Day 3
Not the best nights sleep kept waking up briefly but you know when your still half asleep. My body was telling me im hungover and that i had been drinking! Then i wake up more and remember im sober which was a great feeling but this kept recurring all night so going to be tired today!
@Fury Sounds excting! Good luck!
Day 371
Had a dream last night about my friend that died. I really admired her, she was beautiful, creative, independent, the complete opposite to me, but the fact she was my friend made me feel a little those things too. She was also manic-depressive, and definitely a baby alcoholic, and we encouraged each other to drink terribly. I wonder what she would have thought of my sobriety. Would she have got her shit together? Who knows. She is on my mind today.
You.
Are.
Amazing.
I am very sorry you have been struggling like you have been. I canât quite find the words to express how fucking proud I am of youâŚ
I feel like taking you out for some cake or icecream just to celebrate you. Unfortunately this is the best I can do.
Yeah⌠I get it.
Those are those really deep neuropathways we carved out in our brains for all the years we didnât deal with shit but got loaded instead.
The new ones your are making, the healthy recovery ones, they arenât as deep yet.
So itâs kinda like when youâre 4x4ing or driving in the snow and your car wants go in those really fucking deep pockets where your car canât get any traction and you end up getting stuck.
We need to stay out of those well used paths as you know but itâs natural for our heads to divert there so easily for the first few months. It took me about 5 months before I wasnât having impulsive urges to use whenever something emotional came up.
You are going through a lot right now so try to be kind to yourself and donât judge the urges you are having. Just turn them away and get that spirit of yours filled. Your sponsor sounds like a good guy, I am sure he is going to be able to help you through this.
I am really sorry for your losses.
24 hours at a time.
Day 3. For the first time in over a week Iâm sat ourself the gym waiting for it to open again, back in my happy place. Have a wonderful day everyone
Just checking in . Got a meal out tonight and (weirdly?) 2 of the other people going dont drink. Dont know why as Iâve never asked! Have a good day all
Congratulations to you all,adorable pictures of Jacquline and Mum, who looks amazing after giving birth
I have no idea about playing but the less you stress the more room there is for creativity. You have so much music in you I donât doubt you couldnât pull it of.
233 days
@CATMANCAM so proud of you for getting back to the gym amazing determination and courage.
@Dolse71 so sorry to read you been going through this and had time off work. I did the same thing gave up a career of 20 years, and found another sector i love, it feels liberating. You are listening to your emotions which is huge, i have every faith you will find something more suited to the sober Paul.
@apes2020 lots of sheep in the world , had both of mine now, and my son who is only 21 is due his 2nd jab next week⌠massive push here to get all vaccinated. Only way i think for freedom!
@Fury wow how exciting, i do think getting thrown in at the deep end is better in some ways⌠enjoy your practice
Ticking along nicely. Not allow myself to worry. My son and i are off to wales (snowdonia) for a few days Thursday, want to walk some way up to swim in the rock pools. Then do some exploring, might as well use this work delay to its advantage.
Gym this morning and river swim later.
Wishing you all strength and sobriety
- Coffee. Thanks for all the love friends. Yesterday and always. Love helps. Our love for each other and love for ourselves. Love for ourselves is first. Itâs where it all starts. I watched documentaries on Harry Jekkers, a Dutch performer, and Whitney Houston in the last days. Whitney couldnât pull off loving herself despite singing about it . Harry canât pull off a steady relationship. Each on his own road. Hereâs the final line from his song âIk hou van mijâ: Because they who say âI love youâ, give something truly precious only when they love themselves. Working on it friends. One day at a time. By the grace of being sober and clean. Have a good day all. Love from my place.
Congrats Mno 800 so cool
Great to hear from you my friend, I red most of your posts lately and I also remember the time when you used to go out for swimming.(or wasnât that you) It is mentioned before but in my memory as well on the sports and fitness thread you always were stoked when you went.
I agree with to he post somewhere above a couple of days before that getting back in to the water might be a good thing .
Proud at your stats, and the eating , I guess thatâs filling up a space that youâll have to dig out and plant some new flowers on or somewhatâŚ
Here just quick checking in , had to be early for a docs appointment, went well and now to gather some shit for the tax agency here.
Be safe yaâll
Day 4. No energy and mental lag. I have journaled this to hopefully review before i would ever do this again.
You had me at cake
What an intense situation. It took a lot to severe that tie and move in a different direction for your sobriety. Thanks for sharing, your actions were inspirational for sure.
Thank you. One day at a time.
Goodmorning all of you wonderful people
You matter
Your amazing
Your loved
Good job
Day 4 ainât easy to get to
journaling is a great idea. Also reading and posting here is also
Iâm rooting for you
Hey all, checking in on day 429. I hope everyone is doing well
Checking in on Tuesday morning. Sober and grateful.