Checking in on day 853.
That is all I can share atm. 
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Iām here (again) Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 188
I tried, it was a short goodbye, and I have to admit, I canāt leave you guys. I missed you to much. And Iām glad to be back.
Thanks for all the lucky wishes, and you are missed posts. Iām going to try to check in everyday and hopefully Iāve got something that can help someone.
Still sober, life is still a mess but hopefully itās getting better.
Tweenie had her own social service meeting yesterday, and they came out telling us that theyāve started to look for another place she can live. Tweenie herself have wished for a foster care home with a couple in their 40ās without any other kids, that can and wants to give her 100% attention 24/7 and as she said herself, they have to adore her and make sure sheās having her phone and computer accessible all the time. Iāve got a bad feeling about it, but hopefully itāll all end well.
At least my kids will be safe, I know, I know itās not a nice trait from my side. But I canāt help feeling that way. The number of death threats from her side has increased to almost daily. Yesterday morning she talked about a killing she saw on Discovery ID (That sheās not allowed to watch, but sees on the school computer during recess) it was a bunch of teens killing an elderly couple about an X-box fight or something similar.
Tweenie got downstairs, started to explain the killing in detail, and ended her story with. It was just an X-box, I get that you want to kill someone if you canāt get your will through, but that was just a game. Not worth the effort.
Itās scary, and I hope someone can give her everything she needs, and all the psychological help thatās required. We canāt, and I prefer to feel safe in my own home. Selfish, yes. And I canāt really defend it, but Iāve gone through to much to be living under or letting my kids living under conditions like that with threats about being killed, abuse, angry outbursts and all that. Even if it āonlyā comes from a teen this time.
I hope each one of you is going to have an amazing weekend, and I canāt wait to be back and share all my pink outfits and Lilly Pulitzer outfits with you guys again. Currently style obsession Fran Fine from The Nanny. And according to all the big fashion magazines thatās the fashion trend for this Spring/summer. Bright colors 90s on display, crop tops, miniskirts. You name it. I wasnāt allowed to wear it (or watch The Nanny) on prime time during the 90s, but you bet Iāll be doing it now.
Love you guys 
and Thanks for being here, being awesome. Now update me, what did I miss during my long get away from here? Howās all of you doing?
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Hey Sophia,
itās good to have you back Youāve been missed! Iām sorry things are not easy with tweenie. I donāt think you really have a choice but to let her go. Like you said, you have to think about your children too 
Iām glad youāre sober in the middle of all of this. It speaks volumes about your character 
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God bless you all.
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P.s. I wasnāt going to check in tonight until I saw that number. Donāt waste a good opportunity. Ya you!!
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Thank you Honestly Iām not sure that wouldāve been another way to do it. Have I been wanting to drink? Heck yeah, like everyday. Or just do whatever other substance that cold make me forget reality for a while. But Iām also very aware about the fact that if I did, I probably would never be back sober again.
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- Coffee. Meeting my bestie for
before another late shift. Got to hurry a little bit because I couldnāt get out of bed this morning. But how much worse it would be would I have drank last night. Happy and grateful Iām clean and sober today. Have a good weekend all, or at least as good as yoāll can. Love from Amsterdam.
@SoberWalker beautiful numbers Claudia! The countdown to 1000 is on!
@MrsOdh it makes my day to see you back Sophia. Keep rocking my favourite Swede. And please donāt beat yourself up. You did more than anybody can, could or should for tweenie. We all need a safe home. She needs more than you can provide which is no shame at all. You gave it your very best. And stayed sober too! Big hugs.
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Thank you dear I hope youāll get a lovely coffee with your friend, and a nice late shift. Sometimes we need to sleep in, and If you donāt need to be somewhere early in the morning, itās absolutely okey to do so. 
Happy weekend.
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Day 207
Sunny warm day today. Took a walk with the fam up a āmountainā (a hill) and went around some shops. Got the kids to write some letters to some students who have an English club at their school. Good writing practice for them, as that is way behind their other English skills. Played a card game with the kids and watched some TV with them too (Sponge Bob). The cat is shedding his winter coat I guess because there is his hair everywhere. Very regular, but very precious day.
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Day 465. Still sober. Now I often feel disgusted when I think about drinking. I think thatās progress. I still romanticize it occasionally but I catch myself doing it.
Today going running with 11 year old. She is nervous to join a running group but hopefully it will be positive for her.
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Thatās right! On my way to 4 in a row 
Thank you Menno!
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Thank you Eric and you too! š
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Dank je!! 
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Hey all, checking in on day 265. Only 100 days until my 1 year mark, I canāt believe it!! I havenāt been posting a ton recently, which I feel bad about but I just havenāt had much going on.
Iām doing very well in my sobriety and Iām still reading a ton here but I guess I feel like I donāt have as much to say at the momentā¦Probably because I just havenāt had too much going on thatās changing but I think sometimes thatās a good thing.
I hope everyone has an great start to the weekend
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Checking in quick before work. Day 6. I canāt believe Iām almost back to a week again. Feeling tired but good. Happy Saturday everyone. 
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Love itā¦glad you checked in. Congrats on your amazing work.
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Good job on Day 6 Natashaā¦hope you have an awesome day.
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Happy Sober Saturday. Checking in Day 20ā¦Feeling goodā¦mind is getting clearer My intention for the next little bit is too slow down. I spoke to my peer support worker yesterday and he reminded me that there.is no .rushā¦in recoveryā¦ieā¦doing the steps etcā¦as my typical organized being I had a recovery to do.check listā¦get sponser! Do steps! And so on and do on(the exclamation marks represent checks which explains my ridigity) So the blessing is in self awareness. Iām ok with thatā¦but being aware to be presentā¦one day at a timeā¦things will fall into place if I let God do his thing in me. Amen. Have a blessed day TS Family.
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Good morning everyone taking my daughter in law to work this morning since my son his in Mexico. Than oil change than working on putting in a sidewalk.
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Good morning! I will not drink today. Weekends are easier as I am with SO, who doesnāt drink. I still struggle on the drive home after work M-F. It will get easier over time, I know!
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Thanks for thinking of me!! Yeah, Iāll probably be posting just every couple days, but I still want to keep up with everyone here. Engaging with my phone less has definitely been good for my brain but I love the connections on this forum!
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