apparently its a sober person thing to I’ve discovered oh and I spent too much time flocking in the sun this week and my bottom lip has gotten burnt , like blistered burnt 
I look like I’ve gotten fillers in my lip it hurts
I just made that up. Is that a word Soberians!? If not then I here by Knight us all Soberians of TS lol… I was just thinking back to how mad I was at myself 46 days ago when I relapsed for the couple of days. It seems like so long ago. I know 46 days is not much in comparison to the 6 plus months I got to prior to that. But I feel my numbers climbling really fast this time. Time is going so fast!! It makes me so much more determined to accomplish the things I want to achieve this year sooner because I really want this year to count. I have already accomplished a few things in two weeks off my list which makes me feel so amazing, but time is just flying by. I thought time just flew by when I was using , but apparently its a sober person thing to I’ve discovered oh and I spent too much time flocking in the sun this week and my bottom lip has gotten burnt , like blistered burnt I look like I’ve gotten fillers in my lip it hurts
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How you doing at the minute?