I’ve not slept too well recently, not sure what that’s about but I’ve been dragging my heals around the past few days as a result. And I’ve found myself starting to get drawn into some negative thought patterns. The good thing is that I am much better at dealing with these thoughts now and have a variety of tools I can use to work through them. And these tools are all things that I have encountered and learnt about through the forum. For that, I am really grateful.
I’m a little nervous about what the winter will bring, but I’m working hard at putting things in place to make it as stress free as possible. And the community here and the connections I have made are a huge part of that.
Coffee. My one true day off this week. Spinning class and that’s it. Thank god I don’t feel the need to go to the bar in the afternoon just because it’s Friday or something. And drink myself (close) to a blackout. Never again. Live’s still not easy sober but much much better. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean is a good start to that. Love.
I walked the last 14km to therapy group yesterday. Hiking gives me a good mindset to think about therapy and the homework we do for it. Some beautiful nature on the way too. Therapy itself was intense. Did some dramatherapy involving giving and receiving compassion and comfort. Got away from it totally exhausted. It was good though.
Good morning and happy Friday! It’s been a great week for me and I am so grateful. Just a couple bumps along the way, mostly in my relationship with my guy, but at the same time it’s forced us to have meaningful and valuable conversations. I’ve tried to be a proponent of working on communication in relationships and I’ve had to point that attention back on myself and my husband because we seemed to have lost sight of some of that. He’s my best friend and we talk all the time, but “talking” doesn’t always equate effective communication. I have had to own the fact that I can fall into old patterns of evasiveness and avoidance of the tough conversations. And he admits he doesn’t necessarily see the forest for the trees - meaning, he doesn’t actively avoid tough stuff but he also tends to see the world through rose colored glasses. It’s good to engage in inquiry on how things are really going and do a status report of sorts. So, we agreed last night that a regular check-in is going to be part of our routine. We’ve managed to set a weekly schedule for daily chores and it should be easy to add in there a check-in to see how we’re doing. I really like this idea, because then it’s less about, “Rosa seems upset, maybe I should ask her what’s wrong,” because that is usually the opposite of what I want in those moments - would rather be left alone to work through whatever is bothering me and reach out if I need to. Anyway, long story short, our chalkboard weekly schedule/calendar now includes “CHECK IN” on Wednesdays in addition to dust/vacuum and clean the bathroom!
I’m looking forward to doing some work in the yard and garden today and to a last hurrah of summer-like weather tomorrow. It’s looking like a great weekend. And I have my first acupuncture appointment to look forward to on Monday, as well. Sending love and sober strength to you all on this Friday. Please reach out if you find yourself struggling and use your network to work through the tough stuff - this community is here for you.
Great point! Listening is as important to communication, maybe even more important, than talking/expressing. Thank you for that. We just reached 15 years together and I think it’s easy for me to assume I know what is going on in his head. Not a good practice.
That’s so reassuring to hear, thank you for sharing. I feel myself on the cusp of that sort of transition or self-awareness, whatever you want to call it, and I’m really interested in where this will go for me and my own development. Not just for myself but in our partnership, as well. Eric has been doing some work on his own, more than before, and it’s interesting to hear what is swirling around in his brain - I don’t know if you’ve hear of the Bullet Journal method but I bought the book for him for his birthday and he dove in head first. I’m starting the book this weekend.
Maybe this is why you were on my mind. I know there’s pain and sorrow ahead. And I know you have the strength to step up and be the daughter who helps her mother. Blessings on your house .
Day 483 clean and sober today. I decided to flip my day around and I freaking love it! Working from 8-5 is awesome, instead of staying up late when I get off, I go to bed around 7:30pm and start my day at 4am. It’s so nice and quiet, perfect for me to meditate and center myself for the day ahead. Going to set aside time in the morning to practice my guitar as well. Have a fantastic day everyone I love you guys!
Really grateful to my HP, my home groups, you guys and the programme. I’m only sleeping 3-4 hours a night but way better than drinking/hangovers/and all that mess.
Day 11. I heard that when you decided to become sober your sleep improves. I’m on day 3 with little to no sleep. I think that was what started my drinking; medication wasnt working but a glass of wine would put me out. I tried to remember at what point in the last 18 months did one glass morph into a case or more and I’m still not sure. When did I start wanting more and more? I’m close to my Bachelor’s degree in Psychology and looking at pursuing my masters and this question has been on my mind since reading the addictions sections.
Any way sober ramblings of day 11. I’m having dinner and getting pedicures tonight with my one sober friend. I’m so excited!
Have a nice weekend everyone 
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