Great job on your 3 days. I remember feeling exactly the same and it was only three days.
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Yeah feels like a huge achievement 
3 bloody days wow lmao
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Every day sober is an achievement.
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Been feeling sorry for myself for messing up over Easter. But Iām back 
feeling good again and going to start trying to focus more on my fitnessā¦ Day 3ā¦again
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CONGRATULATIONS anyway!
But no 888.88 = sad face.
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Yes, this is very true
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Checking in. Recently I realized how much anger did I suppress towards my parents. Iām really angry at them because they chose their worldview over me, they are too afraid to face their fears or question their beliefs, so they rather ditch me. They think that Iām a selfish, mean person, just because I cannot be someone else and cannot live life accoring to othersā values. They put so much burden onto my shoulders in times when Iām not even sure I have enough strength to carry the already existing ones. They make it so hard for me and expect me to handle it well. They expect me to be a good parent while they think of me, their child with disgust and make me hate myself. Iām so angry at them, because they hurt me though I didnāt do anything wrong. And in the meanwhile they are posing in the role of āgood parentsā because they didnāt banish me and they āloveā me - despite of who I am. There is a quote, that āthere is no forgiveness without rageā - it makes me accept these negative feelings of mein, I try not to suppress them, so that I can get over them at some point. But they are so overwhelming and really hard to handle.
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Thankyou so much lovely lady. Iām so pleased your part of my crazy journey. Itās great your back here doing what helps you . I get so much inspiration from reading everyoneās journey. You never give up and Iām so proud of you xxx
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Perhaps the hurry of addiction, we suffered from, was born out of desperation. A desperate attempt to live, but the life it led to was not what it had seemed.
Now life is slower. I try to be mindful of the world around me. There are so many things I see, hear or discover every day, that I never knew before.
I am just beginning to let the world absorb me. I often fail in my awareness. My mind drifts away to other things. But it works the other way too - in rare beautiful moments, I find peace.
The rest is easy when the mind is at peace.
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going to not attempt to do it myself this this time alone. Going to source proper NA etc or something. It clearly isnāt working anymore attempting it alone.
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I understand your post completely. I endeded up in the emergency hospital from panic attack then seizure from it 3 days ago. The worst feeling everā¦ Glad your OK though and you didnt have an attack 
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I know, but if I suppress it, it also will bring me to my doc. I was taught not to show my feelngs, especially the negative ones and I found it very harmful and sickening. Iām angry and I canāt not feel it.
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Good morning fine people. Finally enough courage again to post here my days. Although stupidly ashamed of it. But putting it out there helps me and might help others to not constantly start from the beginningā¦
Checking in on day 4. Have a great day you all 
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To quote your quote. Very true. I can feel your anger and I can feel myself getting angry too for what they are doing to you.
Somebody here, sorry I forgot who, posted a link to this ted talk some time ago.I watched it three times now, and going to watch it again a few times. Extremely helpful. Hugs friend.
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@Natnat1 @anon35096624 So glad to see both your ladies here. Never mind the number of days (although it makes me very happy to see Natalie do so great!). Today weāre sober and clean! Itās one day at a time for all of us. Hugs and love to you both.
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- My long weekend started. Some homework to do before group therapy in the PM. Looking at the clock I got to hurry a bit. Stuff here held me up. Itās OK. Iām sober ad clean. This place, all of you here, have made it possible for me to work on myself and stay sober for 22 months. Love and hope to be able to give back some to this wonderful community that means so much to me. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Hoping for a great one for you all. Clean and sober. Love from Luna and me.
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- Sitting in the bathroom at work, just got here. Seems to be a replay of yesterday. But this time with heat! Its 89 degrees inside! Oh well, life goes on.
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Day 732. Made it two years with no sauce. No drugs. Still clean. 
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Thats just made me cryā¦
I appreciate this so much xxx
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2 years is just totally awesome Steve. Huge congrats.
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