Another Friday night where my fella drinks his few heavy beers and passes out early. Tired, yeah, I’m tired, too, but a bit drunk? Mostly that’s the culprit. His first alcohol since the first of March, it was nice while it lasted! I think I’ll bring up how I’m feeling tonight sometime tomorrow. Gently. I was drunk and passed out so much in the past, he said he missed me and was lonely. I can relate. Not sure now, maybe I’ll just keep on taking care of my own self and just drop a few hints about how lovely it is to be sober together…I’d appreciate any thoughts y’all might have.
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That’s great news @Rockstar24777. I’m happy to see you’re doing well under the circumstances. Take it slow and don’t overdo it.
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Glad you’re doing better and being discharged. You are a remarkable man and father. Stay strong and sober, it will be well Rob.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Glad you are doing well Rob. You’ve been in my prayers. 
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Thank you @RosaCanDo there’s no comparable feeling like being sober and powerful.
There been too many nightshifts where I couldn’t even remember what I’ve done at work or how I got back home! I will never ever wanna feel that embarrassing feeling the day after, checking my car if hit anything. Today?! I just got home, clear minded, with good funky music in the car, no fear to waking up later and wondering what I’ve done because today I can remember everything!
I hope you’re doing fine as well! Sorry for your situation. Unfortunately I don’t have any advices except of focus on yourself and stay cool. Tell him how you feel. How nice it was being sober together. Why not sign up here and talk about everything. As we all know, the 1st step is the hardest. I hope everything’s ends up good for you.
With me and my wife, I hate myself, because she was never a drinker, because of me she got into drinking but she can control it and I can’t. So now the situation is hard, it’s hard for me to see her drinking, not always but sometimes. After Introducing her to drinking I can’t take it back from her.
I wish you the best and a good sober night.
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- Coffee. Windy and wet outside. Enjoy your weekends all while I work. It’s not too bad. I’m grateful to have a job to go to. Would I’ve been working from home like so many in the last year I’d be really lonely by now. I’m glad for the social interaction my work brings. Anyway, time to get the rain clothes out. Love from Amsterdam. Sober and clean.
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Day 256.
Day long. But good. A mixed bag. I’m grateful to be able to feel it all.
I’m grateful to be able to go to sleep soon!
And I will catch up on everything I missed here tomorrow… …when we do it again.
I know we can.
G’night, big love to all. 
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Today I am grateful that last night I went to visit some friends (all of who were drinking) and still managed to have a good time sober (until a certain point of course) now i know how irritated people must have got with me when its just ‘one more drink’ before we go home. Needless to say nobody noticed I was not drinking because I went off to pour my ‘drinks’ in a different room 
what is annoying though is everybody asking ‘whats wrong’ all the time 
because im not my usual self embarrassing myself all over the place. Anyway im also grateful that I have a house to live in which I am going to clean today to keep my focus and keep busy xxx
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Oh and checking in day #7
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I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
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Thank y’all for my birthday wishes.
Haven’t been checking in for a few days again. It’s the same chaos as usual here.
Personally I’m in some kind of re-invent myself mode. I’m re-evaluating my style and closet once again. New style Icons as you guys already know is Fran Fine from the Nanny and Hillary Banks from Fresh Prince in Bel Air. Pure power dressing, peak 90s. Don’t worry Hot Pink is a staple
I’ve booked an appointment for guidance about removing the tattoo on my arm. The one I once used to cover som ugly scars from abuse. I rather live with the probably less visible scars than all the black ink on my arm.
Me and my husband has made a five year plan about our house renovation, and where we wanta to be in life, career, economic and general life.
I’ve just quit drinking coffee that I honestly never liked anyway, unless it’s non bitter Iced coffee, or Pumpkin spiced latte. And I gave up on sugar. Starting to learn how to do my makeup and actually fix my hair in other ways than putting it i a ponytail. About time when I’m 36
Plan is to start with my drivers license too as soon as I saved up enough money to make it.
I’ve told a lot of people to stay away from me. Including my oldest friend, remember the guy who started drugs again? Yep, him. And I’m trying to give myself time to be only me and do something for myself everyday. No matter if that’s an online shopping wish list, an episode of a TV show I like, talking with a friend on the phone, or taking a bath making a facial mask.
It might be age, and it might be the new moon. I’m not sure. But it feels good.
Today however is a lazy rainy Saturday. I’m about to bake some candy for the kids. It’s called street fair candy. And it’s sold on every street fair markets you attend in Sweden. It reminds you about fudge but it doesn’t have the same texture. And then I’m making some Indian food for dinner. All on request from my boys.
I hope everyone is having an awesome weekend, love you guys. 
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Thank you so much and I appreciate your positive presence here. Congratulations on finding your new place and starting the new chapter in life 
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Checking in on day 2. I’m not in a good state mentally right now. Today I’m overwhelmed with negative and bad feelings. I have the feeling my life went into a total different direction of what were my dreams once. And I am unhappy with what I have right now except my kids. My kids I would die for. But at the same time I ask how my life would have been if I had gotten them later and were able to pursue my working career. Why am I so unhappy with where I am right now? I have the feeling I’m stuck and with kids moving to somewhere else and finding a new job is almost impossible. I’m so sad and today I am just crying. I will go for my run now. Hoping I will feel better afterwards. On top of this I have a fight with my husband since we always agreed on moving once he is done with his masters. That’s almost 2 years ago!!! And now he feels comfortable where he is and I don’t. I am questioning everything right now also our marriage. I want to move on with my life but I am stuck and it makes me so angry 
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Oh Rob,
my heart goes out to you. Needing to plan all that for your kid… I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you a friendly hug
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Thanks she us I took her for pizza yesterday I’m not supposed to eat that but I did it was so good. She just shakes her head. She is much stronger with stuff like that than me.
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Thanks a million.!!!
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I’m glad you may get out today and that your doing better I’m truly sorry for everything you’ve been going through you have been on my mind and prayers for some time now. I constantly think of you and pray that God will keep you strong. Yiu have become such an inspiration for not just me I’m sure. I love your honesty your a strong and respected man. Stay strong my friend praying for you.
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