@Thirdmonkey thank you @Soundlab oh wow, that looks incredible, enjoy! @Rockstar24777 congrats on 14 months @beachmouse I can really relate to that; when I was using all O did was sit there and write and write, begging and pleading and planning to get clean, I filled so many journals, but since getting sober I havenāt been able to journal at all, only on here, where I mainly just repeat what Iāve posted on my check in. Good luck with your step work @Singtone congrats on all the 2s @OldDogNewTricks deep breaths, hope it passes soon @RosaCanDo congrats on 90 days and the new car @Wakikki congrats on your week glad the doctor could help @No_more_C2H6O congrats on double digits youāre definitely not alone here @mleclaire sending so much love to you and Leo Iām so sorry youāre going through this
368 days no alcohol.
336 days no cocaine.
Here I am again, hating myself and feeling disgusted at myself. I binged, big time I need to remember this feeling next time the cravings come. I am powerless over junk food. Iāve accepted that over and over but I keep finding myself here. It happened because I was worrying about those men being at the gym/swimming again and I couldnāt bring myself to go, so I was beating myself up over that and in a really bad headspace over it, because I really want to keep exercising but now thereās anxiety associated with it which kills all the excitement of it. Ugh. Bullies can FRO! My stomach is so bloated and I feel like a total failure. It has been 4 weeks since ED therapy ended, and I have binged 4 times since then. During therapy I managed to string 36 days together. Iāve got my review next Thursday so will see what she says, absolutely dreading it, I feel so ashamed.
I donāt think you should feel shame in a set back, you are tackling a bunch of shit at once.
You didnāt pick up dope nor booze in my opinion you still win Ty. I understand that you feel sick and that binging is as a defeating behavior as any of the rest of them because of the āWhyā.
That isnāt your shame thoughā¦ that āWhyā. Those fuckers that were cruel, thatās their shame. You need to try to leave that for them to wallow in if they are ever man enough to own it in their lives. Try to pick yourself up and dust yourself off, maybe you need some more support, and there is no shame in that. None.
Big hugs to you, I also hope that tomorrow is better for you.
Oh Emilie Iām so sorry
Itās always so fucking hard. Leo seems like a great guy. He was so lucky to have you. And Iām sure you him.
You will treasure his memories always.
Iām so sorry you got to go through this. We are here for you if you need us.
Congratulations on your 10 days Scott. Your right about not being alone here. Lots of great support here if you use it. I hope to see you around.
And for you and other new people. @beachmouse
If youāre struggling. And we all do. Fucking ask for help!! Go to a meeting. Or Check in on here before you pick up. Thereās always someone around.
You chose to quit drinking, and you have the complete freedom to choose to drink again at any point. But check in here first. See what happens. What have you got to loose. Weāre stronger together.
Big hugs @CATMANCAM Those guys really can FRO, anyone who is making effort to look after themselves and keep healthy should be admired. I know binging makes you feel shit, but it is not kicking a puppy, it is not mugging an old lady. You donāt need to feel ashamed. Tomorrow you can exercise, put good fuel into your body, and treat yourself well as you deserve.
Tyler!! Forget those Dbags!! Karma will bite them in the ass. Donāt let them ruin your day or steal even the smallest bit of your happiness. People like that make me sick! I had a bully in middle school who picked on me all the time about my weight and called me a cow and pumba to everyoneā¦ she is now 300 pounds. And I am in shape! Because what she did to me made me stronger in life. People who do that to others are just sad about themselves! Sorry, rant over. Just know youāre not alone and we love ya.
17 months sober todayā¦ since my car accident it was a pretty exhausting/busy 2 weeks with work, figuring out my insurance, getting a new car etc etcā¦but I got through it and am still sober! My birthday is also a little over two weeks away and I wanted to plan something fun but smallā¦ppl still do cool stuff when you turn 31 right? Haha anyway, have a safe and sober day/night allš
I need to remember this feeling next time the cravings come. I am powerless over junk food. Iāve accepted that over and over but I keep finding myself here. It happened because I was worrying about those men being at the gym/swimming again and I couldnāt bring myself to go, so I was beating myself up over that and in a really bad headspace over it, because I really want to keep exercising but now thereās anxiety associated with it which kills all the excitement of it. Ugh. Bullies can FRO! 
My stomach is so bloated and I feel like a total failure. It has been 4 weeks since ED therapy ended, and I have binged 4 times since then. 
During therapy I managed to string 36 days together. Iāve got my review next Thursday so will see what she says, absolutely dreading it, I feel so ashamed.
