Look at you go girl 
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@Dazercat Love the post! Canāt say it was pretty but better than being hungover or drinking! 
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Checking in, day 301 no alcohol, day 51 no cigarettes. Today was my day off, I got a haircut, it always makes me feel better. I spent the afternoon with a friend, yesterday I was in a bar with my family and had a really great time both times. Iām really glad that Iām able to build connections again, even if only in my weird introvert way, Iām able to see beyond the storm of my feelings and thoughts and actually notice others. I missed the outer world a lot. Also received the sobriety bracelet I had ordered. Iām really not into jewellery, I donāt even wear my wedding ring, but this just feels right. I bought it for my anniversary - I started to sober up and joined TS about a year ago in September (relapsed in November), and sobriety has really become a part of me. Itās good to work every day on something so valuable.
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Day 1400
āEveyone has a plan until they get punched in the mouthā
Mike Tyson
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Hello fam. Checking in @day #52
Thank you @Wakikki for the miss ya message. Means a lot 
Iāve been ok. After 2 months I can safely say Iām back to full health. By the grace of God. Work has been ok. Thankful for a job/income/working remote. Been trying to bond with my dad more. We never had a close relationship growing up but heyā¦things change and now we have opportunities to take advantage of.
Going to Seattle for the long weekend to visit my daughters. Very excited. Last time they saw me was when I had full blown c-19. Scariest time of my life. Honestly thought I wasnāt going to make it. I felt like it. Doctors told me I wouldnāt. My daughters were crying seeing their dad on the floor dizzy and weak and not even able to stand up. Off to the ER I wentā¦.they wanted to keep me for 5 days and give me the -19 ātreatmentā. I said nope. Iām not staying 5 days and left the hospital. I have strong ideas and a belief system that I wonāt go into right nowā¦but here I am fully restored in healthā¦
I do look at life differently now though. A little more slowlyā¦smelling the roses kind of thing. Enjoying the dinners with dad, phone conversations with my kids, taking walks, noticing the little things. Life is too short. I thought I was going to sleep and not waking up. But Iām here for a reason and I want to make the best of my life and the rest of my life. Sobriety has been a huge kickstart in all of this. And so has this platform and the beautiful people involved. 1st time around I slipped up after 51 days. Today itās 52. Itās encouraging. Itās hopeful. Itās empowering. It has not been easy though. Honestly lately Iāve had a few triggers and I get so angry because I want to enjoy a glass of wine with my pasta at a nice restaurant. But my sober thinking says I canāt. I just canāt go down that road or path again. I spent too many years down in the gutter, wasting my life. No more. It takes time. And Iāve realized you never really āget thereā meaning to a point like oh Iāve got this forever. No worries for me. Nope. Watching a couple over dinner with drinks or watching the thousands of beer commercials during a football game is still new and challenging for me to get through sober. But again by Gods graceā¦ODAATā¦Iām doing it. It is a beautiful life. But I do get jealous at those that can drink ānormallyā if thereās such a thingā¦
Anyway just wanted to give a quick update. Sorry I have like a month of posts that I just wonāt be able to catch up on but Iāll try to get back into getting on here a few times a week and more down the road. Miss you guys and think about you often. Thank you for being that rescue boat thatās always there when I need it 
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Sooo glad to hear from you, and so happy you are OK. Missed to see you check in once a while, I like to read how you are doing. Made my Day to see you today 
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Well done!!! Keep trucking! 
Day 130.
6am.
Struggled to fall asleep last night from the anxiety. And my room was still hot from the sun hitting my room all day. Tossed and turned and did ninja fights with my doona most of the night. I need to invest in an air con unit.
Glad I got through last night and woke up clean.
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Such a beautiful day outside today not to hot not cool just perfect still clean at 2 months and 27 days 2 days from being 3 months clean but one at a time a lot can happen in 2 days
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@Lionfish that definitely is a sweet catch 
congrats 
@Iwebt congrats on 40 days
@KellyKelly congrats on 3 days AF and double digits CF
@anon27760155 glad to see you checking in, congrats on discarding the wine. Sorry about the financial side of things, sending strength 
@Lulu23 welcome congrats on 4 days
@jjcarson92 congrats on 600 days
@Tomek congrats on 300+ days and with the no smoking too thatās awesome, and thatās a really cool bracelet
@Englishd congrats on 1400 days
@Chosen2001 so glad to hear you are doing better, great share 
388 days no alcohol.
356 days no cocaine.
1 days no disordered eating.
Today I ate per my therapy meal plan. Acceptance. The new book is reaffirming the things I learned in therapy. I did still have an urge to binge after dinner tonight but managed to take a nap and when I woke just now it had passed. I feel a sense of calm and peace with it all, itās nice. Dreading weighing myself in the morning but I need to keep a record and itās good to know where Iām at.
Received some sad news that a close family friend has passed away, he and his wife were away on holiday in the UK and he had a heart attack in their hotel room and died despite the air ambulance crew working on him for two hours, he was waiting for a triple heart bypass.
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Thank you 
Iām sorry to hear about your friend. Thatās so sad. Blessings X
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Itās been a busy day. Morning at the gym, the third session after a month and a half pause - I know itās probably considered a waste of money for most people who have self discipline, but I had to arrange workouts with a personal trainer and I am soooo proud of myself for finally getting back in shape. I thought that I wouldnāt make it today, ācause I woke up at 4 AM (
insomnia!), but I did.
In the afternoon went for a 4 km swim and just relaxed afterwards :-)))
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Day 400
Thanks every for the kind responses the other day!
@Alisa @Rockstar24777 @Soundlab @Its_me_Stella @CATMANCAM @Misokatsu @M-be-free49 (sorry if I missed anyone)
Everyone here I have so much love and respect for yāall.
The first few months of my sobriety were lonely and Iām so damn thankful to have found TS.
Life is still very difficult at the moment but my mom has a surgical consultation tomorrow and will be setting her surgery date. Hopefully it wonāt be too far out. I will be applying for fmla so I can take off work and help care for her when sheās had the surgery.
Staying sober, hydrated, and eating nourishing foods in reasonable quantities. The days are crawling by slowly, taking each hour at a time.
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Massive congratulations, you have made so many changes, u are truly a different person!
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Iām proud of you and not picking upā¦picking up is the easy part staying clean takes real strength and I believe that you have that strength to stay clean 
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mahalo iÄ 'oe 
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This is the first thing you need to do, accept what you are, once you accept your an addict you can start to find a better way.
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Good to see, well done mate
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Youāre welcome, super proud of you! 
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