@burk123 welcome and congrats on your 3 months+ @MrsOdh Happy Walpurgis Eve and Happy Anniversary @Freeyourmind congrats on 5 months @Wunderbar congrats on 3 years @Squirt Yay, congratulations, so pleased for you
263 days no alcohol.
231 days no cocaine.
Spent a few hours at my friend’s this morning, we washed our cars, they both looked really good in the end and I feel better about taking it to the garage for the repairs next week now, they can properly see what they are working with.
Going to attempt to restart my diet tomorrow. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve said that in the last 4 years since I’ve been struggling with the eating disorder. I definitely see it as another addiction so I know I need to cut out any foods and related behaviours that trigger binges, but I haven’t quite managed to navigate it successfully yet, which is why I’m very grateful that the therapy is finally starting next Thursday.
I am SO FREAKING PROUD of YOU!!! Can’t wait to hear about it. That’s actually the type of work I’d like to do someday. Thanks for the mention, also. I appreciate you and the growth you’ve acknowledged in me. Feels good to hear.
@CATMANCAM thank you. I deemed it impossible I just thought that I was never going to get rite… each day is a blessing I was in a wreck back 2016. I was paralyzed broke my brain stem into places I couldn’t eat walk or talk. I’m just super thankful that I get to be here and witness to others the Flames that I came out of thank you for being so welcoming
@Soundlab Thats cool
We are all there with you and the snooker
So don’t feel left out!
I got that feeling really strong today (after my failed attempts to suggest coffee socials rather than boozy ones)! I also noticed loneliness has its own little thread here.
Tricky
However, when I’m drinking I hate it that I can’t trust myself to be alone. So can’t complain now about being lonely when I’m not drinking!
I am currently having roof racks installed on my vehicle, imagine me having extra money in my bank. Without recovery this would have never been possible.
The gifts of recovery are not only material things and the material things are by far not the most valueable but…the material things are nice too.
Checking in on the end of day 15.
I haven’t checked in for the last couple of days because I’ve been feeling very ‘meh’ and like I had nothing to say. Hung out on the couch a lot and didn’t get much done … I think the initial action and talking to people exhausted me A LOT. Talking about my feelings is like 3 sets of burpees for the soul I’ll be around more. Hope everybody is doing well
Nice to see ya checking back in.
I know what you mean about the “meh” days. Especially early on. But if you didn’t drink? You got a shit load done! IMO.
Thanks Fnky!
Congrats on your days, really love that you have been showing your gratitude everyday. You have so much to be grateful for.
See you tomorrow same time, same place.
Day 16. I know I won’t drink today. Seeing friends for some wedding preparations and bridesmaid duties. I’m taking a non-alcoholic fizz just in case I need it, but I’m not even sure I want that so may just take some sparkling elderflower too. Pre-planning options helps and I am a natural planner.
It is also the first of the month I’ve always loved fresh starts, New Year, Septembers (start of academic year) etc. This one feels extra exciting. A new month away from my last drink. I don’t have to glance to that date on my calendar when I check it. A chance to start a full calendar month of sobriety. Happy May, all
April is officially over my month is complete for another year. Till next April, April
Today is a good day. I feel good. No anxiety or urges. Its only 2pm but I’m pretty confident the rest of the day will evolve smoothly. Its a good day.
I went for a walk and got my coffee and sat in the park watching the leaves fall like they were snow flakes. So magical to watch.
I felt like I wanted to buy myself a little present or trinket to celebrate happiness. Because today I feel authentically happy so I bought this cute little Buddha dude he was only $12 and he is perfect for storing my insense.
Mom’s emergency surgery on Monday, me packed but not travelling about 1000km to see her. Can’t visit in a pandemic, and she’s got a lot of recovery ahead of her.
Cases are breaking records here, and the toughest restrictions yet might be coming.
Work? If my job was a boyfriend, I’d have left his sorry ass a long time ago! Ah, but with sobriety comes less reactivity, and so I breathe while making the necessary changes and preserving professional relationships.
A big grief anniversary looms nearby too. First time without the wine.
I had fleeting thoughts of drinking – but these were squelched by the overwhelming relief that I am not. Not turning to wine to cope, and not waking up with shame that I need that crutch. Not having a headache and a hangover, regret and remorse.
So bring me difficult. And my tea, my blankie. My TS. The trees and the trails. My tears and my smiles.
Sometimes we take it minute by minute, but we did another day. Let’s go get another tomorrow.
G’night, big love to all.
I get it. It can feel false sometimes. But I have to tell you, no matter how many ways I have felt about it, announcing my intent to remain sober each day I managed to come here helped me every single time.
and Happy Anniversary 
I’ll be around more. Hope everybody is doing well 
my month is complete for another year. Till next April, April 
so I bought this cute little Buddha dude 
