Maybe tonight…
Goodnight all
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You definitely have a place here. Proud of you girl! 
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day 54… Its 38 degrees today 
I am running off 5 hours sleep today coz I stayed up netflixing. I still woke up at 6am with the sun naturally no alarm. That makes me happy knowing I’ve worked hard to reset my body clock and its waking up naturally at sunrise. Im adoring my mornings latley from the moment I wake up for about an hour or so I make coffee and sit in lotus in bed facing out my window with my journal, listening to my baby myna and his family sing there morning songs 
it melts my heart. I’m feeling very drawn to nature latley. Much more than normal. I have this continual burning urge to walk bare footed on the grass and to touch tree trunks. Also I’ve been in the ocean and on the sand more these summer mornings than I have in years. If I miss a morning out on the sand walking I crave for it… Very deeply connected to the earth at this moment and its heart warming I feel good other wise. No urges to use or drink so that’s a win in my eyes… Keep fighting the good fight friends 
I am running off 5 hours sleep today coz I stayed up netflixing. I still woke up at 6am with the sun naturally no alarm. That makes me happy knowing I’ve worked hard to reset my body clock and its waking up naturally at sunrise. Im adoring my mornings latley from the moment I wake up for about an hour or so I make coffee and sit in lotus in bed facing out my window with my journal, listening to my baby myna and his family sing there morning songs it melts my heart. I’m feeling very drawn to nature latley. Much more than normal. I have this continual burning urge to walk bare footed on the grass and to touch tree trunks. Also I’ve been in the ocean and on the sand more these summer mornings than I have in years. If I miss a morning out on the sand walking I crave for it… Very deeply connected to the earth at this moment and its heart warming I feel good other wise. No urges to use or drink so that’s a win in my eyes… Keep fighting the good fight friends
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Day 57! Home after a long drive, enjoying a hot bath. Usually coming home from a trip id be at least slightly hungover and tired from partying the last night. But today I felt fresh and energized 
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- And I slept. Feeling much better
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I’m sorry about your friend. My aunt had a stroke two weeks ago- was very confused and weak. Once in the ER no one could be or stay with her (bc of Covid), they were overflowing with patients needing to be seen or admitted and had no available rooms or were short nurses- in every department of the hospital. Once evaluated they needed to admit her- but all they could do was put her on a stretcher in a hallway for two days. All of us felt so worried and helpless. F U Covid. Scary times to be sick.
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That’s very sad my heart goes out to you and your children.
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Day 372
It was a good day. Did my usual saturday. Home for most of the morning. At Wayside for the afternoon and evening. Said my prayers did my readings, gratitude talked with friends and family. Cooked dinner and attended AA at wayside. My friend and housemate Andy is trying to do the right thing and I’m being supportive. I was tired but can’t say it was a bad day. God puts the people in our lives or at least in mine like you wonderful TS people to help me through. God bless you all. 
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p.s. Did you know you’re doing a great job. ya you!!
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Checking in on day 210. All has been well, I haven’t been on much though…I want to get on more, I miss some of y’all! Getting moved into the new place, dealing with work, and figuring out what to do for the kids school between virtual and classroom changes has been wearing me out lol. Really overall things are good here and the new house is coming together! It was actually an easier adjustment than I thought it would be.
I hope everyone is doing well, feel free to reach out for a chat any time!
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63 down. Spent my Saturday reading and researching/applying for graduate school. This is something I’ve wanted to do for a long time but have never been able to take steps forward because I spent all of my free time drunk or blacked out. Holy shit … the amount of time I’ve wasted. I will better myself. My best days are ahead of me. I believe this with all my heart.
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Getting myself together to head out the door for the nightshift. I’ll be bored AF by 2AM EST, so if a zoom is wanted we can make it happen.
Still cycling my depression, I can tell cause I’m overcompensating with humor and false inflated happiness, needless to say its either at the end of the cycle or, just waiting for another drop,
But at least I got a job right?
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Sorry about your aunt Ash, I hope she’s getting better. Wishing her well and stay safe. Eef u Covid19! 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 208.
I’m following the enhanced restrictions here to a T. No indoor social gatherings (incl. work) for some time now. Outdoor are ok in theory, but it’s winter (-36C/-32F today, -40C tonight. brrr.) I’m naturally introverted, sure, but it’s been over 5 weeks since I’ve had a hug – the last one from my dearest friend, and 6 weeks since I hugged Mom. It’s wearing on me, this absence of hugs.
Still, this round of restrictions is easier than the first, last spring. That was a dark time.
So worried about Mom, so preoccupied with running out of wine, so… untethered. Glad for that time, actually. It made me get sober. There’s no wine that can fill this. It just wants to be felt.
So I felt it, feel it.
And today I also did zoom yoga, had a bundled-up walk under a cold blue sky, and there was tunes and cooking/dancing and phone chats with pals – all of which go much better when I’m sober. It’s not all bad, not at all. It will be good to hug my “dear ones” (Mom’s term) when that time comes. Until then, we have today. And we did it, sober.
We can do another one tomorrow. I know it.
G’night, all. 
@SoberWalker and @erntedank Smooching with a lawnmower? I understand. I cut my own (long) hair last time. Looked like I made out with a chainsaw.
@liv_m you always belong in these halls. I just wish my locker was closer to yours. 
But I always get it, and applaud you, when you just need to go put your own oxygen mask on first.
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That is way to cold dear M. 
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Day 166 done! Good night/day everyone!
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11 down.
A good day. Sledding, hiking, being a dad. Made spaghetti and meatballs for the fam to cap it off. Thankful for the gift it was.
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Sounds like a great Saturday. Good for you. And the fam.
Congrats on day 11.
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Thanks Eric!
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Oh my lord what !?! -40 degrees Celsius?? That can’t be right?!
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