Meeting went well tonight. One of the guys was like why don’t you chair I think it would benefit you. I wanted to say no but didn’t, I’m all over the place when I tell my story lol, but it was nice to get it out. And then we read about step twelve and literally there was everything I just said about me playing god and just a bunch of stuff. But of course as soon as I left I went through a little cruise through lake placid and you just see all these ppl out having fun, standing outside the bars having fun and my mind starts wandering and I just can’t help but think why can’t I be normal and just go out and have fun and be normal like those ppl, why do I always have to over do it. All those people just seem so care free, I’m sure some of them wish they weren’t doing that stuff and we’re sober but idk so many ppl just seem happy with alcohol in there life and manage to be successful still. Fuck I can’t be successful sober or drunk lol. Idk I came home made a smoothie ate some dinner and watched a movie. Take care
Day 390.
Such a good day. A good long sleep-in, lotsa catch-ups with pals near and afar. Oh, and I turned M-be-free51 today! My whole 50th year was alcohol-free. Astonishing. Last year’s bday was still in early days of sobriety, but the restrictions made it a bit easier. Tomorrow night is something of a reunion dinner with colleague pals. Some of these people I have not seen F2F in months. I anticipate it will be a booze fest. But me? I’m just that much older than them that I can get away with being 51 years old AF – old as fuck and alcohol free. 
@Hopeful777 put it better than I can: Love the new feeling of looking forward to things for what they are. Not looking forward to events so i can drink, and losing every bit of value of the activity.
I’m going to enjoy another good sleep. And a great wake up. Coffee on my wee patio garden, listening to the birds, coaxing the blooms… …sipping from my new mug!
Whatever day it is, we did another one, friends. Let’s go do this again tomorrow. I just know we can.
G’night, big love to all. 
@CATMANCAM ah, I knew it! so good to hear, friend. 
@Girlinterrupted this isn’t the point, but you know what? I like you. And none of us really fit in. Which means we all do, you know?
I beg to differ. Today was a raging success for you, Mike. Every sober day is.
Proud of you.
Day 70 I guess. Still salty about wanting to add the 250 before that. It has been a pretty good day. Feeling ambivalent and pissed at mosquito bites on my feet and toes. Goodnight folks.
Day 13. Bit of a shaky one last night but full of positivity again this morning. Just taken the pooch out and broke my new hiking boots in at the same time. In 2 weeks time I’ll be going up another mountain, all stuff that drinking and using me would only ever dream about. Have a happy and sober day everyone
Thanks to everyone for the congratulations yesterday! I read them when I got home from my second sober wedding yesterday.
I had the best time. I even danced. And genuinely loved it. I didn’t think I’d have the confidence to do that sober but it was such fun.
I left when I wanted to. I walked away from conversations where people were slurry or repetitive at the end of the night. I had proper, lovely conversations with people that I will fully remember. I drove home with windows down and music on. I have woken with zero regrets, zero hangover and a whole lot of pride.
Today I have a music festival to go to - feels a little strange post-Covid though i must say - and I know I would have been hungover and not enjoyed it fully if I had been drinking last night.
So thank you for all your support. Checking in on Day 101.
Oh and if you ever leave that coffee cup out on that beautiful patio of yours unattended I’m stealing it.
Check in on day 30,went out bowling and playing pool lastnight it took a little getting use to as so use to being under the influence but I had a great time, off swimming with son later. Have a blessed sunday ts.
Congrats on 30 days Emm! 
You’re doing awesome! Enjoy your swim with your son.
Congratulations on your 30 Days Emma.
So happy for you. Keep up the great work.
I haven’t posted here in a long time, I think the last time I posted I might have been on my 2week mark… but I wanted to check in because I hit a little speed bump today and I thought I wasn’t going to make it but I’m glad to say I’m 47 days sober. And i also wanted to say…Hmm well today was my grandma’s birthday…she passed away about one year ago… I honestly have no idea how old she would have been but that never mattered because she was grandma, you never ask grandma those questions… lol oorr the thought never really came across my mind… anyways, if she was still alive today, we (my family and I) would have spent the entire day just chilling with her… having lunch, bringing her a card with flowers and maybe a few cupcakes… and her favorite gum “Juicy Fruit”, we probably would have took her for a ride today… she would have talked about when she was coming home, and about how she wanted us to take care of her… and how she wanted to take a road trip with us… and do all of those other things like that with us… she would have laughed with us, because she was funny and liked to joke or tell us funny stories about how her morning was… we would have stayed with her for the whole day, until she told us “it’s getting late, I don’t want you guys driving home in the dark” and I would have hugged her so tight, I never forgot to say “I love you grandma so much” and she would have said “I love you Alyssa see you next time” and she would have squeezed my hand… and we would head on home, talking about our great day with grandma on her birthday… it never really hit me, all those feelings of mourning her… I guess I just pushed it to the back of my mind…until this morning, I talked with my sister, and she said that she was trying to fight her urge to drink today… it made me think about having “just one drink”… that thought was on repeat for a bit… but then, I thought about my grandma (who was also an alcoholic but was sober for 10+ years) and I thought about how that one time I went to see her and she smelled the alcohol… she used to always tell me “you don’t need it, it’s bad for you, look at me and how long I’ve been sober and I’m doing good, if I can do it so can you”… I heard that in the back of my mind today, while I thought about going to the bar money in hand and I knew it was her visiting me, letting me know it’s okay… which just made me miss her more… but I spent today with my sister because sometimes you just need family around you and I’m proud to say that we did not drink one drop of alcohol today, and I feel darn good about that because today was tough, I’m not going to lie… but I’m sober 47 days (so is my sister) and happy/proud to still be sober! My grandma would be too.
That was beautiful to read. Thanks for sharing 
Day 1040
Trying to eat healthier and walk more 
So walked 15 km/9 miles yesterday. Motivated myself with a walk to a terras 
No triggers at the terras, but it’s stupid to notice I know exacly what everybody is drinking so I’m focussed on that. Still addictive behavior I suppose.
Picture from some streetart I walked by
Going to walk in the forrest today. Have to bike to get there because we have no car for a while. Our car has passed away
But hey, we didn’t liked this one anyway. Put loads of money in it to keep it on the road but it refuses to work for us. I think he didn’t liked us as well 
Have a nice sunday folks! 🙋
Happy birthday Emm!! 
I hope you have a lovely day!! Liked your patio and
I definitely need that mug!! 
Hey Austin your rocking it I also went out bowling and playing pool, it was alittle weird to start off but I just went with it and enjoyed my evening, enjoy your go karting sounds like fun.
Happy birthday! Excellent mug 
Happy Birthday @M-be-free49 ! Happy ‘M’ journeys for your year, wherever you are, whatever you’re doing! Best wishes and a zucchini cake to continue the celebration!
@Girlinterrupted i understand what you’re saying. I think some of it may be that some things are simply overlooked… There is so much activity… … And sometimes people might feel intrusive to comment. Thinking It might take up space Or something like that I don’t know. I like you, I have lots of questions for you, maybe I will come out of my own shyness some day and ask. Lots of admiration for you in any case.
@everybody else Have a good addiction free day. The forum is here for everybody. Help. Community. Distractions. Discussions.
As a new person said today and I can’t look back to see who it was or even exactly what they said … Something like ~ the community looks like a good bunch of friendly addicts~
Try to have just some happiness in your heart no matter how hard it seems. The little bits can be so important …
Happy belated birthday, Emm. Always good to read your progress being it big or small. Haven’t written about your dog girl?