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Early check-in on day 917. A sunny and hot day ahead of me. I am determined to not stress about anything.
Looking forward to talking to a good friend this evening.
I wish everyone a good and sober Sunday!
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Day 313.
A good long 800km drive, pretty much straight south, mostly in the rain. All checked into my hotel (no staying with pals in a lockdown!) and looking forward to some slumber. As I got off the elevator there was a sign that all ice machines are shut off (restrictions). Gak - could you imagine the tizzy this would have caused me say, a year-ish ago?
Tizzy averted. Iād rather hang out with all of you instead!
Sober things (like trips) that felt so strange the first few times are starting to feel so normal now. And damn, that feels good. What do you sayā¦ you up for another day of āour normalā tomorrow? I know weāve got in us. 
Gānight all, big love 
Ran into this urban goose when I got to the city, honking away about all kinds of things!
23 months for @Mno! Now that is definitely worth honking about!
@AyBee 2 years! So thrilled for you, you little 
!
And 3 months @Julied and 2 weeks @apes2020!
I know Iām missing others, but I think that goose honked for each and every one of our days. 
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The goose looks like heās about to hitch hike a ride lol 
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Wooooohooooooo!
And that my friend is a great way to end my Saturday night. Congrats.
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Some amazing numbers here. Congratulations all!
Checking in on Day 24 
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133 Alcohol
124 Weed
122 Cigarettes
Loving the milestonesā¦ @Mno 700 days so deserved, worked at so graciously and with candour, and helping others on their journeys. @AyBee nearly choked on my 
, 2 years thatās is amazingā¦ @apes2020 well done for your two weeks the difference in you is great to see. @Girlinterrupted wow not far to go, you have dealt with each hurdle with determination 
. Sure I will have missed some of so I say well done.
Up early this morning, journalled, meditated. Going swimming in a lake for 10 am this morning, 30 min drive, excited and nervous as we speak. Its one of the ladies birthday, so we all bringing food for breakfast. I got assigned rolls and beans I can manage that (would have been a wreck if I had to cook) Was really touched they invited me.
Apart from that I feel strong in my sobriety, loving I am pushing myself, loving I donāt want to drink or the other vices, loving I am connecting hereā¦ loving I feel hopeful its a good feeling.
Enough of the rambling, better get my rolls buttered, have a good day everyone, you help more than you know
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Had a really vivid drinking dream last night. So utterly convincing. Not doing anything out of the ordinary. Just working at my dining room table, as I do sometimes. My wife was there. I looked down and caught myself drinking a gin and tonic (not even a drink that I drank a lot), and was amazed that I hadnāt thought about it, or fought it. It just seemed like Iād forgotten that I donāt drink anymore. I was absolutely gutted, and the first thing that came to my mind was that it had been a waste of 128 days (I had my number wrong). Worryingly, but accurately, my second thought was, āOK, itās done now, I might as well absolutely smash itā. That was when I woke up.
It took a while to realise that it was a dream and not a memory.
So relieved to realise what had happened. Really. Down in my soul. It has really strengthened my resolve.
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I have only had one of those dreams and it shakes you to the coreā¦ takes a while for your mind to adjust and accept for what it wasā¦ the relief is good to say the leastā¦ But it plays on your mind for sureā¦ you still got those goods days well doneā¦
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Yyyaaayyy Dan!!! Thatās so awesome!!! Iām so proud of you 
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Yesterday was a fun day. My local football team won League 2 and are going up to League 1! Its a tiny club, one of the smallest in the whole English football league so it is a wonderful acheivement. Bitter sweet tho as I have only been able to go to 3 games the entire season. I live right by the ground so could hear all the celebrations but couldnāt be part of it sadly. Itās really important to me as a social activity and as a way of connecting to my local community.
Football was one of a handful of things, along with music/gigs, holidays etc, that I was worried I would no longer enjoy without alcohol. It was so embedded in the activity. I guess I kind of had to relearn how to enjoy it without beer. The first few games were a bit weird I guess, but very quickly I grew to enjoy it even more than before. And the same goes for many other things. When I think about it, the only thing I really enjoy less now that I donāt drink is hanging out in pubs and bars. Thatās boring as hell.
Have a great day all 
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How interesting! Its rare to hear about Alaska on here. Its one place Iām yet to visit and its always so interesting to me. Feel free to share pics on the nature pics thread ! 
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- Coffee. Made up for lost sleep yesterday. First day of the year Iām sitting here with the door to the balcony open. T-storms around though. Self-care, cat-care, house-care kind of day I think. Work tomorrow.
Did dream a lot as I usually do when I sleep in sober. The one thatāll stay with me has to do with my mum, or more with the absence of her. I went to see my mum in the place I grew up in but upon arriving I remembered that the house was sold and mum moved. But where? I just couldnāt remember. The general direction yes, but not the street or neighbourhood.
Thatās where my dream ended. left me kinda sad and reflective. My mum wanted the best for her kids and herself but she and my dad couldnāt provide it to me and my sis. She did try though. Now sheās gone I do miss her.
And itās not bad to think about it. Itās life. Life isnāt easy but itās worth living. With all its ups and downs. Sober and clean or we canāt live life. Under the influence weāre living in denial, fighting shadows, trying to escape life through a route that only leads to darkness. Never again.
Have as good a Sunday as you all can friends. Clean and sober. Love. Pic is from Fridayās hike.
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Couldnāt agree more on the enjoying stuff sober front. Football, live music, festivals, are actually much better without getting slammed. Congrats on promotion! Much better story than Real Madrid or Man City buying themselves another trophy.
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Happy Motherās day everyone
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Haha, love it!!
Yeah, Iāve been growing more and more disillusioned with top flight football over the past few years. The European Super league fiasco recently was pretty much the nail in the coffin for me. Iāve been a Man U fan my entire life, my Dad, my uncles, all Man U. My cousin even ran the local Man U supporters club organising all the coaches to the games. I went to Old Trafford loads as a kid, I was very lucky. After my Dad died it was something that still connected me to him, and still is all these years later. So many happy memories are attached to the club. Which is why it is so hard to walk away. But honestly, I canāt actively support them currently.
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