That’s terrible all my family got it but me my wife and jr. My daughter and ex wife said it was rough extremely tired. Get well stay safe
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Feeling blah, too nervous 2 sleep.
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- Coffee. The start of my work week. Didn’t sleep well, yesterday’s therapy playing in my head. I really nearly almost cried there (yes @Girlinterrupted). Made a tiny bit of progress though. Thank god I’m sober and clean or none of this would happen. Going forward one small step at a time. Have as good a Friday as you all can. Love from Amsterdam and from the train going through Naardermeer yesterday, one of our most brilliant nature reserves.
@tsan Happy to see you and glad you are alright (for the most part).
@Piglet Figures. Get well soon Graham.
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You always reach out on here to offer hugs, yet have posted that IRL you’re not a hugger! So - I’m sending you virtual kleenex for unshed tears, and a virtual hug that feels better than a real one, dear pal. And huge gratitude for your posts and pics and your presence. 
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@TSan yes, what the others said - phew! I am glad you’re ok, and I hope your knee heals quickly. 2021 already…! Hugs.
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Thank you 
Congrats on the 7 months. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Firstly, congrats on the 70 days sober and secondly, I hope you didn’t manage to get the cigarettes you were craving for. Being an ex smoker I’d discourage you from smoking especially if alcohol was your DOC. I found it that Cigarettes caused me to crave for alcohol, the two are like peanut butter and jelly.
Sorry for the intrusion but wouldn’t it be great to quit smoking because there’s no health benefit I can think of from smoking and like I said, if alcohol is your DOC it might bring about craving for that too.
Blessings and sobriety!
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 138
And I can’t believe my own reality.
Today we talked to the kids psychiatric hospital they’re getting back at us Monday. But because they aren’t the ones who made the psychiatric evaluation from the beginning (Tweenies Ma hired a private company to do it) and there’s so much that doesn’t really work, medicine, everyday life. And so many symptoms that’s accurate to a BPD they didn’t mind re-doing the evaluation so we’ll have a chance to get it right from start. But they warned us that it can take time.
We also talked to the social service, they don’t know If I’ll be allowed at the meeting Tuesday (I’m neither parent or having custody of her, so I don’t count as a key person) because if the Covid-19 restrictions.
She also said that the possibility of her having the wrong medication, and other problems isn’t relevant in their investigation now, because they are looking at how everything works now. And it doesn’t, but it can be very relevant in the end. Because the possibilities are different.
She’ll be back this afternoon with more information about me attending the meeting Tuesday.
My goal now is trying to force them to arrange what we call a SIP meeting. Where everyone involved, school, social service, health care, and Child psychiatric hospital works together with making a plan to care for the patient and everyone offers what they have,to make it work.
I’m also going to make them send us to behavioral therapy. Where we’ll get some extra tools to work with this, because I don’t know much more than the quick tips I’ve got by phone from the hospital yesterday.
We’ve used those tips since we got them, and they seem to work wonders.
No morning chaos today, no conflicts nothing. Just a nice and calm morning like a “normal” family. 10 y/o even slept in his own bed last night.
I want to cry, but not out of frustration this time.
The cards didn’t predict a good day, but maybe they mixed the days up 
Wishing y’all an amazing weekend 
Happy hugs to everyone from Sweden
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Feeling a bit sluggish and dragging my tail this morning but wish the best for all in each of your journeys.
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Day 347. Happy Friday, good day with my girls yesterday. Have not got any pics from my uncle yet… hopefully soon lol. Have a great day
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Thank you for the encouragement. I haven’t bought it. Yes, alcohol is my main addiction. I’m not actually afraid that smoking would trigger drinking, cause I don’t smoke inside and never drunk outside. It’s more like as if I would like to do something unhealthy to myself and to blunt my rules of living, but without relapsing on booze. It’s like a loophole. But maybe it’s just what my addict brain tells me to make me do it.
I haven’t slept well in the last 1-2 weeks, I wake up a lot, I have disturbing dreams, so I’m constantly tired and sleepy all day. I haven’t worked out for weeks and got kind of lazy, I guess I just let my guard down.
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Checking in Day 11 is completed and ready for my Friday! I FINALLY SLEPT. It was amazing. I found my savior…ear plugs. I forgot how light of a sleeper I was. Being passed out kept me from hearing all the nightly noises. Also fucking scary as a parent and I am intensely grateful that nothing ever happened to my kids while I was a passed out idiot.
I also am happy to share that my dreams are no longer fragmented crazy scenes but back to its full feature length film which I made my husband hear this am before he left. I have this weird supersition that I need to share my dreams or it may come true. Soooo, thankfully now that I shared it I shall now not become the youngest leader of the MN chapter of the Itialian mob family…whew.
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How you feeling
Damn heads… We can get really get caught up and lose a lot of our day. I know I do. Hope the rest of your day eases up and is good!!
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Thinking of you!
I raided the rest of my sons Halloween candy last night. The stuff that no one wants but can’t seem to throw out and never goes bad. Rock hard gummy bears did the trick! 
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Congrats again double digits! Glad you’re not in the mob or being chased by them 
I love replaying my dreams, it’s hilarious yet sometimes dark to see what our subconscious can come up with!
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Congratulations on 2 weeks and happy Friday!