Wow! I must have missed this! I’m so happy for you, Tomek!
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Huge congrats! 10 months is great!
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Checking in Day 89 feeling great this morning and there is some sunshine which helps. Got out of bed before noon which is a victory.
Going to go for a walk and get some exercise, tonight I have my special meeting for addicted health care professionals.
I also feel the need to get into some NA stepwork and start writing out the steps.
Wishing everyone a clean and sober day we can do this together!
Kat
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They are so cute 
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Day 443 
Have a nice week to everyone 
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My two beautiful daughters are back to their mothers. I feel like shit, empty, still in love with my exwife, and useless as hell, but I won’t surrender. Reading this forum is actually helpful. Gotta do something to fill my head, it’s gonna be videogames or TWD season 11. Thanks to all of you.
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Exciting times! All success your way Tomek. Happy for you.
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I’m glad it is helpful Pat. It’s also its main purpose right. Glad it works for you. On y va. Un jour à la fois. Merci à toi d’être ici.
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Checking in at 100 days sober!
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Ooh I’m glad I saw that happy little puffin on my forum feed! Congrats on reaching that milestone!
Sorry if you’ve been posting regularly, I am not up to date with this thread… How have things been going? What’s working this time?
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Checking in on day 1275.
Not been checking in much recently but happy to see everyone keeping on at it! Wanted to share an experience I had at the weekend.
Friday night went out to a club. It was an 11pm - 4am event 
Very weird to be going out after bed time!
I loved the bone rattling bass, the dancing, the super cheap night out (three bottles of water - one that I gave away to someone in a bad state - and a coke), being able to drive home and get my friend back safely, no weekend of hangovers…
Seeing other people there getting ‘on it’ reminded me so much of the kinds of nights out I used to have and I do not miss it one bit. I woke up with all my stuff, barely a dent in my bank balance and a head full of memories of a fun night.
At the start of my sobriety journey I never imagined I could enjoy something like this without drinking. But now I can! It didn’t just happen over night and I made the choice to miss quite a lot of things like this to start with. In the grand scheme of things, what’s a year or two? I needed to give myself that time to find my sober groove and now I’m getting back out there, it’s to the things I want to do. Not just doing things for an excuse to get wasted.
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Happy day 1275 Siand! 
+1000 days
@Its_me_Stella thank you for catching that 
This makes me so happy to read. It gives me hope that I’ll be able to go out and have fun again- only sober.
Thank you for sharing
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Checking in AF and happy to be sober and not drinking!
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Back to Day 1. I allowed myself to get overwhelmed by anxiety and physical pain. I was all alone in the house, which is bad, bad, bad when I am feeling like that.
I drank very little but feel like I drank a lot. My body is done. I am sad but remain determined. I really would have preferred to slide on by without admitting it. Lying solves nothing.
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Did you call or text anyone first before you picked up? Did you try getting in touch with one of us before you picked up? There’s a shit ton of people here, and you know that, that would have listened to you. Made time for you. Love you. Sometimes I just don’t understand addiction. I’m glad you’re here. And I love you. And my PM is always open.
Fuck addiction.
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Huge hugs girl… im glad u posted and didn’t stay away from us 
I’m sorry to hear about your slip. Take the day for some reflection about what happened and what lead up to it. And of course lots of self care. Don’t allow this slip to keep dragging u down ur here and u got this! I’m here for u hugs
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Checking in day 42, six weeks sober.
Survived the weekend full of abrupt breakdowns, manic mourning, and the contemplating of self harm in isolation.
The holiday is done, what has been done that is out of my control is done, I can go back to rebuilding myself, focusing on myself and being the best me possible.
Someone asked me the other day how 40 days sober felt and I lost my shit because I was so sad.
My family is a bunch of alcoholics that dont believe in the disease, there is ALWAYS alcohol here and the whole weekend, missing my partner,(i CANNOT bring myself to even consider calling them my ex even though they broke up with me) missing our family, missing our home. I kept breaking down saying I just want to fucking go home and it hurts so fucking much to say that. I woke up ok and confident and just having to type that out has made me cry all over again.
I just want to go home.
Ugh. I was only supposed to check in and here I am ranting nonstop. Some of you have said that its healthy to vent here but it makes me feel like im being a burden or a bother.
Still keeping up with journaling and the video logs.
This weekends logs were extremely intense either that or it’s just me breaking down on camera for 10-15 minutes straight, each day for 3 days straight 
Oh whale.
Welp, I’m ranting again.
I hope everyone had a good weekend.
If you broke sobriety, today is another day to try
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Jenè my PM’s are always open too. I’m sorry you struggled last night. But you stood right back up and that takes a lot of bravery. I’m happy you are back
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Yessss… @siand What a great post! There is life after booze and it turns out that it’s even better than we all ever imagined!! 
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Damn straight. It’s a lesson that was hard for me to learn. Proud of you for coming here and telling us. You’re working your recovery, I see you, now keep at it, amiga. Learn from this. I’m sorry for your pain, can relate so well. No way around it that it sucks ass.
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