@littlemisschatterbox
@Sunny11
@Harold and all the best on the new job.
@Lotusflower
@Mbwoman
@Charlie_C
You guys make all the difference.
Blessings and sobriety y’all!
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Hi Rob,
thank you for checking in today. I bet there are many of us who care and are worried of you. I’m beyond relieved you’ve decided to keep living. You are a brave soul. Your life matters. I’m so sorry about your son and all other loved ones you have lost.
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huge congratulations joy.
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It’s good to see you Rob. We love you.
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Your strength is really inspiring. 
Wonderful to read.
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Thanks Andy and I love the gif, takes me back to my teens. Yeah, where all the drinking and smoking started and we thought it was cool. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Thank you brother. Many thanks to you for faithfully helping me along. Grateful for you.
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Checking in March 1 2021
What ! First of the month say no more new month new year so grateful today is my first 1 day sober and I’m feeling amazing great awesome sauce went out to take a drug test today for an employer waiting for a route tonight on standby did my prayers read my Bible I’m back in focus awesome energy dripping awesome sauce everywhere let’s gooo let’s get it brand new us brand new future divorce yea it’s a peaceful divorce I have nothing but love for that girl regardless of what she did to me others would call me dumb I say I have no place in my heart to hold negativity or anything LETS GOOOOO:heart:
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Checking in after a hiatus. I have really struggled with my mental health lately and despite what I thought were my best efforts to be proactive, I have definitely been in a depressed state. But today is a new day, I will pick myself up and use my tools and take those baby steps forward to be better. I am understanding that grief is real and not linear, and as the seasons change there will be new triggers for sadness and grief. I am getting help from a doctor and a therapist finally and so I have more support than ever. I sometimes feel overwhelmed when I visit the forum, but I understand that it is a tool that helps me and so I will renew my commitment to checking in and release guilty feelings for not keeping up with this busy community, as much as I do care for my friends and other sober warriors here. I am starting meetings, as well, so I have peer support in sobriety in multiple places now. I am going to follow suit with what I’ve seen some others trying, and that is less focus on the day count because I do feel some anxiety related to the number and milestones, and so forth. So, for today, I am sober and going to get out of bed! Much love to you all 
Edit to thank those who have reached out to me, I appreciate you so much. @Dazercat @M-be-free49 @Salty @CapriciousCapricorn @Sunflower1 @TSan And others I might have missed.
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@anon27700620 congrats on 200 days 
I would love to see such a video 
@Joy congrats on 600 ODAATs
@cwak congrats on triple digits 
@Harold hope you have a great first day 
@Rockstar24777 so proud of you and glad you’re still with us, sending prayers 
@Lotusflower congrats on 2 weeks
203 days no alcohol.
171 days no cocaine.
What is it with these relapse dreams lately!? a third one last night, this time I was smoking and drinking and didn’t even care about it. I’ve been craving cigarettes all day since I woke up. It’s been 4 weeks today since I quit nicotine completely, and 2.5 months since my 8 days of smoking cigarettes (I vaped the rest of the time). I do not want to start again. Though it really makes me wish I could just have a pack in a drawer so I could have one occasionally when I feel like this. I’ve fallen for that bs thinking too many times in the past so I know that’s not an option. Luckily and thankfully; when I dream about relapsing on cocaine and alcohol, I’m not tempted at all, but cigarettes gahhhh! 
I quit smoking for 5 years once and still went back. I know that 1 puff = instant 20+ a day habit that’s hard to break, well it does for me anyway, so I won’t be having any puffs today!
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Thanks, I know how you feel about the smoking. I’m fortunate I’ve only had 1 drinking dream in the 600 days sober and that was 2 weeks ago. I woke up and didn’t think once about drinking but I occasionally think about having just one puff. I’d be sitting with drinkers and I’d think if only I could have just one cigarette. But I can’t, I’m an addict I can’t do moderate on anything.
Blessings and sobriety!
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I’m glad you’re here, Rob. He’s in peace now. Love to you, brother.
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Goodnight all… and yes, I’m working on the Russia cruise music video !
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Day 1 of trying to overcome my addiction
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Rob-you have been heavy on my mind and heart. I am happy to see your post because that means you’re still here. Praying for strength as you go through this difficult difficult time. Lots of love and prayers to you.
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