Haven’t checked in for a few days.
Day 84. 12 weeks.
Things ticking along nicely and feeling very content.
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Checking in this morning.
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How long has she been sober?
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@Mno Sounds like those dates aren’t too enjoyable for you either. People who who get upset about another not drinking make no sense, it doesn’t affect them at all. Apart from not validating their choices, which means they WANT the validation, which speaks volumes. You keep doing you.
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Day 1*
I’m still alcohol-free but was not sober yesterday. My partner made thc gummies and left a mess in the kitchen. While I was cleaning up I peeled a bit off the pan and ate it. I really didn’t think much about it but an hour later I was feeling it. I’m embarrassed that I didn’t take my sobriety more seriously after what it’s taken to get back from this relapse.
I’m not trying to make excuses. I know it was my choice to eat that candy last night but sometimes I wonder if I want a sober partner. Before my relapse I sat him down to talk about how I wanted to “try” drinking again. My partner had seen me try unsuccessfully to gain sobriety time for years before i finally got those 20 months. He saw me at my worst in addiction, sick and desperate and suicidal. To my surprise he said he thought I should try to drink normally again and went out to grab a bottle. I want to be clear that I do not blame my relapse on him. I chose to drink. If I really wanted to be talked out of my addictive thinking I would’ve came here instead of asking him for permission. Our conversation that night just made me feel horrible about not being “normal”. He was saying things like how nice it’d be to go out and enjoy a drink together again. Those comments more than anything else make me wonder if my sobriety has made us incompatible.
Sorry for the obnoxiously long post. I’m not looking for advice but do appreciate having a space to get these thoughts out. Thank you all.
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Hey all, checking in on day 389. Hope everyone has a good one!
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Day 391 clean and sober today. Not doing so great emotionally and mentally but don’t have time to let it out here right now, have to leave for work. I am doing the best I can to make it through this a minute at a time. Have a great day, love you guys 
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Exactly that Flo. Discussion started when he said he couldn’t understand how another friend couldn’t have just one or two. And I said this friend obviously has a problem with alcohol. That kicked it off. Not my problem indeed.
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Use work to keep your mind occupied and I hope you have a good day man! We’re in it together 
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Had the same sort of discussion with a friend last night. It’s how he thinks not you. And what is normal? Drinking isn’t. It’s just culture. In ancient Greece having a young boy around “to fool around with” as an old man was culture. Just saying.
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Thank you bro!
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I totally agree. I think those conversations made me feel insecure because I don’t want my partner to feel like he’s missing out. I definitely know I’m not missing anything by not drinking but I never considered that he felt like he was missing out on something. I guess a deeper conversation is coming.
Normal 
“normal” is so boring. Sitting around drinking, getting slower and dull and loud…
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Checking in on day 25, rains coming down heavily, feeling really tired and have a load of housework that needs doing , but still happy as I’m sober. Had the thoughts last night that I can surely drink in moderation now as I’ve gone so many days . I hate this little voice in my head in one way but also feel good the more times I overcome it. I know how this moderation ends up so it’s a no from me. Been there done that and spent a week drinking constantly after trying . I won’t go back to that again . Hope everyone’s having a good day 
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I love watching y’all catch those strings of numbers but I know I have a tendency of getting obsessive and competitive. I had to turn the decimals off on my counter. The numbers were messing with my head. 
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Checking in day 4, worked out this morning and was feeling great and then I cried my entire commute to work.
Cleaning up my face and heading in to conquer the day.
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Ah just too beautiful. A friend of mine said Amsterdam has the friendliest people in the world. Is that true? 
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Thanks for putting this out there for me to read. The thought of wanting to enjoy one (or two) normally now & again was floating into my thoughts again. I know this would not be my reality. I needed the reminder that I AM normal @ Day 156 and just fine without drinking.
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@Beccy81
Been there done that and spent a week drinking constantly after trying . I won’t go back to that again . Hope everyone’s having a good day
From one Becky to another, this is so true, keep reminding yourself that we cant have just 1!
Congrats on 25 days! Keep rocking it!
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