Checking in daily to maintain focus #35

[Ravikamor]

I forgive you well well done on your one year Andre!!! I’m so proud of you

[Andy_Charlie]

Congratulations!!! Soooo proud of you @5th_dimension te felicito !!!

Turning two weeks without smoking cigarettes been pretty hard to stop smoking…
735 days without drinking alcohol and 6 years and 3 months without self harm…

[Gracie1]

Day 13 of being sober, today was quite productive and fun, I hope you lot had a lovely day and enjoy fen I fr you didn’t just know tomorrow’s a new day to start fresh, Goodnight.

[Betteroffbaby]

Huge congrats!!!

[Nowenbrace]

129. Hi friends and Happy Thanksgiving to our US neighbors! Grateful for a strong cappuccino today and an opportunity to do maintenance on my dual sport motorcycle. Finally washed it after a year, yesterday and today I’ll put the chain back on.

I find I have more motivation for tasks now that I’m not using. I can do more of things that involve a bit of discomfort. My so and myself are house sitting for her sister and so far I have refrained from “triggering myself” by downing a cold beer that’s sitting in the fridge. 2 points for renunciation

@Mno Big congrats on your 900! Thanks for leading me to TS and for showing us the way; the way of love and care

@5th_dimension congrats Andre on your year of sobriety and abstention! Amazing! I can abstain now as I’m in my 50’s but at a younger age that is so more determination. We’ll done!!

[Misokatsu]

Congratulations!

[Lisa07]

Woo hoo! Congratulations on 2 years @Andy_Charlie!!
Sorry this is a little late but I don’t recall seeing you post on your anniversary.

[Dolse71]

congratulations on your year of sobriety, sounds goooooood

[Dolse71]

60 days is huge but…

@ShadowFax

[Callie99]

So proud of you!!! 60 whole days!

[Dazercat]

Congratulations on you 60 days buddy. That’s HUGE!!!
So happy for ya.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Evening check in
Lots of emotions this evening. I like being productive during the day but over productivity stresses me out. I’m the kind of person that needs down time to recharge and if I’m going going going…thoughts of using come up (to relieve stress). Anyway, today went well. Spent my paycheque wisely. Coming up to Day 5 in a couple hours. Needing some serious self care tonight before bed when I’m done everything.
Tomorrow will be a challenge. I’m sensing it. Trying not to feed into it tho. My husbands payday is tomorrow. He always has extra money left over which isn’t the greatest at times. We have bills to pay and groceries etc. My plan is to tell him beforehand not to make a call (cuz sometimes he will just call on his way home from work and I end up finding out about it afterwards without even having an opinion on it). Will suggest ordering food instead. I’m resentful right now at my hubby for certain things also. I don’t say anything about it anymore bcuz he always has an answer for everything I say. Waste of my time to say anything honestly. So I put on a fake happy smile, watch my tone, watch my body language, and make sure that it appears that nothing bothers me. Usually if I do mention that I’m overwhelmed or upset etc, he gets mad. So… just going to try and relax on my own and then at 10pm I’ll have a nice bath I’m feeling scared honestly and alone and stressed. I need to figure out how to cope in healthy ways so that I don’t use tmrw.

[Lisa07]

@Butterflymoonwoman

sometimes he will just call on his way home

He needs to delete those numbers. I promise it will make staying clean much easier. It’s like having an extra layer of security in moments of weakness. Having a nice dinner instead is a great plan.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Ya I agree completely. There’s no “what if” I need it anymore. There is no need for drugs. Tmrw will be about communication with him. And honesty about how I’m feeling. The reason he still has them is due to the fact that we owe 80 to the dealer. My husband pays people back and doesn’t want that over his head. He doesn’t want to not pay what we owe. They do know where we live and idk if they would cause shit over 80, but I suppose it’s best to not risk it. We unfortunately have a good relationship with them like my God they buy us damn Xmas presents every year lol but they also owe the big boss alot of money so idk if they would be that desperate over 80 to cause problems. I don’t think so honestly. But either way my hubby wants to take care of it. So it literally will be calling him to pay 80 and then leave… and that’s what I’m telling him to do. And then order food

[Its_me_Stella]

Congrats on your 60 days of sobriety!!!

[Lisa07]

798 Days. This was my husband’s first sober holiday and we had such a beautiful day. I never imagined this day would come and here it is. He’s really enjoying AA and volunteered to lead meetings at the alcathon from midnight last night until 4am this morning. He came home with this happiness about him that I’ve never seen. All due to helping others in a time of need. I have so much to be grateful for today.

An addict we know called last night asking for money. He said he needed $60 to get food. I hate knowing someone will go without on a holiday so I offered to get him a gift card to the supermarket and drop it off at his home. He didn’t want to accept the card and wanted me to drop off cash. I know this game. Been there done that too many times. Hubby told him no cash. Hours go by and he texts again saying “I really need the money”. It was getting late at this point and he lives pretty far away. This time we told him to go to the store, get what he needs and have the cashier call and I’ll give my credit card over the phone. No response and we haven’t heard from him today. I’m not going to enable but I’ll be there when he’s ready to accept the help.

[Misokatsu]

These events are hard when you are missing a loved one. Sending strength. That sounds like a beautiful tribute.

[anon9289869]

Day 484
Quick check in before bed
Realizing lately that food is my love language. Making and sharing food with other people brings me so much joy. Especially when it’s something healthier but still very flavorful, with fresh veggies and herbs that I have grown, introducing people to new foods. The whole process of caring for a seed and nurturing it through growth, watching it turn from a micro green into a fully formed piece of produce, turning it into a meal that will in turn nurture those I love and am cooking for… it makes me more inclined to take care of myself, protect my sobriety, and be around to continue the cycle of care.

Idk…bedtime ramblings. Have been thinking of you all a lot lately but never seem to open the app. Wishing you all well. Thanks for being here and sharing your journeys!

[Rockstar24777]

Thank you @Misokatsu I appreciate that.

[Mno]

902. Coffee. Just the one day of work to do before a real weekend. Therapy was good yesterday. The hike I took before was good too, even though I didn’t get to the meditative state I sometimes find when walking.
     Every day is different. But being sober and clean is a constant. Because my life is so much better this way. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober please. It helps. It helps so much. Love from Amsterdam and Toketee Falls OR in 2018.