219 days no alcohol.
187 days no cocaine.
14 days no binge-eating.
I guess I’ve been a little less stressed today, but not by much. I’m going to stop making any enquiries unless something more reasonable comes up. I’ve asked for a refund on my storage unit but I haven’t received it yet, even though they said they’d sort it as soon as I removed my padlock, which I did within ten mins of the phonecall, so I’ve emailed them to ask when I can expect to receive it. I’m anxious about losing the sale because I owe my brother money that he lent me when I put my flat on the market last year, at the time I was expecting a sale to complete within a couple of months so I could pay him back quickly, but here we are 14 months later and I just feel so bad about it, I was okay thinking we were completing this week or next, but since my solicitors email yesterday it just feels so unknown again.
I haven’t walked for about a week. Need to get back out there again, but when I’m stressed I find it so hard to leave my flat and face the outside world.
I just feel like such a failure and a burden on my family, my dad keeps saying he’s not sleeping because he’s stressed for me, and I don’t like the thought of him laying awake worrying.
Better days are coming I’m sure, and I’m feeling strong in my recovery so atleast there’s that, and that’s the most important thing because without that there’s nothing. I’m so grateful for my cats, they really are my whole world and reason to stay alive
Checking in. My friend feels a bit better, now she doesn’t need extra oxygen for breathing. I hope it’s a good sign and good tendency. I skyped with her kids, they are all right, not frightened and are pretty cheerful playing with their friend and talking to my ones. It was good to see them. I hope I can sleep now, last night I couldn’t and I’m pretty exhausted, also a lot of work has left to the rest of the week, but still hard to focus on it.
That’s a good idea. Those trips alone can be trying. I know i personally went through similar circumstances and this place was a life saver for me. I hope you have a great trip
Checking in, day 4 Just started.
Last day was incredibly hard, so much urges to Drink. Several Times that day plus we have much wine downstairs plus I still have some bottles hidden in the closet. Embarrassing …
Will need to throw them away today or at least try to Tell my husband to do so. Which ist even more difficult, because then I have to admit I hid the alcohol drin hin
The Bad thoughts were so loud and still are.
Attended three Meetings today only listened but was at least able to Share in one.
I think I really need all the Help I can get. I do Not want to die.
Will inform myself If there is a face2face Meeting here somewhere soon. Will also urgently need a Sponsor, maybe that would help.
The early days are rough but it will get drastically better soon, I’m sure you remember. A sponsor is a great idea. Treat yourself well, eat lots, rest lots, drink lots of water. We’re here for you.
Your doing great, a sponsor is also a good idea. I spent years doing this on my own and getting nowhere and it never crossed my mind that if I was honest with myself and I really did want to stay sober why wouldn’t I at least try anything. If we don’t think it’s for us we haven’t lost anything. Personally though it’s one of the wisest decisions I ever made.
