This is so great! I’m so happy for you 
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Wow, sooo tiny 
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I’m happy to read this, Zzz! 
I look forward to seeing you around here more.
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25 days sober.
I have been really over-worked running my business – working 7 long days a week, every week, for the past few months. Yesterday, my only birthday wish was that I didn’t have to lift a finger. My husband stepped in for me, while also giving me the sweetest little low-key celebration. I went on my first long walk in months with him and the dog. I napped, I ate, I watched a movie. Today I woke up hangover-free for the first 18th of August in 20 years. The revitalising effect of a sober day off has actually made today the most productive day I have had in a very, very long time, while still maintaining a calm mind. I am massively grateful.
Also, a big thank you to @beachmouse, @CATMANCAM, @Rockstar24777, @Hopeful777 and @No_more_C2H6O for the birthday wishes! 
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@beachmouse thank you 
this really is an amazing place with wonderful people
@Charlie_C Jackie is adorable, you must be so proud, congrats again 
@Misokatsu I really appreciate it
@Aussie_Tiger sorry you’re struggling, sending strength
@icebear I hope you woke up feeling better today 
@RetainKingII be well
@Hopeful777 thank you and congrats on dealing with this stuff head on
@anon57836609 I’m so sorry about your cats 
@TheWolf congrats on 80 days
373 days no alcohol.
341 days no cocaine.
Today was not the day. Have binged twice and didn’t go for exercise, this week started off so well.
I have my ED therapy review tomorrow afternoon, really hoping to get some more support 
Then the meal for family birthdays tomorrow evening.
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Good days and bad ones Tyler. Whatever happens we don’t use. And as long as we don’t it was a good day regardless. Hoping tomorrow will be better for you though 
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Just had a bad encounter… Triggershit dropped in my mailbox… Barely able to withstand but since I stopped smoking also no lighter in the house…bcant really tell if it was me who was strong enough… At the point to shout out @mno but I managed… Still it takes me back to the history of the house and how deeply I need to get moved… Sometimes it seems like to much … But it is just what it is …
I made it and will not hastate getting that mail boy but it makes me realise so much about futures and choices… I am so free atm… But still past times are tapping my back … why… ?
Just speaking out… Get that idiot shit of my mind couse I want to get the phone number and kick the living shait out of them…
Really consider a blow but in my condition I can’t make it to the coffeeshops and back 
Still blessed, bit stirred
Had my support system ready… It does matter
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That’s unfortunate what happened to your mother. I hope she finds something ten times better.
Not being able to sleep at night it the worst for me. It makes me want to drink. Now I use melatonin and Diphenhydramine which is the active ingredient in Tylenol PM. I tried taking Valerian root and Passion flower extract until I learned that they may interfere with a medication I take.
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So beautiful & precious! Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy.
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I am so sorry, if years they feel like part of the family. Is the bf moving in?
I actually remembered that we had a great dane dog when I was younger. Mum had wanted it in the first place but we had him years. Then we moved house and the garden couldn’t be secured and he kept escaping. So my mum decided to give him away. I was devastated. I remember the sadness and the feeling of helplessness that it wasn’t my decision to make. Is ur mum being understanding and sympathetic to ur feelings.
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The great thing about sobriety is we can be there for people, just like u are doing now for ur mum.
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Checking in gratefully sober 
Making it a point to work on having better boundaries with my family around alcohol. I just don’t care to be around it and I need to protect my sobriety better to keep it. ODAAT. 
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Thank u for ur words and advice. Thats how I feel like u felt ur first 5 months everything emotional my brain tells me to escape numb the feelings shoot a bag and run away.
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Day 97 … my sister told me today that she had another son . Wow . Its been years since seen her I held her first son after birth then poof back into the abyss of active addiction. I’ve said hurtful things to her . She didn’t even have a way to contact me and if so she didn’t want to . My sponsor told me dont let it confuse.me into being resentful I did this to myself and to her. Stay sober so I stop letting life pass me by . Im my sisters children only uncle and we have a small family. I thought about getting high because of the self pity and resenting that I hate that I missed out on so much. Anyway have a good night everyone . Still so fucken surreal that im not obsessing over dope. Im facing another fear this weekend . Fear of heights…six flags it is lol . Im not living in fear anymore …stay up world
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Day 417, in addition to everything else I had going on this week…my fiance just tested positive for COVID. Not sure how this will impact the rest of the happenings yet, but man…we just can’t catch a break lately! One thing I am thankful for though is that her body seems to be handling everything well and she isn’t super sick. Have to find that silver lining! Stay safe out there folks!
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Checking in sober and free another day from booze. @Charlie_C your granddaughter is precious. Thank you for sharing. Tonight could have gone very differently than it did. I got off of work and realized I was completely out of dog and cat food. Had to run to the grocery store - grocery store…at night…after work…usually equaled a bottle of something. Tonight I walked in thinking “you’ve got this” and surprise…“Hold On” by Wilson Phillips was playing overhead. It wasn’t until a few days ago listening to a sobriety book that I realized that song is about sobriety even though I somehow know every word to that damn thing. It couldn’t have been timed more perfectly and I will say helped me hold my head a bit higher through the whole store. Ya never know where the sobriety elves will pop up next!! Peace y’all.
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Good morning all . Checking in day 54
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Checking in Day 17 AF/ Day 263 no cannabis
Sleepy girl here! I drove today about 5.5 hours, just me and my dog, heading back home after spending some time with fam. Hosted a virtual gathering tonight and it went really well. A huge surprise was a woman I’ve become friends with through the magic of social media happened to be in town today and reached out, so she came by and we met for the first time in person and she joined in on the virtual event. It was also a great moment when she brought a bottle of wine (we’ve never talked about alcohol before) so I let her know I don’t drink, and she was totally cool with it. It turns out she generally prefers not to drink anyways. We had seltzer and got to know each other, and man, it Is great to make a friend where there is no history of alcohol consumption between us and just start off with a fresh, clean slate. There are so many more interesting things about getting to know someone without the distraction of booze.
Hope everyone is doing all right this evening!
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Day 68 was hot 
I helped out at the kids’ school today preparing for the coming school year. Mostly moving boxes around in a hot gymnasium and sweating a lot. I’m counting it as a workout. Tomorrow we’ll have some friends over. Bit nervous about that, but I’m trying to stay in the present. Hope everyone is having a great week.
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Checking in…
598 days substance-free
13 days sugar-free
Sometimes I feel like I am living a dream now, then there are other days when I think back at my life and am like “No that was a fucking nightmare.” 33 fricken years of chaos and suffering. Since coming into recovery I have been hearing so often of people coming " in and out of the rooms" since they were teens. I often wonder how my parents could have been so fucking blind. I mean how many times does one need to find crack pipes and burned cans and spoons and fucking glass pipes and be lied to before they clue in? It was just easier to never clue in because they couldn’t deal with the truth. I mean even when I came home a pregnant meth addict after being basically missing for 7 years my mom told me that they’d never suspected drugs, they’d thought I had HIV. Surprised I didn’t come home with that too, I was lucky.
Recovery has allowed me to rise from that shit. From the, squatting, dumpster diving, drug selling, running from the cops all the time, driving drunk, passing out before dinner, low life loser who didn’t give a shit about anyone or anything but getting herself loaded. I was so full of resentment towards MYSELF that I deflected it onto everyone. I couldn’t stand to be sober because I hated who I was so much. That’s not me anymore, I don’t hate myself anymore, I am even working towards love. ( sorry for the rant not sure where it came from, guess it was on my mind)
Anyways, I did my first amends tonight, it was with my ex-husband. The ex-husband who I couldn’t even speak to for the first 2 years after our divorce I had so much anger towards him. I had so much resentment and hatred towards someone who tried so hard to keep me alive. That is part of the insanity of addiction, we just can’t see the reality of things. The amends went well, I knew it would be ok, I knew he would be proud of me and happy for us as a family. All he ever wanted was for me to be ok, he just didn’t know how to help me.
So onward and upward from here.
Healing isn’t easy, it is hard work, but it’s so worth it.
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