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OUTSTANDING!
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Thank you for saying this. Same for me. My (hopefully) last day drinking will be one I ruined from taking it way too far too.
It is great to think of the times ahead. Is it normal to feel impatient for those times? It is like I want to escape feelinga of anger and shame at myself and rush to a future I know will feel better. But I know it doesnāt really work like this. One day at a time.
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Yes it is totally normal to be impatient! But it isnāt something that happened over night for me. It has been a gradual process of unpacking the reasons for drinking and working out how to find acceptance for the things in my past that I donāt want to repeat.
Personally, I found those feelings of shame and frustration useful and still do. I have held onto them - not to punish myself, but as a reminder: this is what happens when I drink.
@Bigbear it isnāt always easy, but it definitely does get easier. Well done for doing something new!
These habits and associations can take a while to break. Which makes sense if we think about how long it took us to build them up.
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Hey everyone, checking in on day 308. I hope everyone has a relaxing Sunday.
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 231 at least I think so, I forgot to check again. And with the new update it takes forever and a day to go out from the app, double check and try to get back in.
First really warm and sunny day today, and all the farmers in the village decided that it was the perfect day to pour out fertilizer in all the fields so now our entire village literally smells like shit. We canāt sit outside and we canāt open the windows because thatāll make us and everything else stink too. The joy of living by the Countryside.
Spilled bearnaise gravy on my shirt yesterday, itās the second bright item I screwed up this week. The other one was a white shirt. So I guess Iāll stick to hot pink and Lilly Pulitzer where the stains gets less visible.
And because Iām always having trouble to make up my mind I cut my bangs again. But it feels more me this way so Iāll probably stick to it and keep it this way.
Tweenie and my husband is away today, theyāll be home in a few hours. So me the boys, my 18 y/o and her boyfriend have had a lovley calm day at home. And Iāve found a lemon chicken pasta recipe that sounds delicious to try for dinner.
Overall a great day, but I canāt stop expecting that thereāll be a great storm coming up with tweenie. I canāt really relax. But at least I decided that I aināt gonna give a shit about the social service investigation. If tweenie and her Ma and the social service feels better making me the bad guy or their Villain so be it. Iāll leave that for karma.
My book for the exam thatās supposed to be handed in at the 26th still havenāt come, but for some strange reason Iām Okey with that. It doesnāt matter if I hand it in later, Iām still qualified to study theater as my main subject next term. I canāt remember last time I actually had a feeling of calm, and peace of mind. It feels really strange, and Iām not sure where it comes from either.
Happy Sunday yāall.
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How is everyone today? Hope you all make your self a Great dayā:slightly_smiling_face: Just came Back from the park with husband and Kids. Had nice time playing and making hit dogs outside in the nice weather. And this time I actually played aswell, not saying No Im to tired. Because I was not tired for onceā:slightly_smiling_face:
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Day 310 clean and sober today. Taking it easy today. Hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys! 
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Checking in April 18 2021
4 hours of sleep 
o well I still feel amazing grateful iam sober happy Sunday everyone letās keep rocking to the fine tune of Sobriety my friends ā¦ Let me sing you a song of how sobriety changed my life
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Thatās awesome Dan 
Congratulations on your own new milestone. Iām very happy for ya.
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985 days alcohol free. I slept for 10 HOURS LAST NIGHT. Wow what a miracle that seemed like. Seeing is I havnt slept more than 3-4 on average for 2 months.
Happy Sunday. Gonna go fishing with the wife this morning
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@RosaCanDo congrats on all the 2s 
@C_8 cool catch 
@I.cant.We.can congrats on 15 months
@anon27700620 congrats on finding the new place, it sounds really nice 
@anon35096624 congrats on 2 weeks
@Beforemy30s & @JodMM welcome both
@dalex77 congrats on your PB
251 days no alcohol.
219 days no cocaine.
I am fully unpacked, was at it from 5am til 9am, but was so pleased I finished it. I even moved all the empty boxes to store in the garage, so our new flat feels like home now, and I can relax 
The new Feliway (anti anxiety pheromone for cats) arrived today and I have plugged that one in in the kitchen, in the hope that this will help them feel safe in there, itās the one room they seem unsure of, and Prince still isnāt eating his wet food or biscuits, Wolfie is now though bless him. Prince did eat his treats last night and then asked for more so I gave them both double, this made me so happy 
I visited with friends after my unpacking, and that was nice, we were watching a funny program.
Ready to try to get my settlement money sorted and make loads more phone calls tomorrow.
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Day 5, feeling good on this Sunday, slept much better last night with movie like dreams again. Amazing how drinking last Monday messed up my sleep until last night. Happy Sunday everyone! 
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Day 293.
Tackled some projects today I was supposed to do on my days off (that werenāt) a few weeks back. Winter stuff to storage, some touch-up painting on my walls and a spot on the ceiling (had just enough paint of each yay!), etc. Was feeling good about it all. Realized tonight as I was tidying things up that old me would have been 1 craft cider in before the lid was back on the can of paint, and probably 3 down before wine with dinner. Alas, old me also usually couldnāt wait to uncork thingsā¦ and had a few painting mishaps in the past with a roller in one hand a wine glass in the other!
This is way better. Itāll be great to wake up tomorrow to my clean walls and no headachy brain fog. It will also be great to share another day with all of you.
Gānight, sweet friends. Big love to all. 
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First day the kids are back at school
My daughter has said she doesnāt really like school at the moment. They arenāt allowed to hug their friends, have to hum happy birthday, have to have slots to use the toilet and play in squares at play time. What sort of experience is that for children? 
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Good Day to you all. Wishing you all a Great day. Day 8 here, and Im almost ready for a walk outside with a co worker
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