Day 18 of freedom. Outside the gym 
Not much to report today but I’m happy enough. Have a wonderful sober day my friends
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When I feel like shit I find it helps to take the focus off myself and help other people. Not sure if you have the opportunity to be of service at your meeting but that is what helps me.
Sorry about your friend Mike.
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Congrats on your 365 days of freedom!!!
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Life will always have it’s hard times, it’s harder times and the truly awful times mixed in hopefully with some better and good and great times. During the hard times acknowledge and be grateful for the good in your life… which you are by talking about your girls and also not talking about losing your sobriety. It is normal to be hurt, sad and moody after getting bad news like that. Two weeks or so ago I found out two friends died… ugh ugh and ugh… looking back at texts and going why did I not respond to that?? and etc etc etc , why did I think they would always be there? and always be there for me?? so lots of feelings when we have friends die, guilt, sadness, loss. I was irritable. I think it is good for you to talk about your feelings like you are. When you are with your girls tell them you are sorry you are grumpy bc your friend is gone? Tell them you love them and want to be the best Dad you can be? Spend time w them. Keep asking for what you want. I dont know if you have had counseling or not. It could be that a church group or a pastor could be helpful for you. Before saying oh no no way consider it. You need people on your side, you have the TS peeps… have faith in yourself, keep your sobriety and try to find joy in each day while you search for that happiness.
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Thanks @SoberWalker and @CATMANCAM
Congrats @anon9289869 on 365 days sober, you go you! 
So sorry for your loss @anon53116147, sending you strength.
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Massive congratulations on 1 year of sobriety 
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Had to double check these numbers wow 
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215 days
All arrived after a 6hr drive to wales… so beautiful, picture from room. Went out for dinner last night with my friends, we were in a pub, they were drinking i was not, thats was fine. Did not feel like i was missing out. I came away early, read my book. And i am up first 
@RosaCanDo enjoy your vacation and good news regarding your hand…
@Squirt sorry you feel like this, i think you doing so well, hope you get the help needed for your MH. Congrats on yoir sobriety.
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Lets goooo! Another day, another milestone!
Fuck me im happy to be sober!
I wish you all a great day people, wouldnt have been able to do it without you!
Bart
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Day 888
I’m in a pretty good place atm, and I’m working at taking advantage of this feeling while I have it. One of the most important things I have learnt on my sober journey so far is to grasp these times with both hands and make the most of them. Because I can never be sure how long it will last.
So I’m looking at booking a beginners yoga course, probably to start in sept/oct. I have found a place that I like the look of so probably will book it this weekend. I’m really enjoying the home practice so keen to push forward with that. I have booked on to a sound bath in a couple of weeks too which should be interesting.
I’ve switched up my diet which is going well and I’m settling into my new home. I’m planning to get a dog towards the end of the year so I’ve started researching that in a bit more detail also. And I have a (small) garden for the first time ever so am trying to come up with ideas for that. Moving house has given me so many more options and things to do, I love it. It was such a good decision. The neighbourhood is great, a really good vibe.
I love this bit of graffiti at the end of my street.
A big thank you to everyone here. I take so much inspiration from all of you.
Have a great day folks 
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Checking in on Day 106.
Have had a lovely but busy first week of summer. No urges to drink. But haven’t been keeping up with gratitude as much and spending too much time on social media. Need to take some steps to reign that in and get myself feeling better again!
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nicorette, you put them in the side of your mouth and forget about it for half an hour, I used the 2mg which is the weakest one, you can buy shops own brands which are cheaper and work just as well. If you lived in England I could have posted my leftover ones
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Checking in, day 267 no booze, day 17 no smoke. Feeling pretty depressed, I hate that I always end up here, seeing everything so empty and pointless. It’s difficult to work or do anything, still can’t sleep well during the nights. Don’t know how others can function in their lives, I feel so broken.
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@Chance Wowzer!
@Freeyourmind Congratulations!
@Hailstrom The snake looks like the one from my favorite Disney movie Robin Hood.
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Took my daughter swimming. I was the only woman there in a regular bathing suit, all the others were in like swimming shorts and at least tank tops, and often long sleeves. I felt very exposed, and of course, tall, white and large, being the only Westerner. I definitely got some eyeballing. There were lots of jets, and a slide and we stayed about two hours. She conked out on the bus on the way home, rather felt like doing the same myself.
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Look at you casually sliding in that 365!!!
Congrats, that’s amazing and a huge deal. Whoot!!!
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@Hopeful777 Marie! What a breathtaking photo. Wales is definitely on my bucket list.
Well, I’ve officially entered my longest stretch in over 20 years with my ED.
I’m up and ready to go, some wake to chirping birds, I wake to the sound of randoms yelling in the street. The sweet melody greets me even 17 stories up 
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in the past I would just tell people to change how they look at things but I’m in the middle of it and this anxiety and depression is real and it’s a bitch. I know what I want to think and I know how I want to feel but my mind just won’t let me. Feels like something is about to snap inside me, wish you well my friend and here’s to another day sober.
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- Coffee. Got up at 3:30 to watch my nephew miss out on an Olympic medal. He’s just 24 and I’m sure he’ll be back in 3 years time. Win some lose some. He’s still my inspiration. Setting goals, working on them like hell, achieving them, sometimes not achieving them. But still keeping going. One day at a time. Good times and bad ones. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
@Chance Good to see you James, awesome numbers, inspirational stuff!
@Freeyourmind Gefeliciteerd Bart!
@anon9289869 A full year lady! Good times and bad ones, we keep going. Excellent work, huge congrats!
@anon53116147 I’m sorry friend. You’re putting in the work. Keep doing it. Keep talking. Keep feeling. You’re making progress. It’s hard at times. Many times. But you’re doing it. Proud of you friend.
@Squirt Hope your meeting went well. It really helped me early on. Good people. We don’t drink. Good times and bad ones. Big hugs.
@CATMANCAM I think it is the nicotine withdrawal friend. Keep going. Things will get better. ODAAT, or one hour or one minute at the time. You’re doing this.
@Tomek Strength to you friend. It sucks. I do believe it will pass though. Ups and downs. I know when we’re down it’s hard to feel it will.
@Misokatsu I think it’s Kaa from The Jungle Book, well, they could be twin python brothers
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