Thank you @CapriciousCapricorn! 
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So maybe you can try to explain this mechanism to your husband, in a kind non judgemental way? Congrats on 39 days sober friend. Itās hard work at times. Feeling the feels. And actually dealing with them instead of fleeing and hiding in drinking. Youāre doing it! Hugsā¦
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Checking in.
Last night I had a crying jag. Sad about my 16 year old growing up, starting college next year, leaving home, and how sheās not home much even now. I miss her. Thought about drinking to cope with the feelings. I didnāt. I took a Tylenol pm and went to bed. Better this morning, and no hangover either. But ugh, I still definitely want a drink when Iām either extra happy or extra sad or just bored. All the feelings.
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I love this!!
I love calling people out on double standards,
The non addict telling you how to stay sober,
The non parent telling you how to raise your kids
The jobless people telling you that itās easy to find a job.
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Congratulations, love that number!!!
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@Annaka itās so good that youāre coming here to talk about your urges instead of drinking because of them, keep checking in and congrats on 4 days so far 
@I.cant.We.can congrats on 14 months
@Rockstar24777 I see it too, gave me goosebumps 
Sending strength for tomorrow 
@Desire2ChangeToday congrats on 600 days inspiring achievements 
@AdvntrLane congrats on 70 days cool photos!
@OfTheNorth sorry youāre struggling, sending strength
220 days no alcohol.
188 days no cocaine.
15 days no binge-eating.
Today has been better 
I said yesterday that Iād stop making enquiries until something more reasonable came up, then before I put my phone down last night I found a ground floor 2 bed flat in a nice area for an affordable price, 99.99% of flats donāt allow pets but I emailed anyway, followed it up with a phone call this morning and the landlord has agreed to a viewing, so thatās where Iām going at 9am 
praying this is the one, there is a lake opposite so it would be a beautiful view for my cats. Itās available now so as soon as my sale completes I could move straight in. In regards to my sale, my dad called my solicitor today and she said itās not the buyer who is asking questions, he actually canāt wait to move in, itās the buyerās solicitor asking questions that have already been answered in the info heās been sent 
so I am feeling much more hopeful again now 
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Starting day 5 soon. I attended two online Meetings today. Urges were quite overwhelming today. Nearly gave in but then reminded myself of the āJust for todayā Slogan and also attended a Meeting in the morning as Well as in the afternoon in Order to stay Safe.
Also was able to call the local AA contact. F2F Meetings are Held daily, but due to my little daughter I am Not able to attend. Only possibility could bei sunday afternoon.
Not Sure If I have the Balls to Go this week but I will definitely need to Go to a F2F soon.
Anxienty is Just very high. When I lived in Frankfurt I already stood in Front of the building were the Meeting was but was frozen and Not able to Go inside.
Thanks for all of you being Here for me! I am so glad found Back Here.
Have a good 24 hours everyone
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They would love you to enter and join them, you would be doing them a huge service. Newcomers are what keeps the sober wheel turning. Iām 178 days and today spending an hour with a fellow sufferer of 11 days helped me stay sober for 1 more day. Congratulations on your sober days 
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546 Days. I got my 2nd vaccine yesterday and Iām very sick today. Fever, chills, body aches, pounding headache and nausea. Guaranteed if I was still drinking and drugging, I would have thought it was a normal day and picked up first thing this morning. I canāt imagine how many times I was truly sick but blamed it on my addiction. Hopefully, Iāll feel better tomorrow.
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Every doctor will be saying to you now: the vaccine is working! Nice immune response! Iām a nurse but i say the same. I think youāll feel better tomorrow Lisa. Sober.
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Day 306. Feeling less anxious today. Iāve been reading Blackout by Sarah Hepola. Itās pretty good. Reminds me of the bad days.
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Checking in againā¦oh goodness. I think that itās time to watch my caffeine intake. I had to go to the pharmacy/drug store to sort out an issue with one of my prescriptions and by the time I was seated waiting for them to call my insurance company I was having heart palpitations, cold sweats, and general anxiety! I couldnāt figure out why, and this was the first time I have had this feeling in quite a while. Of course, I havenāt really been out much and so that might be a trigger, just being in a store with other people around, and I also know medical issues are a trigger, but these symptoms felt more physical than emotional. I realized I take medicine for my headaches that has caffeine in it, and I also drank a decent amount of caffeine this morning, so that is possibly the culprit. Or part of what I can pay attention to in the future and adjust. Ugh, itās not a fun way to feel at all, is it? Everything got sorted and I felt better pretty soon afterward, but how soon we forgetā¦or I forget. It was a good reminder for me to stay vigilant on what I can do to manage my anxious feelings in prevention mode as opposed to crisis mode. Just thought I would share.
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Thanks for sharing. I feel your pain as of late. I cut out energy drinks again (was addicted to bang for a while there) and have been trying to drink a gallon if water a day. Hope u feel better
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954 days alcohol free. Happy Thursday.
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Oh gosh, energy drinks are certainly going to fuel those jitters. Thanks for the reply, and glad you are taking those steps, too. My thing is Diet Coke and I am working on cutting backā¦seems so simple, right? And drinking more water! Congrats on your sober days! That is truly inspiring.
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Feel better Lisa. My mother in law felt sick after the first shot but not the second. 
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Congratulations my friend! You truly are an inspiration.
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