Checking in Day 246.49
Did a guided meditation class this morning. I liked how he said to let the negative thoughts go to the back of the line and to bring forth the positive ones.
He made us picture our name and imagine it how we drew it as kids and I realized I have a lot of negative feelings about my name. I then spent a good amount of time thinking about how I want to change my name. 
You know, for the second half of my life where I am the new sober meā¦ Then I realized that Sarah has way too much trauma she needs to deal with I canāt just cover her up with a different identity. I still have a lot I need to work on.
Anyway, I am definitely adding this to my Sunday routine, I felt reborn at times. Happy sober Sunday everyone!
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Day 875 it was and is. I finally used my road bike shoes for the first time and have to admit. Yes,they make a difference 
I was invited for coffee at a colleagueās house. I loved it. They have hens and a rooster,bunnies,cat,dog , soooooo relaxing just to watch them. But needing a car every day 
just to do the grocery shopping or going 30km to work. Oh nooooo. It was a nice,sunny and relaxing day,though.
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āKeep your goals small and achievable.ā āWhat can I do today?ā
Thanks for this reminder exactly when I needed to hear these words. I was feeling overwhelmed and sad and too many things out of my control. So ā¦ just thanks.
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285 days. Had an energizing day yesterday. Didnāt end up taking the roadtrip as my friend rescheduled her appointment for next week. Did sit and visit for over 4 hours. It was nice as we chatted to know I have people like her in my life that appreciate and support my sobriety. Was bored after my visit so took the family for a drive just to drive through some drive-thrus! Us 4 and we went 3 different places for supper. All was good and all were happy. Today was supposed to be nicer but we have another snow storm on its way FFS. Not going to let it spoil the day as weāll just dress warmer and head out for a hill hike anyway. Hopefully skies donāt completely cloud over this evening so I can sit and enjoy the energizing rays of Luna.
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Thats sounds like a lovely meditation! Sarah is my sisters name, so I naturally think it is beautiful! The Sarah you are now is also beautiful and wonderful, and should never be covered up!
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Iām not going anywhere this time, youāre all stuck with meā¦
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Thanks. Yeah its odd but when I go back and think of how I wrote my name, my name was Katrina. All my old work my mom kept from preschool and kindergarten says Katrina. I went by Katrina up until I was in kindergarten. Our neighbors kid was named Katrina and so everyone started calling me Sarah so we wouldnāt be confused. Ironically I ended up with the most common name ever and for the rest of my life would be one of many Sarahās.
I feel that would be traumatic for a kid to have their name changed like that, although I dont remember much about it.
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Good afternoon everyone. Congratulations to all of you for being here and on all your milestones. Anyone reading and not posting please feel free to chime in on whichever section you like. The more the merrier.
Iām doing well other than a sore back today.
God bless you all.
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p.s. You are amazing. Ya you!!
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The thing Iām learning now at this stage of my recovery is that a relapse doesnāt happen over night and I can tell that lots of little resentments that get picked up along the way slowly accumulate into a sod it why not moment. But now I have time to react in a different way as in the past I would find myself in a shop buying beer and not even knowing how I got there and not being able to stop myself, now though it feels dirty to want a drink which is a huge shift from it being the reward for every action I every took. So that shift in thought gives me just enough time to realise I donāt have to react anymore just bc I want something. Is my life full of rainbows and song birds sitting on my shoulder singing, definitely not but itās not full of misery and self disgust either. Itās enough, Iāll take what I can get. 
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Congratulations on your 2 weeks Meyer. Itās great waking up feeling good and not hungover even if you are depressed and donāt feel like doing anything. Because not drinking today is your success. And how great is that playing with you sons sober. Sounds like thereās a lot to be grateful for being sober. For now just not drinking is doing something.
Keep up the great work and hug those boys while you can.
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Checking in on day 451.
I feel like I havenāt been checking in much. Except to encourage and support and celebrate. I know thereās nothing wrong with that. Just not much going on. I was a bit depressed and discouraged a few days ago because of all the shit news. Politics, shootings, pandemic. More snow. Maybe coming up on 450 was a milestone shit thing too. I donāt know. But today is good. So was yesterday. Sunny days ahead. Much hope ahead too. Congratulations to everyone for staying in this fight to be sober. Or clean. Some days suck. Some days are great. Itās this thing we call life. I do know itās better sober and not hungover and ashamed of what I might have done yesterday. I hope yāall have a great clean and or sober week ahead.
The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on so long.
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On the nosey Jenna. 
We canāt choose how we feel, but we can choose how we act in response to our feelings.
Another successful day. You win.
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Eric, only 2 more days and maybe you can post us a 453.21 screen shot. Itās the little things in life that excite me these days.
Edit. Oh wait. Lets wait for a 456.78. The other isnāt in order. lol. One of these days Iāll learn how to count.
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Some pics from my walk back from lunch with friends last week. Spring has sprung here in beautiful Charlotte, NC.
Back to all my studying and work stuff 
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Porn 72
Masturbation 1
Goat yogurt is the best. You heard it first here.
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Congratulations 
Beth 
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Congratulations Beth!! Beautiful pics too! 
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Day 183 no alcohol. Day 57 no nicotine. It was a quiet, rainy day. I made chewy chocolate cookies for the blog. I made meatballs and green beans for lunch. Still feeling a little run down from the vaccine yesterday, but I should be back to normal by tomorrow. Gearing up for a busy week at work, so Iām headed to bed early tonight.
@Teammeyer2021and @autie, congratulations on two weeks!
@Foreverfree36, way to go on three weeks! Keep going!
@Truckinmonster21, congrats on one week! Letās gooooo! Youāve got this!
@trose1995, the heart is a complicated thing. My ex taught me that in the most painful ways. You shouldnāt feel badly for loving this man. But you also shouldnāt let this man drag you down into a bunch of nonsense that could hurt you or compromise your sobriety. Walking away from someone you love can be excruciating, but sometimes itās just what you have to do. Be patient with yourself, trust your gut, and youāll figure it out. If you want to talk some more, DM me.
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Checking in on 121 days sober! I havenāt posted in over a week, so I just wanted to say hi. Things are going well. I had some moments this weekend, not really full-fleshed cravings, but just those moments where I felt those old tendencies to have a drink or smoke weed. They were there but felt faint, and at the same time they also felt pronounced because I have not felt that in a while. But I just kept drinking my seltzer, haha.
I was just reading an article about Stephen King, and even though I love his work I somehow never realized he is sober! Since the late 1980s. When I discover someone I admire is sober it feels good, like weāre part of the same crew 
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6 weeks, 1 day here. Iām doing okay, I just hope the depression goes away soon. This is the first time in over 45 years that Iāve had to deal with stressful things without at least one drink. One foot in front of the other. 
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