Wohoooo congratulations 
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Freaking awesome Aybee!!! Congratulations 
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DAY 1075
I was woken yesterday (Wednesday) to a message from a friend of my uncle, telling me he had a major stroke sometime late Monday or early Tuesday. Being on a short vacation with the family, I was unable to return until this afternoon. I talked to his nurse yesterday and they said he had responded to physical and cognitive therapy so I was shocked to see his condition. Though he is able to comprehend what I was saying, he is unable to verbally communicate. He did reach for me with his left hand, so that let me know he does understand. Because of an advanced health directive and his inability to recover without an extensive rehabilitation, the person who has a power of attorney, directed all but comfort care be stopped. I had noticed he didnāt have any fluids attached to his IV line, but didnāt make the connection. With my uncle unable to swallow and all care with the exception if pain management stopped, he probably has only a day or two remaining. Looking into his blue eyes knowing that tomorrow (Friday) he will be moving into a skilled nursing facility to die is really hard. Knowing that I stole pain pills from him in my active addiction 3 years ago makes me sad I betrayed his trust. Though he forgave me, I canāt forgive myself.
Today, Iām clean. Tomorrow I will hit 1076 days clean. Iām sharing this because Iām hoping someone that if else is going through something like this, they know that they can get through it clean/sober.
PS, Iām still chasing you 
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Day 1 again. Woke up with a hangover.
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Checking into day 5 
. Happy sober Friday to each of you. Its a sunny beautiful day here. Itās sooooo good to be actively back on here. To read. And write. You guys keep me sober every day! Thank you! 
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Oh this is so sad Chad. Big hugs to you and family. Hopefully he can leave in peace with family surrounded thinking of you and praying for your uncle that he is without any pain his last hours
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So what happened? Drink a lot of water today. Rest. Maybe get yourself out to catch some fresh air. Be kind to yourself and keep fightingšŖš¾
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Morning everyone. Hit day 60 today which Iām happy with . Still a long way to go I know that and itās constantly having to put the work into this isnāt it ? Like you have always got to be working on yourself and your thoughts to stay sober. Never want to go back as life whilst still difficult sometimes is always better when you can deal with it sober. Have a great day x
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Aaaaand goodnight to another day sober and all of you good peopleā¦Be well.
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So sorry to hear this. Sending love to you and your family.
Thanks AyBee.
Congratulations on your 700 days.
SWEET!!!
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Good morning to you all 
day 4 begins, back on the bicycle to work as I feel more energetic and motivated, itās crazy when you realize your an addict, I have work colleagues who can drink 1 day a week and Iāve realized thatās not me at all 
been reading alot of the comments and itās really inspirational to see how many people are succeeding incredibly on the road to sobriety.
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Havenāt been on here much these last 2 weeksā¦ Have alot going on. Will post soon. Prayers please
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Because youāre a REAL one. My last relapse was 7 months into recovery! some of us put our toes in and have to fight to pull our souls out! Lol welcome back, letās add on this lesson and get back in this fight. I got back in the fight and im approaching that 7 month milestone. Love you much, thanks for sharing.
One life
One love
LIVE LOVE
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I tried that too the nonalcoholic drinks . I bought like 2 bottle of the NA wine . NOT the same . I took one sip and brought one bottle back. There is no point of drinking that stuff without the alcohol because it does not taste good. I have found a new love. Carbonated prickly pear juice. I get it at publix. Congrats on your 444 day sober .
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Why whoās been talking 
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- Coffee. Had a mentally exhausting day yesterday, with triggering happenings and exchanges here and in group therapy. And was initiated in train delays and detours. I made it through and hereās another day. I need some solo time. Itās cold out so I might prefer a hike to a bike ride. Iāll think about it for a little bit. Donāt have to think about my drinking or smoking. There will be none. Sober and clean I am and thatās the way I want to stay. Life is so much better this way. have a good day all. Clean and sober. For (my own) inspiration Iāll post myself, three years ago today hiking in Sequoia National Forest CA. Love.
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@Dolse71 Going so well despite your background paul, congrats!
@OfTheNorth Love to see your progress, huge congrats on 60 days!
@DougM Triple digits yay! Excellent work Doug, congrats!
@AyBee 29 days ahead of me forever friend! Awesome.
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Whatās hiding in your closet!!!
Only my sponsor knows whatās in mine
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Day 142 (edit - 242!)
Had three great classes today, the first class is always a cake walk, some ice-breakers, explain about the class, some easy warm-ups. Came home and my kids were out, so blasted some Led Zep and Janis Joplin while doing chores, the cat was not impressed and disappeared upstairs. Happy that I can still enjoy music sober.
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